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- Ghost
-
- I went to bed Sunday night feeling a bit depressed. Weekends did
- that to me, with the knowledge that others went out and had fun while I
- did nothing, and it had been the kind of warm spring weekend that people
- say is ripe for romance. I was lying on my side wondering if I would
- ever find a girl, one arm under my pillow and the other arm hugging the
- covers against my ear when I heard a quiet voice.
- "Hello?" it said, sounding tentative. It was a softly feminine
- voice, but there was nobody in the room who could have spoken. After a
- brief startle, I ignored the voice and assumed that I'd imagined it.
- "Hello," it said again, more firmly, just as my thoughts had begun to
- drift.
- "Who are you? What are you doing in my room?" I answered, sitting up
- in the darkness as I groped for the bedside lamp. The light flashed on,
- partially blinding me, but I could see well enough. Nobody was in the
- room with me.
- "Don't get upset," the voice said, pleading. "I don't really have a
- name, I guess you can pick one. I'm in your room because I like you,
- and I've decided that it's time for me to introduce myself. I hope you
- don't mind."
- I sat in my bed with my back against the wall, staring around my
- empty room and seeing no sign of anyone. The voice seemed to come from
- nowhere in particular. "Where are you hiding? Come on out where I can
- see you. What do you mean, you like me."
- "Just that. I've been following you for a year now, and I like you.
- As to why you can't see me, I don't have a body yet."
- I slumped in my bed and pulled the covers back up to my chin. "Then
- this must be a dream," I said. "What do you mean, you don't have a
- body. What are you?"
- "I guess I'm a spirit, or something like that."
- "What do you mean, you guess. Besides, I don't believe in spirits."
- "It really doesn't matter what you believe," the voice said, with a
- chuckle. "I'm me, I'm real, I like you, and I'd like to be your
- friend."
- "It's a hell of a way to begin a friendship," I said, sitting up
- angrily in bed. "Following me around for, what was it you said, for a
- year? Where have you followed me anyway?"
- "Everywhere, most of the time. I'd like to sleep with you."
- "What?"
- "What I said, I want to sleep with you. What kind of body would you
- like me to have?"
- "I've never slept with a girl before," I said, feeling very unsure of
- myself.
- "I know," she said, sounding sympathetic. "I'd like to make love
- with you. What kind of body do you want me to have?"
- "Are you saying you can materialize, that you can look like anyone I
- want?"
- "Yes."
- "That sounds obscene!"
- "Why?"
- "It does, that's all."
- "There must be a reason."
- I sighed and slumped down in my bed. "I don't know. This is too
- weird! Maybe it's just that dreams, fantasies, things like that, maybe
- they aren't supposed to come true. Shouldn't I have to earn my friends
- and accept the bodies nature gave them?"
- "Usually," she said, sounding serious. "But you did earn me, and
- since I don't have a body right now, you have a choice about how you'd
- like me to look."
- "What do you mean, I earned you?"
- "You earned me, just that. I've followed many men over the years,
- and you're the first one who's interested me in a long time.
- "Why me?"
- "Do people need reasons?"
- "No, I guess not."
- "OK, so how do you want me to look?"
- I hesitated, and then decided to play along. "How about tall and
- slim, about my size."
- "Easy enough," she said. "Pick a skin color."
- "I don't know," I said, and then chuckled. "Suntans look nice, but I
- think tanning's a stupid activity. How about naturally dark skin, like
- people from India or something."
- "Hair color?"
- "Black, I suppose. Anything else would look out of place. Make it
- straight and long, and I guess your features should look Indian too, you
- know, oriental."
- "But most tall slim Indians have western looking features."
- "They do? OK, if you say so."
- "What about my figure."
- "How about medium to small breasts, with big nipples."
- She chuckled again. "This is fun, I guessed that one from the kinds
- of girls you like to watch. How about build, skinny, lightly padded or
- muscular?"
- "Slim but muscular," I said. "Be functional, not decorative."
- "Body hair?"
- "I don't believe this," I said, flustered by the thought of ordering
- a human body the way you'd order a meal in a restaurant.
