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- I'm sitting up in the bed, covered with perspiration, breath
- coming in gasps. A dream? Maybe a dream inside a dream. Rising
- from the bed, I make my way to the bathroom. Turning on the cold
- tap, I wet a cloth and hold it to my face.
- As I look at my reflection in the mirror, I try to recall the
- dream and the man in it. Oh, yeah. I remember. It was that hunk
- who just moved in down the street with three other guys. Must be
- university students. In all honesty I must admit that his good
- looks had not gone unnoticed by me. Still, I'm surprised that he
- would pop up in a dream.
- Making my way back to the bed, I sit down and open the night-
- stand drawer. After the dream, I must admit that the sight of the
- revolver makes me feel better, but the sight of the vibrator just
- makes me feel lonely...and horny.
- Retrieving the ivory colored electronic marvel, I hold it in
- my hands looking at it as if I don't know what its for. Then I
- laugh softly as my mind drifts back to the time I learned that a
- vibrator was for more than just a massage.
- I was 14 then. I had been on the athletic field with the other
- cheerleaders going through our routine for the homecoming game.
- We were in the process of building a human pyramid. Since I was
- the smallest, standing only 4' 10", I was on the top tier.
- Consequently, when one of the girls in the anchor slipped, I
- found myself pinned between thrashing limbs and bodies.
- Unfortunately, my body fell in one direction while my right leg
- was twisted almost backward as the pyramid collapsed.
- At first I seemed to be Okay, but the next morning I could
- hardly move my right leg. The doctor said I had a severely pulled
- muscle in my thigh and that it was probably my excellent muscle
- tone that prevented my femur from snapping. The verdict was that
- I should stay off it for the rest of the week. I was devastated
- about not being able to participate at homecoming, but my parents
- would hear none of my argument.
- Mom and Dad both worked, so I was left home alone for those
- three days before the weekend. On the third day, Friday, I became
- bored, but was too sore to do anything but lay around. Tired of
- my room, I managed to go downstairs to my parents room. They kept
- the best TV and VCR in their room. They also had one of those
- adjustable beds. They bought before such things were fashionable.
- So, with all the proper amenities, I was soon very comfortable
- watching one of their more private movies. It was rated "R" which
- I was normally not permitted to see. It just had the normal
- everyday violence, profanity and sex. As a 14 year-old I was
- rather fascinated by it.
- Furthermore, my sex life at 14 was nil. I hadn't really dated
- very much except when a bunch of us kids would get together or at
- some heavily chaperoned school event. if any guy had ever touched
- me I would have knocked his head off. Of course, my mom had had
- the usual conversation with me about "things" when I began my
- periods, and the 9th grade Health teacher was telling us about
- reproduction and the human body. The class was taught by the
- girls' phys. ed. teacher and she gave us a lot of information
- that we probably wouldn't have heard in a co-ed class.
- On the other hand, I had never had a fixation on sex and had
- never really been interested in boys in that way. All I really
- grasped was that one day I would get married, have babies, and
- live happily ever after. No one had ever sat down and talked to
- me about the sex act in terms of pleasure. Oh, it had been
- intimated, but it was relegated to "something mysterious" that I
- had noticed in movies and that some of us girls would giggle
- about when there was a "sleepover." Actually, I didn't think
- about sex very much at all which is probably why I didn't know
- more than I did. What happened to me on that day changed all of
- that for me forever.
- As I lay on the bed, I began to fiddle around with the bed's
- control module. When I tried to pull it out of its holder, the
- cord seemed to be stuck. Leaning over the side of the bed to see
- what was wrong, I noticed an electrical cord trailing from the
- wall socket to somewhere under the bed. Leaning over the edge,
- almost losing my balance, I reached down and pulled on the cord.
- Instead of freeing the control I heard something sliding across
- the floor. What I retrieved really surprised me.
- It was a vibrator--the kind that had interchangeable rubber
- cups, etc. When I flicked the switch on the handle, the resulting
- vibration startled me so that I dropped it on the floor. Then the
- thing began bumping and dancing very loudly across the hardwood
- floor. I grabbed it and switched it off. I pressed the red rubber
- cup which looked exactly like a miniature toilet plunger against
- the palm of my hand and turned it on again. This time, there was
- only a gentle hum.
- I still remember wondering what it was for. As it hummed its
- low-pitched tune I brought it down to my ace-bandaged thigh and
- pressed it very lightly there. The immediate feeling was
- marvelously pleasant and even though my thigh was still very
- sore, the sensation seemed to make it feel somewhat better. So
- there I lay watching the movie on the TV screen, rubbing the
- vibrator in light circles over my injury.
- Since I was home all alone, I had not bothered dressing except
- for a long t-shirt and a pair of cotton panties. So when I was
- lulled by the very boring movie and the gentle vibrations into a
- semi-doze, I dropped the vibrator. It fell, still humming away,
- between my thighs, landing so that it was leaning against my
- panty-clad crotch. I was so startled, that I grabbed it and
- turned it off. There was an awareness that the vibrator, even
- though briefly, had felt strange against my private area.
- I don't know why I did what I did next. I suppose you could
- call it "experimenting." I flipped the on switch and put the
- device to my thigh again. This time, as I rotated it over the
- bandage, I let it drift closer to my pubic area. Pretending that
- I was doctoring my injury, I let the vibrator get closer and
- closer to where it had been dropped just moments before. There
- was definitely a very pleasant feeling that was generated as the
- device came closer to the edge of my panties at the top of my
- thigh.
- Each circular motion of the vibrator found it closer and
- closer to my crotch. Emboldened by the fact that I was alone, and
- driven by the brand new sensations, I tentatively lifted the
- device from the surface of my thigh and pressed the head flat
- against my panty covered pussy. I wasn't sure what it felt like
- at first, but as I alternated applied and released pressure, I
- began to feel something building in my loins.
