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- FRANCAIS, I II III
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- The floor, the little square tiles that made up the floor. Over
- to the window; the cords for the blinds and the layer of dust on the
- sill. The relatively featureless door, a knob and toe marks. That
- desk wasn't the same as the others; gray Formica instead of brown.
-
- "Shit," I thought as I griped my way into the first meeting of
- French class. Another light hangover, for a change. The tiny room
- filled slowly with old friends, a couple of new faces momentarily
- passed, talked about Christmas break. Same old thing, I said, same old
- routine. Lots of partying and 60 hour work weeks. Yea. No, I didn't,
- but I sure as hell tried. Oh well. Sang was back, another me-neither.
-
- The girl's jacket wasn't hanging right on her chair; the left arm
- touched the floor under the radiator. Uh, yea, je sais la question,
- wish the professor would leave me alone. The index fingernail is
- broken off; shorter than the other ones. A dark green folder and a
- ballpoint pen.
-
- She walked in after the professor began, sweats and jacket and
- hair pulled back in a pony tail. Blond, that goldish brownish blond I
- like, held back tease. We'll begin with lesson 14 this week, 15 next.
- Intense blue eyes. Couldn't get them on film, like a sunset that looks
- lame on a 5 x 7 Polariod. Probably 17, 18, couldn't be 19. 21? Hah!
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- Glance.
-
- Damn, she looked up as I stared her down. But those eyes. She
- looked sad, maybe, bored, tired? Her eyes sank to the floor, drifted
- over to the window for a while, over to the door. Hair followed the
- motion, caressed the neck, teased the cheeks. Light freckles. Again
- she was staring without looking, the chair in front, the jacket hanging
- crooked. Sixteen-to-one teacher/student ratio, and she was the one he
- picked, not the other fifteen, "How do you say 'I know the question'?"
- Ballpoint pen in the mouth, light red lips surrounding it, caressing.
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- "Je sais la question."
-
- Two weeks of distance, hers mental and mine physical. I caught an
- occasional furtive glance, a splash of intense blue on my retinas, an
- image to fall to sleep by that evening. How to dissolve this distance?
- I sat helpless, her breasts shared the intensity of her eyes and I
- could see the nipples fight for recognition from behind a bra, T-shirt
- and sweater. They were succeeding. I am consuming my life for an
- image, an idea of her, an entire person created from the outside in.
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- Band, music, shadows, noise. The bass reverberates in my chest,
- makes me feel the music. Yea, I think she is, definitely. Orange
- carpet, cigarette burns and beer stains all over it. Beer is getting
- warm, tastes sticky fuzzy. Is that him? Damn, can't see.
-
- Saw her at the campus bar. Surrounded by five or six others, all
- weaving themselves in an animated conversation, jumping and startling
- each other with words; she smiled and returned her gaze to the floor.
- Normal weight, two pounds over, thin neck and small feet. The texture
- of her jeans under my fingers, the curve of the thigh, her shiver as I
- traced the inner curve, images conjured from across the room taking
- over my physical senses. She reached for the pitcher; squinted in my
- direction. More to sleep by that night.
-
- *Adrenalin!* Oh, shit, heart pounding, did he see me? Tall, thin,
- hands strong, scarred here and there. Nice stretch, *god* what a
- stomach. *Adrenalin!* he looked again. Hair, jacket, T-shirt okay.
- Smile, nice legs come here, Hi how are you? Yea, were you there?
- Sure, okay; today? Well, um. Little brown dog skitters across the
- lawn after a frisbee. Uh, yea, sure. Eight. Okay. *Adrenalin!*
-
- January sun beat down, Sang talked about his car. Yea, mine was
- screwed too. Trannie went to hell in the Venture parking lot. Drove
- home in second gear, worked on it until two this morning with a
- flashlight. Tired. Stretch, look around. *Adrenalin!* there she is.
- Look, gotta go, have something to do before I go crazy. Okay, later.
- The sun hit her hair, brought out the gold color as she reached up to
- tug on the barette. Hi, what's up? Weren't you at the Rat last night?