- She chuckled. "I'm sorry, I gess this is a bit weird, but do you
- want my body to have hair, pubic hair and armpit hair?"
- "What choice have I got? I mean, it's stupid for women to shave
- their bodies, but I guess I like the idea of a hairless body."
- "OK, I can make me hairless," she said, and then paused. "That about
- covers everything, ready for me to materialize?"
- "No!" I said, suddenly aware that I was naked. "Let me put something
- on."
- "Why bother? I can't materialize clothing, only a body, so I'll be
- nude. Anyway, I've followed you around for a year; I'm used to what you
- look like when you're nude, and I like it."
- I sighed. "OK."
- She was there. It was that simple. One moment, I was alone in my
- room, and the next moment, there she was, standing in front of me as I
- sat in bed. She was beautiful in the light of my bedside lamp, slim,
- dark-skinned, with even darker areolas that almost covered her small
- breasts, and long black hair down to her waist.
- She took a step towards me and held out her hand. I took it, and it
- was warm and solid, as real as my own. She smiled at me as I looked at
- her, and then she pulled my hand to her breast. "Come, feel me, enjoy
- the body you've helped create."
- "I still don't believe this," I said, my hand trembling as I touched
- her breast. It was soft and warm, real flesh, and very feminine flesh.
- "What can I do to convince you that I'm real?"
- "I don't know," I said.
- She sat on my bed beside me, her thigh against mine, her breast
- touching my arm as she rested her arm around my shoulders. "I suppose,"
- she said, speaking softly, "I suppose it doesn't really matter. Why not
- just enjoy a fun night of fantasy and let the question of whether I'm
- real wait for the light of day?"
- "OK, but I've got to go to work tomorrow, you know."
- "Don't worry, I promise, you'll wake up rested and ready for action
- in the morning."
- "Then convince me," I said, getting out of bed and turning to look
- at her. "Convince me that you're magic."
- "OK," she said, grinning, and then disappeared. She was gone, but in
- seconds, I felt a soft touch. Lips touched mine, hands slid over my
- back, and warm breasts pressed themselves against me. It was the stuff
- of pure fantasy, but it felt so real.
- As I sat back on the bed, I gave in to the fantasy and began
- returning the kisses. There was nothing to see by the light of my
- bedroom lamp, yet I felt a woman on top of me as I lay down in bed. Her
- lips kissed my neck, her fingers touched my chest, and I stroked her
- invisible back.
- My penis rose between my legs with an intensity and speed unlike
- anything I can remember, and then it was engulfed in soft moist sliding
- warmth. I looked down and saw nothing. My hands rested on nothing to
- each side of my erect penis, but I could feel it. I could feel her body
- between my hands and I could feel her body surrounding my penis.
- My curiosity was overwhelmed by the sensation. The pressure in my
- penis mounted to limits I'd never experienced in my solitary pleasures,
- and then I felt an orgasm like nothing I'd ever expected. It roared
- through me, it mounted higher, and roared again, sending waves of pure
- undiluted pleasure through my body as my penis slid in and out of the
- invisible soft velvet of her body.
- It lasted a long time, and then I felt her lips on my mouth and her
- breasts on my chest. We kissed, I slid my hands over her invisible
- body, and I wondered what was happening to me. In no time, I felt my
- erection returning, and the rise to another orgasm swept my thoughts
- aside.
- It seemed like the entire night went on like that, one impossible
- dreamlike orgasm after another, each perfect, each satisfying, and each
- leaving me rested and ready for more. If it was a dream, it was the
- most incredibly sexy dream I've ever had, and if it was real, there was
- no way I could reconcile it with anything I knew about reality.
-
- --
-
- Monday morning, I woke up aware of her body pressed warmly against
- mine. Her fanny was against my hips, her back against my chest and my
- fingers were on her hard nipple. I could smell her, and when I opened
- my eyes, I could see the back of her head only inches from my face.
- "Are you awake?" she asked, in a very quiet voice.
- "Yes," I answered. "Who, what are you? Did we really ... ?" I
- broke off flustered.
