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- From: an2839@anon.penet.fi (Archer)
- Subject: Re: More total blatant fluff
- Message-ID: <1993Jan1.161603.7699@fuug.fi>
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- References: <9234915.17977@mulga.cs.mu.OZ.AU> <1ghhpaINNlpo@agate.berkeley.edu>
- Date: Fri, 1 Jan 1993 08:38:56 GMT
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- Wow. Wow. Sorry, excuse me as my mind comes back together.
-
- nsn@ee.mu.OZ.AU (Nick Nicholas) writes:
- > I don't want any more excuses to hate myself, of course. I am that which
- > I am. I am a conservative by temperament. I find myself bi, at least
- > intellectually (OK, some phallolatry and admiration of torsos too, but
- > I'm not convinced that's enough, especially when bi-hood is defined, as
- > it has been here, in terms of emotional involvment, and I'm still seeing
- > myself getting close virtually always to women
- > [ ... ]
- > though maybe I do have the power to change it --- I need incentive though).
- > In doing so, I find myself questioning what I'd defaulted with (not
- > that that had started this year) --- and it hurts, and I'm kicking and
- > screaming, and sometimes I swim across, and sometimes, like apparently
- > the last couple of weeks, I turn right back to the familiar banks. I am
- > weak, after all. I am that that I am now.
-
- Wow. Sorry... It's just that this is almost exactly how I feel! Only
- it isn't matters at home, but general stress and other things pushing
- me back.
-
- I'm not *conservative*, but I am sort of set in my ways, even though I
- see room for improvement.
-
- One thing many people can't understand (the few I've told, all of whom
- are supportive) is that I may be what people on this bboard consider
- "bi", or I may not. I don't know, and I'm not in a rush to find out.
- I don't feel of it as eliminating repression or something like that;
- I'm exploring me, and this is only one of many ways I have and am
- doing so. Mind you, I'm trying to think about it so I don't just put
- it in the back of my mind and leave it there.
-
- -"Archer"
- who unfortunately didn't have net access for a while so missed any
- and all demuffin hugs that went my way :(
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