- Yea; listen, um, would you like *Adrenalin!* to go get something to
- eat? Are you busy tonight? Her smile fades into another distant
- stare, she looks out across the campus. Blue eyes re-ignite, the smile
- faces upward, "Yea, sure." Eight? Meet you at the Rat?
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- Mirror, brush, pull. No, damn, no. Spray toss brush. Yea,
- finally. Terrycloth bath towel feels good rubbing my skin. Okay, just
- a second, I'm hurrying! Jill's studying. Poor girl. What the hell to
- wear? Tube top, t-shirt, blue, skirt, faded jeans, might as well be
- comfortable. Faded jeans, the tight ones; white T-shirt, black leather
- jacket. 501 button 1. 501 button 2. Hike up pants. Ugh! 501 button
- 3; 501 button *ugh* 4. Finally. Bye Jill, okay I will, yea. Smile.
-
- The eight cylinders coughed black into the atmosphere and
- complained until the car wash. 50 cents wash, 50 cents rinse, would
- she even notice? Her girlish smile wafts through my head, those upward
- glances she makes to the teacher. Two blue eyes for dinner. She
- doesn't drink just one brand of cola. Squirt Windex squirt squirt.
- Pepsi one day. Damn streaks. Diet Coke another. Decide, would you?
- Else how can I imitate you? Make like a bandit to the Rat, pick her up
- and don't let her down.
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- Dark, smoky. Green light shades look like ones at Torrie's Pizza
- back home. Nervious disappearing, funny conversation. Hair okay?
- Salt shaker, six sides, little holes plugged up. High cheekbones,
- maybe American Indian roots, masculine face. Nice smile. Sure,
- pepperoni's fine. Beer, beer, beer, shut up mind, yea, large Coke.
- Girl next table has great earrings, round gold danglies with Chinese
- pattern, maybe Korean?
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- The ground escaped my reach, I walked without remembering my body
- next to Her. Conversation came in gasps, words sticking to roof of my
- mouth, making sure intelligence not betrayed by stupidity. Pause.
- Salt shaker. Topic search, school, home, music, interrupted with words
- flowing from two pale red lips, follow conversation. She takes long
- drink with Coke, chest pronouncing and receeding with breaths. Blue
- eyes, blue eyes reflecting person inside. Did personalities have
- colors? Hers does. Intelligent blue, open friendly gold.
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- Cold between legs, pants moist? Chair, floor, armrest, nowhere to
- hold Coke while eating popcorn, between legs *Cold* ugh. Done, cup cup
- to floor, dark theater. Glance, he likes movie, arms crossed. Cross
- arms, metal part of armrest cold.
-
- She pushed him down to the elegant bed as the sun blazed across
- the Parisien hotel room and hid under the 18th century dresser, running
- her hands furiously across his strong chest under the cotton of his
- T-shirt, kissing him with renewed vigor as the birds outside flew
- North. Damn good film. I looked at her without moving eyes from the
- screen, looked at her with all senses, felt her arms cross, fingers
- near the armrest. Simulated caffeine overdose as heart lost slow
- rhythm, fingers began mile-long journey towards hers, towards physical
- contact with Intelligent blue, friendly gold; tactile conversation.
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- Did he? Accident? Heart racing. Watch movie. Try. Did he
- again? Move finger, stretch, scratch upholstery, dissimulate. Again?
- Squirm, straighten out pants, brush off shirt, cross arms, cold metal
- part of armrest. Finger! He enlaces with fingers. Warmth. Soft,
- relatively, long. Red again? Dark movie. Driving down street near
- Eiffel Tower, old buildings flowering trees bright signs his hand.
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- Desire to tension to quest to accomplishment, her hand in mine,
- part of that smooth softness lending itself to my emotions, linking
- itself to me psychically. Pants restrict, body focuses upon hand and
- reaction. Her hand isn't enough, need to touch her, tease her, put arm
- around her and feel sexuality vibrate through skin, push forth through
- T-shirt and leather jacket and mingle with my sensibility, my sense of
- reality.