- You have to understand that I had never masturbated before.
- Even at 14, I was naive in many ways and had never heard of self-
- arousal. So I thought that I had discovered something so secret
- that only I knew about it. The more I did this, the harder I
- pressed the rubber cup to me. After a while, I could tell that my
- panties were wet in the crotch. I knew that I had not peed on
- myself, so I became frightened, thinking I had perhaps injured
- myself. Maybe I had instigated my period early, and I was
- bleeding.
- Quickly pulling the vibrator away and turning it off, I sat up
- and looked down at myself. Panic subsided into relief when I saw
- no blood. I pushed my hand inside my panties and felt around. I
- was soaking wet down there. Even at 14, I had enough dark pubic
- hair that it lay in damp ringlets. I looked at my fingers and saw
- no blood. Exploring with my fingers again, I inserted one in the
- top of my slit.
- I jerked the hand back as if I had been burned, because when I
- touched myself there, it did something that sent a jolt through
- me. It had not been unpleasant. So I felt again. This time I
- began to rub myself there. The intensity had faded, but it still
- felt very good. Associating what I felt with the vibrator, I
- turned it on again and pressed it against my crotch once more.
- This time, I had a finger on what I later learned to be my
- clitoris.
- My hand had pushed the crotch of my panties aside and the
- vibrator now rested directly on my pussy. As I pulled the
- vibrator upward, the finger on my clitoris was displaced.
- Evidently, the finger had exposed the little nub by pushing back
- its fold of skin. This brought the vibrator into direct contact
- with that extremely sensitive area.
- The feeling frightened me at first because it was so intense.
- I pulled the vibrator away for a few seconds. When I replaced it,
- my clitoris was once more covered by its hood which had slipped
- back in place, so the contact, while not as electric, was
- nonetheless overpoweringly wonderful. Getting used to the
- vibrations, I began to experiment by pushing and turning the
- vibrator this way and that. I soon found that the most sensitive
- area was at the apex of my slit beneath the fold of skin there.
- Then, totally unexpected, and without warning, I felt my pussy
- begin to pulse and throb. I wanted to take the vibrator away
- because I thought something was wrong, but my hand, as if
- paralyzed, only pressed it harder against me, intensifying the
- feeling. I felt heat pass through my body. My breasts began to
- tingle. Lifting one hand to one tit, I could feel the nipple
- standing rigidly outward. I couldn't help the moaning and
- groaning that followed as something totally unexpected, yet
- wonderful, was happening to me. It was like nothing I had ever
- felt, but wave after wave of pleasure rolled over me. It was
- butterflies in my stomach accompanied by an exhilaration that was
- pure delight. Then it began to fade. I was exhausted, but I
- didn't want it to end. I pressed the vibrator harder, but the
- feeling was gone. Soon, my pussy was so sensitive that the
- vibrator began to cause a little pain, so I pulled it away.
- I felt like I was in another world, a world where secrets are
- kept from me. I thought, "Oh, my gosh. I could die from this." I
- tried to recount the experience in my mind. It had been was as if
- my whole body had begun to radiate heat from the pit of my
- stomach. I had felt goose bumps on my arms and legs, my face had
- seemed on fire. Also there had been that strange tingling
- sensation in my breasts as my heart pounded as if it had wanted
- to leap from my chest. The blood had throbbed in my temples and I
- could hear it rush in my ears. For a frightful moment I had even
- thought I could be having some kind of heart attack. But remember
- as I could, the feeling was a fleeting one and could not be
- recreated in my mind.
- I was stunned by what had happened. Not sure of just what it
- was, and not knowing if I had done harm to myself, I just lay
- there trying to collect my thoughts. There was no doubt that it
- was rather a good feeling, and I'm sure I would have enjoyed it
- even more, had I not been so frightened. I recall that I tried to
- associating it with a girl in school in the fifth grade who had
- had some type of seizure and they had to carry her from the
- room...but no, this had not been the same thing.
- By this time I had calmed down sufficiently to think about
- other things...like food. It was almost noon and I had not had
- any breakfast. Getting up from the bed, careful with how I turned
- my leg, I decided I should put the vibrator away. Since my injury
- would not allow me to bend over, supporting myself with my arms
- on the bed and the wall, I let my feet slide over the waxed floor
- until I was seated beside the bed. Pushing the vibrator under it,
- my hand ran into a box. Curiosity, getting the better of me, I
- pulled the box out and opened it. It was the home of the
- vibrator. I could tell because the indentation in the box matched
- the L-shape of the device.
- But there were other things there also--other attachments.
- There was a rubber cup, much larger than the one I found on the
- vibrator; a 4" round flat rubber attachment; a scalp massager
- with little rubber fingers all over it; a hard rubber piece that
- looked like a wheel in a wheel, joined by spokes; and most
- interesting however were two white cylinders of 2" and 5"
- respectively. Each was made of a soft smooth vinyl or rubber.
- In the bottom of the box was an owner's manual. Flipping
- through it, I knew that this was an "adults only" thing. It
- showed how to use the vibrator to "lessen tension," "give
- soothing relief," and such. But the pictures were of very
- scantily clad women with gorgeous men holding the device on
- certain areas (or near) of their bodies. One picture was of the
- 2" white rubber attachment being applied at the top of the
- woman's thigh.
- Dropping the book, I took the 2 incher and put it on the metal
- shaft of the vibrator in place of the red one that looked like a
- suction cup. So there I was sitting on the floor between the bed
- and the wall, which was about 4' away, my legs parted and
- outstretched toward the wall, my head and back against the bed.
- As I contemplated the altered device, I let one hand move to
- my vee and pushed the crotch of my panties aside. The cotton had
- seemingly soaked up all my moisture because when I felt my pussy
- again, it seemed to be mostly dry. Then as I did something that I
- only do when bathing, I slightly parted the lips of my pussy and
- found that there was still plenty of slick moisture there. I
- think my heart actually skipped a beat when I touched my clit.