- She chuckled and held my hand to her small, soft breast. "Did we
- really what? We really did make love last night, almost all night, if
- that's what you want to know. For a beginner, you're pretty good, it
- was fun. As to who I am, I don't have a name yet, but you're welcome
- to name me. What am I? I'm not sure what I am now, but I was born a
- girl, a very normal girl, a long long time ago."
- "How long ago?"
- "Hundreds of years, and it's been a century or so since I last took
- human form." Her voice sounded sad. "When I'm in human form, I get so
- disgusted with people, but when I'm a spirit, I miss having a body so
- much."
- "Are there others like you? There's a word, a succubus, is that what
- you are?"
- "A succubus? I've played that role at times, and I'll admit that it
- can be fun, but it's not something to dedicate a life to. I don't know
- if there are others like me. I guess it's possible, but I've never
- found any evidence of any except in folktales."
- "It sounds like you've had some lonely times."
- "I have," she said, and then took a long breath. "You know, in all
- those years, I've never talked about it with anyone else."
- I didn't know how to respond to her, but I liked the feeling of her
- body against mine and I liked the way she held my hand to her breast.
- She stroked my forearm with her hand, and then sat up beside me and
- looked down at me. Her skin was a warm brown in the early morning
- light, except for her dark brown lips and the dark circles of her large
- areolas. She gracefully shook her long hair, smiled, and slid a hand
- down my chest.
- It was exciting looking at her and feeling her fingers on my skin,
- and when she noticed my excitement, she wordlessly straddled my hips
- with her thighs and slid herself down to engulf me. She was gentle at
- first, sitting on my hips and moving ever so slightly while she smiled
- down at me and fingered my chest, but as my excitement mounted, she
- began to rock harder, and then I could see that she was excited too. I
- pulled her to me as we neared a shared climax, and the exquisite touch
- of her nipples on mine sent me over the edge as we kissed.
-
- --
-
- After breakfast, I think she wanted to make love again, but I stopped
- her. I pushed her away as she tried to hug me and lead me back to bed,
- and then I confronted her, standing facing her in the bedroom doorway.
- "Look," I said. "Whoever you are, I've got to get to work. I'll be
- late as it is." Her beautiful brown body was very tempting as she stood
- naked before me. "You said you started as a normal girl, then became a
- spirit or something, and now you're very much a girl, but what the hell
- are you? How did you become a spirit?"
- "Magic."
- "Right," I said. "The trouble is, that tells me nothing."
- "I was trapped, my father was a monster, he wanted to force me to
- marry for his political advantage, and I might as well have been in
- prison the way I lived. Worse, I was in love with a boy. Under those
- circumstances, wouldn't you try things, anything? I did, I found an old
- book, a wizzard's book, I think, and the result was what I am now."
- "What else can your, uh, your magic do?"
- "Not much, not now. I've discovered that the less use I make of my
- magic, the better it is. In the first few years after I earned my
- freedom, I fooled around with it all the time, and it got boring. I've
- learned that in the long run, it's more fun to play by the rules. I've
- also learned how to use my magic powers to temporarily nullify
- themselves, and late last night, after I materialized, I did it. Now,
- I'm all but powerless until this body dies."
- I didn't know what to say. It sounded like she'd made a huge
- sacrifice, and it sounded like she'd made it so she could live with me.
- I looked at her for a while, trying to understand her, and I felt a bit
- lame when I finally broke the silence. "Do you have a name?"
- "Each time I've taken a material form for any length of time, I've
- taken a new name. You chose my form, you may as well name me too."
- "But what name were you born with?"
- "Beryl."
- "It's a pretty enough name, do you mind if I call you that?"
- "OK." She smiled. "I'm glad I chose you, you know?"
- "Why?"
- "Because you're a gentleman."
- "Thanks," I said, looking at her beautiful body as she stood in front
- of me. "Look, what are we going to do. What am I going to do with
- you?"
- "I don't know."
- "That's crazy. I've got to go to work today, what will you do?"
- "Whatever you want me to do."