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- Dark room, six windows on two walls. Shades up no-one can see in
- sixth floor. Cool breeze on T-shirt. Pretty brown eyes. He takes
- drag on Camel, face lights up red. Short hair, really short. Eyebrows
- together, nose, rough lips. Moon nearly full shines on bed.
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- Hair has begun gradual escape from her black bow, relaxing formal
- posture, tickling neck. Feel at ease but tense, sensing the last
- vestiges of inhibition escape as silence between two becomes medium of
- expression for both. Position deforms 501s, shiny button peeks forth,
- tempting my glance, simple metal attempting to surpass beauty of two
- blue eyes now begging for my proximity. Attempt grace while slowly
- closing physical space, ease arm to beltline watching face for signs,
- smoke drifts through moonlight.
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- Smell of leather, smoke, him. Lips, tongue feel nice, tickle.
- Thin waist, straight back, legs mix with mine. Open eyes. Arm, tan,
- long. Close eyes. Please, please, yes, shift body, cool breeze on
- bare back. *Aaah* arms up no bra. Large, strong hands. Mmmm.
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- World ceases existance, goes on without me, without us, bodies
- writhe without prompting. Tactile response heightens as shirts join
- carpet in quick cascade; hands search indefinitely, her nails teasing,
- breasts brush, rub my chest, golden hair intermingles with brown. Leg
- beckons hand, knee, ankle, knee, texture and warmth; trace lines asking
- for permission, for request, tactile senses reading favorable reaction.
- Warmth transforms into moisture, intensity, reflection of my state.
- Long fingernail scratches reflection of emotion down my pants, blood
- rushes to reaction.
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- *Stomach* like a washboard, chest good not huge. Smooth, no hair,
- warm, man smell. Closer, closer, push on it, rub it, jeans panties me!
- Breeze smells like spring. Belt buckle. Fingernails tingle when I
- scratch down his legs, tingle at the roots. Button. Turn head, kiss
- deeper, pull. Zipper, slowly, tease.
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- 501 button 4, pause while century occurs, 501 button 3, pause, 501
- button 2. Finger roams near forbidden region, wanders in quest of
- umbilical nerves, tickle and feel her body castigate me as it removes
- itself briefly from mine. How do you feel? Smile, eyes half-closed
- with emotion. Playground, smooth panties, 501 button 1 and top one
- with one deft motion. Hips shift satisfying request of jeans, another
- shift leaves panties similarly situated. Slim feminine fingers read my
- emotions and the spring breeze cools my pent up energy.
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- Tall body hovers over mine, investigates it, kisses it. Breasts
- tingle when rough face touches. Ceiling. Fingers tantalize me, roam
- near and stray far. Emotions beckon for those fingers, touch me
- inside, let me feel your desire, push me, yes, yes.
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- Golden hair lays scattered on pillow, blue eyes shout her emotions
- in large words, into hushed silence of our world comes I want to feel
- you in me, mind rejecting sexuality of it as again 'in me' pierces air.
- Hard focuses toward soft, dry and ready screams for moist and
- beckoning, mind and body become one upon initial brush. Two bodies
- writhe together against an invisible current, moon provides modicum of
- visual stimulation, join and retract, bond and disengage, connect and
- leave, minds become machines reacting only to tactile barrage.
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- Stretching me, pushing my walls. Oh yes. Stomach against mine,
- hot body against my nipples. Shift hips *ooh* *yes* just right, leave
- and return. Fills me completely, pushes me out. Ummm. Rhythms match,
- push me, yes, oh, he tenses. Warm turns to hot, feel upward spurts,
- slowing rhythm, sweat drops to forehead.
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- Room slowly regains composure, face, pillow, bodies spent and
- entwined, bed, six windows, breeze rustling golden hair and startling
- sweat drops scurrying across smooth bare flesh. Smiles of exhaustion
- cross, slight hug, warm thoughts to sleep by for an eternity.
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