- (Remember, I was ignorant of my anatomy and did not know that
- this was a normal reaction to clitoral stimulation.)
- With one hand holding the panties, I used the other to hold
- the vibrator which I turned on by sliding the switch with my
- thumb. It leaped to life in my hand and my breathing became
- labored in anticipation. Very carefully, I touched the white
- rubber appendage to the ace bandage on my thigh. After all, I
- didn't want to seem too anxious. After a few perfunctory twirls
- of it there, I brought the vibrator directly over my cunt again.
- This time, however, instead of rubbing it around on the surface,
- I wanted to try something else. It occurred to me that what I was
- about to do would be sort of like doing it with a boy, but I
- wouldn't get pregnant (That's how they taught it in Middle School
- sex ed.).
- Cautiously, I brought it closer with my right hand as my left
- hand used my forefinger and middle finger to try to spread my
- pussy. As I brought it closer, I got nervous. I bit my lip and
- closed my eyes so I wouldn't have to look. As it touched me, it
- was too intense and I had to jerk it away. I was not aware that
- moving it so slowly toward me, made me get a lot more vibration
- than if it were dead against my flesh. I had not known this, but
- what I did next taught it to me.
- I turned it off and brought it to my cunny again. This time I
- was able to insert just a fraction an inch into my pussy. I knew
- about my hymen and I didn't want it broken. I turned the vibrator
- on, but had to turn it off again right away--still too much, I
- removed my fingers and pulled my thighs tight around the vibrator
- and lifted my knees slightly to "trap" it. When I turned it on
- this time I was able to cope. It was heavenly. I just held it
- there barely inserted as it vibrated wonderfully against my
- clitoris.
- Somehow, I thought this would be better if I were on the bed.
- Also I was having second thoughts about whether or not I should
- be doing this. In any case, I, turned it off, got up, laid down
- on the bed, drew my left knee up and spread my legs as far as my
- injury would allow. It was far enough. Finding my opening with
- one hand, I pushed the extension into myself again. I forgot
- about the hymen and let the full two inches in. I didn't get much
- of a charge out of the entry, but this time when I turned it on,
- all I can say is that it was wonderful. I closed my eyes and
- pretended it was one of those men in the book.
- My imagination, however, was not of sexual intercourse. All he
- was doing was holding the vibrator for me just like he was doing
- for the woman in the picture. Without being consciously aware of
- it, my hips had begun a rocking motion pushing and withdrawing. I
- let out a moan and a gasp as the waves of pleasure hit me again.
- My thighs closed tightly in an involuntary reaction as I kept the
- vibrator tight against me, wanting to wring every last drop of
- goodness from this feeling. I don't know how long I let it run,
- but it was far beyond the extent of my pulsing and throbbing.
- After about 20 minutes, (I think I dozed again) I became aware
- that my juices had dried around the probe. It was stuck to my
- skin and was a little painful as I pulled it away. But in just a
- moment, I had a finger in my box to see if I had done any damage.
- I'm not sure, but I don't think I even had a hymen when the day
- started. I've decided over the years I probably lost it doing
- such innocuous things as riding a bicycle.
- Anyhow, not finding a barrier, I soon had my middle finger
- inside me as far as it would go. I wasn't sure what to do, but I
- began pulling and pushing it out and in over and over until I was
- wanting to feel something, but after a good while of this, all I
- had succeeded in doing was to irritate my vagina.
- Starting to feel another urge, I got off the bed and walked to
- the bathroom attached to my parent's bedroom. I rarely ever went
- in there unless we had company or the other two bathrooms were
- occupied. Pulling my panties down, I sat down and let my bladder
- empty itself. I patted myself dry with some tissue, stood and
- pulled up my panties. Returning the bedroom, I lay back down and
- watched the rest of the movie. There was now an acute awareness
- in my mind of every little innuendo of sexuality on the screen.
- Then in the midst of a particularly steamy love scene where the
- couple are obviously nude under the sheets and the guys chest is
- rubbing all over the woman's visibly naked breasts, I began to
- feel aroused again. Then a particular movement he made led me to
- know that he was putting his penis inside her (whether they do
- for real or not, I don't know) and I immediately associated that
- with what I had done to myself with the vibrator.
- Knowing what I would find, I looked over the edge of the bed
- and saw the 5" attachment just laying there in the open box. "Why
- not?" I thought. Hanging over the edge of the bed, I retrieved
- it. After examining it for a few moments while I watched the
- woman on the screen having an experience that I was sure was the
- same thing that happened to me, I removed the 2" piece and
- replaced it with the longer one.
- I began by pushing the end of it against my slit and finding
- no ready opening, began to let it slide up and down the front of
- my pussy until the tip penetrated the outer lips. I closed my
- eyes and tried to imagine the guy on the screen putting his thing
- in me, but all I could see on my eyelids was the hunk from the
- book holding the vibrator for me. As I continued to let it slide
- up and down my slit, I could feel my opening being spread further
- apart. Then with both hands on the device, I pushed the full 5"
- into my vagina.
- As soon as I flipped the "on" switch, my vagina contracted
- around the rubber extension imbedded in my cunt. I had noted such
- spasms earlier, but this is the first time anything was inserted
- into my vagina that the vaginal walls could grip. With only a
- thirty second or so delay, it happened again. As this orgasm
- (I'll use the word, though I did not know it when I was 14. NOTE:
- I had heard other girls talk about the BIG O, but of course that
- had no meaning to me. I just giggled when they giggled, acting as
- if I knew all about it. I seriously doubt if many of them, if
- any, knew what it was.) almost literally grabbed me, I began to
- huff and puff just like the Big Bad Wolf. My breathing became
- voiced and I made strange sounds ranging from soft mews to heavy
- sighs of breath growing into moans. I though that it was never
- going to stop.