- "No! What do you want to do? I'm sure as hell not having you hang
- around my apartment all the time as some kind of love slave."
- "Mabe I'll go out and look around the town."
- "What'll you wear?"
- "To go out? I don't see much point in wearing clothes around the
- house. We're the same size, you know. I'm not used to wearing men's
- clothes, but these days, I guess I could. Do you mind if I borrow some
- of your clothes?"
- "What about money and identification? Nowdays, you can't very well
- run around town without money. Don't get me wrong, you're very pretty,
- and so far, you've been lots of fun, but you're a legal non-person, and
- that poses problems."
- "Don't worry," she said. "I have a few letters to write and that'll
- be all taken care of. Let's get dressed."
- I backed into my bedroom and pulled out a pair of jeans for her, then
- hesitated. "I don't have any girls underwear."
- "That's OK. Last time I had a body, they hadn't invented modern
- underwear yet. Quite frankly, I don't see much point to wearing it
- anyway." She stepped into my jeans and pulled them up.
- "What about a shirt," I asked, admiring the way my jeans looked on
- her.
- "With my dark skin?" she asked, and then paused. "Here, I'll show
- you," she said, stepping into my closet and pulling out a white
- short-sleeved shirt. It was a knit shirt, pullover style, with three
- buttons at the neckline. "How about this?"
- "OK," I said, and then it struck me how odd it was that she knew what
- clothing I had in the closet. She really had been watching me for a
- long time.
- As she pulled the shirt on over her head, I began to have second
- thoughts. "Beryl, are you sure you want to wear that?"
- "Why?" she asked, adjusting the collar.
- "Well, it's not very modest."
- "What do you mean?"
- "With your dark skin, your nipples show, look at yourself."
- She looked at herself in my bedroom mirror, and then turned to me and
- grinned. "Don't you like the effect?"
- "Well," I said, looking at her. Her dark areolas were visible
- through the thin fabric, and the lumps of her nipples stood out clearly.
- "I won't say I don't like looking at you."
- "Then OK. You should have seen the dresses I wore two centuries ago
- during the Greek revival craze. Come on, as you said, you're in a hurry
- to get to work."
-
- --
-
- Before I left for work Monday morning, I left the spare key to the
- apartment with Beryl along with forty dollars. I half expected her to
- disappear with both before I got home from work, but as I walked up the
- steps to my apartment, I heard music coming from my sterio.
- "How was work?" Beryl called as I opened the door.
- "OK," I said, closing the door behind me. Actually, my day hadn't
- been very productive; I'd spent too much time thinking about Beryl.
- "Sit down," Beryl said as she came out of the bedroom. "When was the
- last time you went out to dinner?"
- "It's been a long time," I said, looking at her. She wasn't wearing
- the clothes she'd been wearing when I left her in the morning; instead,
- she wore a short white skirt, perhaps fingertip length, with a silver
- camisole top. Her hair was pulled back in a ponytail, and she wore a
- row of four rings in each ear.
- "Like it?"
- "I'm not sure," I said, staring. "You're awfully sexy looking
- dressed like that." The colors set off her brown skin nicely, and the
- fabric of the camisole draped gently over her small breasts, hinting at
- their shape instead of frankly revealing them the way my knit shirt had.
- "Did I give you enough money to buy all that?"
- "I spent a few of the dollars you gave me on fabric, then spent a bit
- of time sewing. The earrings only cost four bucks a pair at that Indian
- import outlet in the mall."
- "But ear piercing, they don't do that for four bucks a pair."
- "I did that myself with a sewing needle."
- I must have blanched a bit at that, because she walked up to me and
- gave me a gentle hug. "Don't worry, I've got enough magic left that it
- wasn't any problem."
- "Sounds like you went to quite a bit of effort," I said, trying to
- collect my feelings. "Where'd you get a sewing machine."
- "I did it by hand," she said, looking down at herself as she stepped
- back to pose for me. "I've never used a sewing machine, and I grew up
- sewing my own clothes. Anyway, these modern styles are pretty easy."
- She smiled. "Come on, let's go out to dinner. I know you haven't
- been out socially in the year I've been following you, and you need it."