- And I didn't want it to stop, but after a while, just as
- before the vibrator again became more of an irritant than a
- stimulant and I had to turn it off. I knew that as good as it
- was, I should probably stop.
- So I finally got up and began to put the thing back like I
- found it, including the box. I suppose that nothing could
- surprise me now, but as I glanced under the bed, I found a couple
- of other interesting things in another box. Reaching for it, I
- pulled it out. In it I found a large rubber replica of a man's
- penis. "A teaching aid, no doubt," is what I really thought. I
- could not think of any use for it except to teach someone about a
- man's anatomy. I thought that until I noticed a slide switch on
- the base of it.
- Silly me, I had to flip the switch. Guess what? That's right
- another vibrator. As I write this, I'm smiling as I recollect the
- smile this amazing discovery brought to my adolescent face. Not
- pressing the issue, I turned it off and went back to the box of
- goodies. There was a tube of something called "Wild Strawberry
- Sex Lube." I couldn't imagine what that was for. I opened it,
- sniffed, and found that it actually smelled like strawberries. I
- think I giggled.
- Next was a book entitled, "A Woman's Sexuality" and one
- entitled "Everything You Always Wanted to Know...etc." Then there
- was a slick covered magazine that offered "(something)
- (something) Sexual Positions." As I thumbed through it, I felt
- myself getting smarter. I couldn't believe what those people were
- doing. There were pictures of guys with their penises in girls
- pussies, mouths and assholes. I couldn't imagine wanting to put
- one in my mouth (YUK!). And no one could ever get one of those
- things in my tiny little pussy, let alone, up my rear.
- Gathering up what struck my fancy, and the artificial penis of
- course, I went to the kitchen and had a peanut butter and banana
- sandwich (don't knock it if you haven't tried it) and a Pepsi
- while I continued my education. By the time I finished, I knew
- that both men and women were able to have what is called a
- "climax" when they have sex. I also learned the "O" word, but
- misread it as "organism" at first. There were whole chapters
- devoted to "oral" sex. At first I thought that meant talking
- about it, but the graphic description of how to perform it on a
- man and on a woman was given in lurid detail... and I had
- pictures in the magazine that showed all the positions.
- Then my eyes fell on the most fascinating picture of all.
- There was a naked man lying on his back on a couch. A woman,
- completely nude, was lying face up on him. One of her legs was
- draped toward the floor as she straddled his middle. Her other
- leg was raised to rest along the back of the couch. The man's
- left arm reached around her so that his left hand appeared to be
- pinching her left nipple and his penis was in her "back door," if
- you know what I mean.
- I found all this very interesting, but what I found downright
- fascinating was something else. In his right hand, he is holding
- the twin of the artificial penis that I had found under the bed,
- and he is pushing it, with her assistance, into her pussy. The
- picture showed insertion of only an inch or two, but my
- imagination could see it going all the way in.
- Imagine my surprise when I turned the page and found out that
- is exactly what he had done. All you could see was the base of
- it, and it had a little black on/off switch just like the one in
- my possession now.
- Oh yeah. I also found out about lubricants. They are
- recommended even for manual stimulation of a woman's sex organ to
- avoid "undue irritation." I wished I had known /about it earlier.
- Also the hardback books told about the use of vibrators. I really
- had taken in a lot of information in only a couple of hours.
- By this time it was 3:00 and my parents would not be home
- until after they had gone out for dinner. They usually did that
- on Friday night, and I usually went with them, but since I was
- not supposed to be up and around, and since they really look
- forward to Friday night, I told them that I would be Okay by
- myself. They said they would probably be home by 8:30 at the
- latest.
- I continued to look at the pictures in the book showing all
- the variations in positions. Some of the made me laugh, others
- made me think that the pictures had to be some sort of hoax--some
- of them, anyhow. Still, I kept coming back to the picture of the
- woman laying face up on the man, with the artificial cock in her
- pussy. By now I knew from some of the ads in the book that such a
- device is was called a dildo. What a funny name for something
- like that. Still poring over the books for more information, I
- cleaned off the table, washed my plate and silverware, poured
- another glass of Pepsi and went back upstairs to my parents room.
- Wanting to know more about all these new discoveries, I lay
- down on bed again, but not before I pulled off my panties. Before
- I dropped them on the floor I held them to my nose. The odor was
- quite unlike any that I had ever noticed on them before, not
- unpleasant, just different. I presumed it to be the natural
- lubricant mentioned in the book.
- I had the soft rubber dildo in my hands and I was rubbing and
- stroking it trying to pretend it belonged to the guy in the
- picture. It was rather large like his and I wondered if all men
- were the same. Examining it, I could see that it had what looked
- like veins running the length of it from its base to the
- mushroom-cap-like head. I flipped the switch on its base and it
- began to hum, sending waves of motion through my hand. It had a
- different feel from the other one I had used earlier.
- Getting up from my prone position, I reached down and
- retrieved the box from the floor. A piece of paper that had a
- picture of the cock on the front and directions about how to
- replace batteries. It even came with a one year limited warranty
- against defects in material and workmanship. Neato! There were no
- directions on how to use it, only a warning about prolonged use
- on sensitive tissue and membranal areas of the body.
- I wanted to put it inside me so bad I could hardly stand it,
- but there was a warning in the back of my mind that I was being
- bad. Laying back down with the box now beside me, I picked up the
- book on women's sexuality and held it with outstretched arms
- overhead to read it. The book sort of slipped out of my right
- hand and as it dropped on that one side a pamphlet of some sort
- fell out. I hadn't really looked at this book as much as the
- others and didn't notice that it had anything inside the back
- cover.
- "FORUM" declared the cover. A woman in a very skimpy teddy was
- on the front with a dreamy expression on her face. She was in one
- of those round chairs and her head was sort of thrown back
- exposing her throat. Her head was covered with a generous amount
- of black hair that seemed to spread out around her head. I could
- see her nipples through the sheer white of her garment that
- opened in a long vee to below her waist. There seemed to be a
- hint of pubic hair that could be seen at the juncture of her
- thighs. I felt my face flush hot at I stared.
- Then my eyes saw the word on the cover where the highlights of
- the issue were listed. DILDOS. I looked in the table of contents
- and found that the article was on page 43. I almost tore the
- cover getting there. The article as not an article but a series
- of long letters. There was a picture of a woman holding a
- different kind of dildo against her pussy but not inserted. This
- one was about six inches long and looked like white plastic. I
- think I liked this nine inch one that looked like the real thing
- better. I started to read.
- As I read, I found that I was being turned on as both women
- and men talked about their experiences with dildos. One letter
- was about some guys who pushed them up their asses. I skipped
- over that quickly...how disgusting.
- By this time, I was holding the book in one hand while the
- other began to finger my private area. The more I read, the more
- excited I became. I was now pushing my forefinger into my slit. I
- was real wet by now.
- It was as I read a letter from a girl named Kelley, that I let
- myself get into the story. She was telling how she was alone in a
- ski chalet, while all the others were out skiing. She had a
- broken leg. Now I had someone I could really identify with. I
- placed a sympathetic hand on my own right thigh as I continued to
- read. She went on about how lonely and horny she was. Horny?
- What's that? Anyhow, she reached into her overnight bag and
- pulled out a gag gift her roommate had given her for Christmas.
- It was a penis shaped vibrator--a dildo--and she had never used
- it. Oh my God!
- She told how she held it up and looked at it and rubbed. Then
- she put it in her mouth and sucked on the tip. Yuk! After a while
- she began to play with her cunny and rub the tip of it against
- the outside of it.
- I was really into the article by this time. I picked up the
- dildo in my free hand and began to rub it against my dark
- covering of pubic mound. As I continued to read, I tried to do
- everything she did. Then she got some K-Y jelly and rubbed it all
- over the dildo. I quickly looked for the strawberry lubricant.
- Carefully, I opened it and squeezed some of it on my dildo. In
- order to continue to mimic her actions, I had to roll over on my
- right side and lay the book down on the bed with me looking down
- on it. I cocked my left leg at the knee and pulled my foot up
- behind my other leg. This left my crotch wide open.
- I could now use both hands to oil the dildo. I even put the
- tip in my mouth and sucked, sort of trying to catch up with
- Kelly. Hmmm. Not bad. Just like strawberries. I sucked on it
- again. As I read on, it was obvious that Kelly was sort of just
- as I was. Her right leg was in a cast and she was lying there
- with it stretched out and her other knee drawn up. I suppose she
- was on her back, however, since I don't think she was trying to
- read "FORUM."
- Now with both our dildos greased, she put it at the door of
- her love nest--honest, that's what she called it--and began to
- rotate it against her pussy. As she was introducing the head of
- it into her vagina, I began to do a little rotating of my own.
- God, it was huge. But I just kept turning and turning it until it
- began to sink in. I now understood the word, "screw." That was
- literally what we were doing--screwing it in. When I thought I
- had completely shoved the dildo in, I looked down and was
- disappointed to find only about an inch and a half had made its
- way inside me.
- If I thought the small diameter doodads from the other
- vibrator were large, this thing was humongous. Then Kelly, in the
- story, put the heel of her hand on the end of the vibrator and
- pressed it inward. Copying her, I did the same thing. The size of
- the thing made rough going and there was some discomfort, if not
- pain. It felt as if the walls in my vagina actually tore, then
- with almost no pressure, the thing sank in about three more
- inches. I realized that I had just "broken the cherry" that I
- thought I didn't have. It was deeper than I realized, or else it
- stretched considerably with any previous onslaught, whether
- bicycle, horses, or vibrator.
- When my magazine heroine had it in as far as it would go, I
- decided I had reached my limit. She started to move it back out
- of her and then push it back in, I did the same, the natural
- upward pull of my hand, dragging the irregularly veined surface
- across my clitoris. The feeling was one of ecstasy and my breath
- caught in my throat. Then both of us pushed our toys back in and
- I slowly exhaled. There was still some pain but I was determined
- to do it.
- The girl in the letter had not mentioned turning her vibrator
- to the "on" position, and I had all but forgotten about it. I had
- mine planted about six inches deep and my small right hand was
- wrapped firmly around the portion still outside. My thumb rested
- on the base of it. Without giving it much thought, I flipped the
- switch with my thumb. There was about a half-seconds delay which
- was long enough to make me think that it wasn't going to work;
- and then it caught. I forgot all about Kelley and what she was
- doing in her letter.
- It felt as if my insides were being flipped inside out. Taking
- the initiative, I began to pump the artificial penis in and out,
- still gripping the end in my right palm. As my excitement began
- to build, I pumped faster and faster until I gave up some of the
- handhold, and on the next inward thrust, I went deep enough to
- bump something inside. It hurt like hell and I stopped moving. I
- was not aware that I had just banged the mouth of my cervix. It
- was not really as deep as I had been going, but I had evidently
- failed to bypass it on that one particular pass.
- I recovered enough to allow myself a few shallow strokes and
- then as I went deeper, I probed around until I found what I had
- hit. By raising my left leg a little more and shifting my hips, I
- found I was able to go past the obstruction. So I plied the tool
- a little deeper the next time. Now I was going much slower. The
- vibrations were great, but I was enjoying the pure thrusting
- also. I contemplated turning the vibrator off, but before I could
- really consider it, my vagina began its explosive contractions
- around the dildo as I experienced my strongest orgasm yet.