- "OK," I said. "Where?"
- She had a place in mind, and I didn't seem to have much choice. I
- drove there, and it turned out to be a bar, not a dive, but a place with
- food that looked decent and a dance floor. There was evidence that a
- band would be playing later, but as we walked to a table, the only music
- was canned, and that wasn't too loud to prevent conversation.
- We sat at a small table, and after we'd ordered, Beryl leaned forward
- on her elbows to look at me. I enjoyed the way her camisole hung,
- almost but not quite exposing her nipples as she faced me. "I guess
- we've got some talking to do," she said.
- "You're not kidding. Where do you want to start."
- She took a deep breath. "I don't know. I've never done it like this
- before. I always either completely hid my true nature or played it up
- all the way, you know, appearing from a burning bush and making like I'm
- some kind of angel."
- "So? I'm glad you want to be honest, but is that the problem?"
- "Not really."
- "What is?"
- "In a way, I guess it's modern times."
- "What's the problem?"
- "Freedom. I guess you can see that I like the idea of being able to
- express my sexuality, and I like the idea that a girl who likes a guy
- can just move in with him, but, well, there are some things you can't
- take for granted these days."
- "Like?"
- "In the old days, a girl could expect men to support her without much
- trouble. She'd keep house and keep the bed warm, and her man would earn
- the money and deal with the world. It's not like that now."
- "Right, and it's worse. To get a job, you need a social security
- number, and to get a number, you need proof of legal residence and
- employability in the United States."
- She grinned at me. "I know, I haven't been asleep all these years.
- The first thing I did this morning was buy a postal money order and
- write for a copy of my birth certificate."
- "What? I thought ..."
- She shushed me, then continued in a low voice. "I was born in
- Wyoming 22 years ago and I'm half American Indian. My folks named me
- Jenny Smith, but I've gone by the name Beryl since I ran away from
- home."
- "What about school records, things like that."
- "I'm self-educated, and damn proud of it!"
- "Do you have relatives?" I asked as I realized what she was implying.
- "And what about friends? They could really mess things up."
- "They're all dead. Don't worry about it."
- The waitress delivered our food, and soon after that, the band
- started to play, drowning out any effort at continued conversation. I
- looked at Beryl while I ate, unsure about what she'd done. It certainly
- didn't sound legal, but at the same time, I couldn't imagine any legal
- way for a spirit, if that's what she was, to get a legal identity in
- today's world. Had there been a Jenny Smith? How had she died, and how
- did Beryl think she could claim her identity. I wasn't sure I wanted to
- know, and in a way I was glad that the music was loud enough to prevent
- me from asking.
- The food was quite good, and the music was good enough that even
- though I'm no dancer, I was tapping my feet and gently nodding my head
- to the beat of some of the pieces. My knees touched Beryl's under the
- little table, and after she finished her small meal, she slid her hand
- down under the table and rested it on my knee, smiling as she touched
- me.
- "Want to dance?" she asked during the first lull in the music after
- we finished eating.
- I hesitated. "I'm no good."
- "So? I haven't danced in years, come on."
- The evening passed in a whirl. She may not have danced for a
- century, but she did know how to dance, and better than that, she was a
- good teacher. After a short while, I forgot my awkwardness and began
- enjoying myself. Beryl was fun to watch as she gyrated in front of me,
- and I could tell that she wanted me to watch her.
- As the music slowed, I wanted to hold her, and judging by the way she
- danced in my arms, she wanted to be held. Her fingers gently traced the
- curve of my back, and she felt warm and soft as she moved against me
- with the beat of the music.
- As the piece ended, she whispered in my ear. "Let's go home."
- "OK." I said, and followed her to the door. Following her was fun.
- Her short skirt seemed awfully short when seen from the rear, barely
- decent but very fun to watch. It was almost disappointing as we left
- the lights of the bar and went out into the dark parking lot.
- "That was nice," Beryl said as we walked into my apartment. She took
- me by the waist and kissed me, holding the kiss for a long time,
- stroking my back with one hand while she held her other hand on my
- chest. I felt a bit awkward, unsure what I should do with my hands,
- until I realized that it must be reasonable for me to do with my hands
- what she was doing with hers.
- "That was nice," she said, breaking the kiss. "I like the way you
- touch me."
- An uncomfortable thought struck me as I looked at her. "Do we have
- to worry about, well, birth control? I mean ... "
- She smiled. "No, but if you want children someday, we can have them.
- Would you like to dance some more?"
- "OK," I said. "What kind of music?"
- "Something long?"
- I put on a tape, and then she held my hand and we began to dance
- again. She was a sensuous beauty, and it wasn't long before I was
- sexually aroused by the way she touched me and moved with me.
- "Don't get impatient," she whispered as I fondled her breast through
- the thin satin of her camisole. She pushed away my hand, and for a few
- minutes, we danced, facing each other but not touching.
- Beryl danced gracefully, back to me, and I wanted to hug her to me,
- but she shrugged off my arms and began to undo my shirt. Her touch was
- gentle as she pulled my shirt off, but she never stopped dancing, and
- when my shirt was off, she flowed into my arms once again.
- "You can undress me, if you want," she whispered as I slid my hands
- over her body.
- I felt clumsy taking off her camisole, but she smiled as I set it
- aside, and then she stepped back from me and danced, letting me watch
- the gentle swing of her long black hair and the bounce of her small
- breasts as she moved.
- "You're beautiful," I whispered as she came back into my arms. Her
- breasts pressed softly agains my chest as we danced, and I could feel
- the four earrings in her ear against my cheek.
- She didn't answer, but slid her hand down my back and slid a finger
- under the waistband of my pants.
- "Keep dancing, don't say anything more," she whispered, kneeling in
- front of me, still swaying with the music as she kissed my belly and
- undid my belt. She gently pulled off my pants, and as she freed my
- erect penis, she gently kissed it before standing to hug me and kiss me
- on the lips.
- My penis pressed agains her as we danced, and she smiled down at it
- and petted it before stepping back and pulling my hand to the buttons
- that held her skirt. I knelt to undo the four buttons, and then kissed
- her belly as I set the skirt aside. Unbuttoned, the skirt was little
- more than a band of fabric a yard long and a bit over a foot wide, and
- she wore nothing under it.
- She pulled away from me when I tried to hold her, but she kept
- dancing, letting me watch the erotic motion of her body for a few
- minutes before she finally pulled me to her and kissed me. Our dancing
- had degenerated to just swaying together, and as I kissed my way away
- from her mouth, she hugged me by the back of the neck and directed my
- attention downward, first to her soft breasts and hard nipples, and
- then lower.
- I knelt to kiss her belly, and then hesitated about kissing any
- lower. She knelt to face me, her knees to my knees and her hands on my
- buttocks, kissing me again as we swayed to the music. My penis pressed
- eagerly into the space between her legs, and after a minute, she pushed
- me gently back into a sitting position on the rug and then straddled my
- lap and worked herself down over me. As I entered her, she kissed me,
- hard, and then leaned back, holding me with her hands behind my neck and
- smiling at me as we rocked to the rhythm of the music.
- She looked down at where our bodies joined, and I looked down,
- following her gaze and feeling a bit awed. I slid my hands from her
- fanny up her sides, and her smile turned to bliss as I began to gently
- touch her breasts.
- I lost track of time as we rocked to the music. My attention was
- focused on the moist warmth of her body surrounding my erect penis, and
- then an intense look came over her face as she pulled me to her and
- began kissing. Her hips rocked in my lap, and I could feel waves of
- muscular contraction rippling through her from within. She gasped, and
- then I was gasping myself, feeling the pumping within me as I rocked my
- hips in a desparate effort to thrust myself even more deeply into her.
- We held each other for a while after that, still rocking gently to
- the beat of the music, but relaxed and happy in the warm afterglow of
- what we'd done.
- "You're fun," I eventually whispered.
- She smiled shyly. "You too. Let's get into bed and I'll teach you
- some more ways to do it."
-
-