- I lay there in the warm afterglow and smiled as I extracted
- the toy from its still pulsing home. I looked down and watched my
- pussy turn inside out as it clung to the soft rubber surface. My
- left hand traced the outline of my sexually stimulated nipples,
- adding to the pleasure of the moment.
- My reverie was interrupted by the ringing of the phone.
- Flipping over on my stomach and reaching to the nightstand, I
- picked up the phone, "Hello."
- A strained voice on the other end asked, "Shirley?"
- "No. It's Cindy. Mom's with Dad." I paused as I thought I
- heard a sob. "Is that you aunt Kathy? Is something wrong?" Kathy
- was married to my Mom's brother Malcom. They lived somewhere in
- Cincinnati, Ohio where uncle Mal had a dental practice.
- "Oh, Cindy. Mal's g-gone. He had a heart attack this afternoon
- and... and... the...the d-d-doctors c-couldn't...." She broke
- down and began to sob uncontrollably.
- "You mean he... died?" I asked incredulously. Why, they had
- just been here for Labor Day weekend. Uncle Mal had even played
- softball. I didn't need to wait for her answer. "Oh, aunt Kathy.
- I'm so sorry."
- "I know you are Cindy. Mal thought a lot of you." She was
- obviously trying to regain her composure. I heard her take a long
- breath and say, "Can you get in touch with Shirley somehow and
- let her know... Oh, and ask her to call."
- "I can probably catch her right now, If we hang up right
- away."
- "Okay, baby. Tell her to call me."
- "I will. I love you, aunt Kathy."
- "I love you too, honey. Bye."
- "Bye," but she was already gone.
- I immediately punched in my Dad's office number. "Good
- afternoon. Anderson, Billings and Marshall. May I assist you."
- "Mrs. Morrison? This is Cindy. Is my Dad still there?"
- "Why, Cindy, I haven't seen you in months. How are you doing?
- Oh, I heard you had been hurt at school. Are you better now?"
- "Much better, thank you," I lied. "Is he still there."
- "He certainly is. Your mother just went in. Hold a sec and I
- put you through."
- "Sid Marshall," my dad's deep baritone answered.
- "Daddy?"
- "Cindy? Are you Okay? Is anything wrong."
- Swallowing, I began, "Dad, Aunt Kathy called... uh... It's
- about Uncle Mal.... you see, he had a heart attack this
- afternoon... and he died."
- There was stone silence from the other end. Then I could hear
- my father whispering to Mom. "Oh, no!..." I heard her exclaim.
- "Dad? Aunt Kathy wants Mom to call her right away."
- "Okay, baby. We'll be on our way home as soon as she gets off
- the phone. You sure you're Okay?"
- "I'm Okay, daddy."
- "Bye, sweetheart"
- "Bye."
- I was almost overcome by an all-enveloping sense of loss as
- the reality began to sink in. Pappaw had died when I was eight
- years old, but I hardly remembered him. There hadn't been a death
- in our family since then. Now, Uncle Mal was gone. I would never
- see him again... never hear his silly little jokes... never see
- the funny way he ate watermelon with a spoon. Tears began to roll
- down my cheeks.
- Very carefully and dutifully, I began to put my parents' room
- in order. All the books, the newly discovered toys, the VCR tape
- were returned to their proper places. I straightened the bed
- covers and gave the room another once over.
- I went downstairs and tried to think of what I could do to
- help. My thigh was throbbing painfully, and I knew I shouldn't be
- walking around on it. Stepping very gingerly, I made my way to my
- bedroom and lay down on top on the bedspread. My mind raced as it
- wrestled with the events of the day. I just closed my eyes. When
- I opened them, my mother was sitting on the bed beside me. The
- room was dark except for the light filtering from the hallway.
- Mom's cool hand was on my cheek. "How's my baby?" It wasn't so
- dark that I couldn't see that she had been crying.
- "Still sore, I'm afraid. I thought it'd be better by now."
- "Well, baby, Dr. Adams said these soft tissue injuries take
- their own good time in healing. Have you stayed off it like he
- told you?" she asked with mock accusation.
- "Honest, Mom. I only got up to eat lunch--and I went upstairs
- and laid on your bed to watch TV."
- "And what's wrong with the TV in your room?" her eyebrows were
- up.
- Giggling, I responded, "Yours is better. Besides, my bed isn't
- adjustable," I added.
- She laughed with me. "Want some supper? We stopped for
- Chinese."
- My stomach lurched. "Not now. Maybe later."
- "Whatever you say, but you know Daddy. He thinks he has to eat
- anything that doesn't go on the first pass."
- "Let him. I don't care that much for Chinese anyway," and as
- an after thought, "Are there any eggrolls?"
- "Of course."
- "Well, save me just one. That's all I want."
- Mom patted my knee, "Whatever you say." She stood and started
- to walk out of the room. "Cindy, your father and I are going to
- have to leave tonight to drive to Ohio. Do you think you'll be
- alright here by yourself if we have Bob and Edna keep an eye on
- you and the house?"
- I was surprised. "You mean I can't go with you? What will Aunt
- Kathy think?"
- The overhead light in my room flipped on. "Aunt Kathy already
- knows and she understands. She knows you loved your Uncle Mal.
- We've thought about it and it'd really be best if you stay off
- that leg until you go back to the doctor. Okay?
- "Okay." I tried to sound disappointed but the truth was that
- even though I dearly loved Uncle Mal, I dreaded going to his
- funeral. There was no doubt in my mind that the experience would
- be unbelievably sad.
- Before she left my doorway, she said, "I'll call Bob and Edna
- and make sure they'll be available if you need anything. Then
- I'll bring your eggroll. Pepsi to drink?"
- "Sounds good," my voice following her down the hall. I reached
- over the edge of my bed and picked up my Notebook and my Algebra
- I text and began the makeup homework. Sometime during this
- effort, Mom brought me an eggroll and a Pepsi which I consumed as
- I labored over my assignment. I had been an A-B student all the
- way through school--never straight A's, but always above average.
- It was enough to put me on the Honor Roll, and it seemed to
- please my parents.
- I'd heard my mother telling one of her friends that I had
- never given them any trouble. I suppose you could say that I was
- a "good girl." I'd never been sent to the principal's office,
- never received less than an A for deportment, never cut classes.
- It made me feel very special when she told her friend that. I
- never wanted to cause my parents unhappiness ever.
- At about 8:00 that evening they came in to say goodbye. Our
- next-door neighbors, Bob and Edna had offered to let me stay at
- their house, but thankfully, my parents declined the offer and
- told them it'd be enough if they could be available in case I
- needed something or for an emergency. Dad gave me three twenty-
- dollar bills "just in case." Then instructions about the
- electricity and the plumbing for the umpteenth time.... be sure
- the freezer door closes, and all the usual.
- "We love you, honey," came from Dad with a hug and kiss.
- "We sure do." Mom gave me her hug and kiss.
- "I love you too," I smiled.
- Just as the started out of the room, Mom turned, "Oh, Cindy. I
- forgot to tell you that Robbie will be here in the morning to do
- the lawn. Didn't want him to frighten you."
- "Okay, Bye." I answered.
- Then they were gone. I felt a strange sense in being alone
- when I realized that this was the first time that I had been away
- from them overnight all alone.
- I glanced at the clock. 8:15. The game! I forgot about the
- school game. It had already started. I turned on the radio and
- tuned in the local station that carried our games. We were ahead
- in the first quarter 7-0. Yeah, TEAM! I finally drifted off to
- sleep sometime after 9:00. The last score I remembered was 27-6.
- The next sound I heard was a loud thump as if something had
- hit the house. I jumped out of bed and almost fell on my face
- when the pain coursed through my still tender thigh. Limping, I
- made my way to the window. I didn't see anything but I could hear
- something. It was a lawnmower.
- The sound of the mower made me glance at the clock on my
- radio. It was 8:30 in the morning. It must be Robbie, the boy who
- mowed our lawn on a regular basis. Looking out the window, I
- caught a glimpse of him as he walked briskly behind the roaring
- machine. He was dressed in swimming trunks, t-shirt and tennis
- shoes and seemed to enjoy his work in the warm early morning
- October sun. It wasn't odd for folks in this part of the country
- to have to cut grass right on up until Thanksgiving. Indian
- Summer had a lot of staying power in Jackson.
- I hobbled to my regular bathroom and took off my panties and
- t-shirt. I couldn't believe I'd slept in the same outfit I had
- worn all day the day before. Then very carefully, I removed the
- bandage from my thigh while I let the shower water warm up. With
- a definite goal in mind, I took a leisurely shower and washed my
- Dorothy Hammill haircut. Not in any particular hurry, I turned
- off the shower and closed the drain to let the tub begin to fill.
- Mom always kept some of her own bath salts, bubble bath and oils
- in this bathroom because the master bath had only a shower. She
- enjoyed a long soak every now and then, herself.
- I poured a little of the best smelling bubble bath and
- matching bath oil in the water under the streaming faucet. Huge
- billowing bubbles formed as the water worked on the ingredients I
- had poured in. I slid into the bath and it was wonderful. The
- heat felt good on my injury and I was enjoying the luxury. I
- imagined myself a gorgeous model doing a soap commercial, posing
- and turning until my breasts showed above the bubbles. I squealed
- as if embarrassed and slid under the water.
- When the game was over I meticulously washed every square inch
- of my body. I felt that I must be ultra clean. I washed my hair
- again and used Mom's most expensive creme rinse--not a
- "conditioner" but a real creme rinse. The bath oil made my skin
- as soft as a baby's. I must have been in the bathtub for at least
- 30 minutes. My fingers were wrinkled, but that would pass.
- I let the water drain, then used the shower head to rinse away
- the residue of soap and bubbles, cleaning the tub as I went. Then
- I dried myself on the big soft beach towel making sure I left no
- wet spots even between my toes. Standing clean, dry and naked
- before the mirror, I used the blow dryer as I brushed out my
- hair. When I was finished, I appraised my reflection in the
- mirror. "Not bad."
- Limping to the bedroom, I put on some fresh undies. Today,
- instead of cotton, however, I donned my best nylon lace bikini
- panties. The bra was one my mom called "impractical." It was also
- very lace, low cut and it fastened in front. I talked her into it
- for a formal occasion. We had to arrive on a compromise between a
- "low cut" or a "strapless" evening gown. Mom won on the "low
- cut," so I got the bra.
- In bra and panties, I sat at the vanity and began on my
- toenails. First I trimmed them, then using a cuticle spoon, I
- worked on each toe until the little "half moon" shone at the base
- of each nail bed. A rich coat of Flamingo Pink polish finished
- the job. While they dried, I did the same to my fingernails. Mom
- wouldn't let me use fake ones, so I tried to be extra careful not
- to break a nail. Most of the time there was at least one oddball
- nail, but this past week of just laying around had let me get a
- little growth so I could trim them, but leave a respectable
- length. Flamingo Pink was once more the finishing touch.
- The lawnmower was silent, and I assumed that Robbie had
- finished that part of the chore. Just as the thought ran though
- my head, I hear the gas-powered weed eater start. It was now
- 10:00a.m. Sneaking a peek out the window, I saw him using the
- weed machine as an edger as he worked along the border of our
- patio. Robbie had removed his t-shirt and was now bare-chested.
- There was a sheen of perspiration on his well-tanned upper body.
- His legs had a lot of hair on the thighs, but his chest seemed
- void of any such growth.
- It was 10:30 by the time my nails were completely dry. I heard
- the banging of the garbage cans as Robbie pulled them to the
- backyard for the clippings. I had timed it just about right. I
- wasn't consciously sure why, but for some reason I wanted to be
- friendly (in a nice-girl way) with Robbie.
- I slipped a knee length pink dress over my head. It was
- nothing special. It had buttons running down the front to the
- waist and the skirt was pleated all around. Mom said it flounced,
- whatever that means. I left the top three buttons open so that a
- little lace would show. If I'd had more in the breast department,
- there would have been a little cleavage, too.
- Rarely do I wear make-up even at school, but I put on a pink
- lip gloss and gave my eyelashes a swipe with some mascara. No eye
- shadow or liner. I couldn't resist a touch of blush, however, and
- applied the brush softly to emphasize my cheekbones. Giving
- myself a nod of approval from the mirror, I started toward the
- patio door.
- I had been right. Robbie had finished the front and was now
- just about through with the back. Next week he'd be raking
- leaves, but that day the autumn colors were at their peak. When
- the mower died, I slid the patio door open.
- "How about some lemonade when you're through."
- Robbie seemed startled, "Oh. Hi, Cindy. started early today.
- Wanted to get it done before the temperature got up."
- "I would have come out to help but... my leg, you know." I
- offered.
- "Oh, yeah. Sue told me about it. How's it doing?"
- "I'm supposed to stay off it for a while, but I'm getting
- pretty bored. Want to come in?"
- "Sure. Give me a minute to put things away and get my shirt.
- Lemonade sure sounds good."
- I turned and went to the refrigerator and frantically looked
- for some lemons. There were two very old looking ones that were a
- little shriveled. I grabbed them and the bottle of ReaLemon.
- Reading the instructions for lemonade on the Realemon bottle, I
- moved quickly. Cold water... sugar... slice the lemons... ice...
- glasses.
- "Now where's that lemonade?"
- I caught my breath as I turned, tray with pitcher and glasses
- in hand and limped to the table in the center of the dining area.
- Robbie had his t-shirt on now, but was bare-footed--evidently so
- he wouldn't track grass in the house. He pulled out a chair and
- plopped down as I poured. For the first time, I noticed how
- sweaty he was from his outdoor exertion. I also noticed how cute
- he was. Robbie was my best-friend-Sue's brother. They had lived
- next door for about three years. Sue was on the cheering squad
- with me; Robbie was 18 and a senior.
- Sitting across the table from each other, we sipped our
- lemonades in silence. He sort of glanced around the room as I
- looked at him. I would look away, his eyes would be on me when I
- looked back; then he'd look around the room some more. Finally he
- spoke.
- "Sorry to hear about your uncle. Mom and Dad told me."
- "Yeah, it was a real shock."
- "My parents talked to yours last night. If you need anything,
- just let us know.
- "I really appreciate it," I sighed, very self-conscious and a
- little uncomfortable.
- "So, how's the leg?" he asked, just to make conversation.
- "It's still awfully sore and I have to wear this awful
- bandage," I replied as I slid my chair to they right to show him
- the bandage. It wasn't until I had pulled my dress up to the top
- of my right thigh that I remembered that I hadn't put the ace
- back on. I just sat there looking at my bare thigh and so did
- Robbie. My first thought was that I should have at least put on a
- pair of hose. Color rose in my face and I pushed the dress back
- down. When I looked up, Robbie was red too.
- "Anyhow, I'm supposed to wear the stupid thing. I-- I guess I
- forgot to put it back on." Oh, how I wanted to die right then and
- there. At that thought and at that very moment, I realized that I
- was thinking of Robbie as a sexual being. I knew that I wanted to
- either seduce or be seduced. Oh, it wasn't as sophisticated as
- all that, but that was the underlying motive for getting dressed
- and inviting him in, even if it was only in my subconscious up
- until now.
- "Sue said you fell from a pyramid and that your leg was pinned
- back by someone falling over you."
- "I guess that's the way it happened. At least it seemed that
- way," I replied, trying to restore my composure.
- "I had the same thing happen to me in football last season.
- That's why I'm not playing this year. I have to wear a bandage in
- basketball still."
- "Yeah, I wondered why you weren't on the team this year," I
- commented. "Oh, did we win last night?"
- "Nah. They beat us 28-27 in the last quarter. We had 'em 27-6
- in the third. They missed an extra point in the second period.
- Then it fell apart for us in the fourth. Rod Gooding sprained an
- ankle as it opened and we were essentially without a quarterback.
- Then Gus Martin was ejected for fighting. Next thing we knew,
- Central was in the end-zone and had a two-point conversion. Bert
- Beasley fumbled the next kick-off and Central scored on the next
- play from scrimmage. They faked a kick and passed for the two
- points. That made the score 27-21. We marched down the field and
- Beasley got into the end-zone on a fantastic screen pass and go.
- It was called back for an ineligible man downfield. With two
- minutes left, we had fourth down and three on their 12 yard line
- so we attempted a "sure-fire" field goal. The snap was bobbled
- and Mike Forntney, instead of covering the ball, tried to pass to
- the end-zone. Central intercepted and ran it back 100 yards for
- the touchdown. Then their kicker who missed his first attempt in
- the first quarter, put it away with an extra point 28-27.
- I didn't understand a word he said. I was a cheerleader, but
- all I knew about football was that one team has the ball and the
- other team tries to take it away before the first team scores.
- But I sat there wide-eyed, taking it all in, pretending to know
- what he was talking about nodding in agreement. When he finished,
- we were back to the awkward silence that ruled only minutes
- before.
- Trying to change the subject, "So how is your leg getting
- along?" Somehow the question wasn't worded right and I felt sort
- of stupid.
- "Coach gave me some good exercises for it. And I went to the
- gym for some special treatments that seemed to help," he added.
- "Really? What kind of treatments?" I asked, genuinely
- interested.
- "Therapeutic massage mostly. They did a few sessions for me
- and then taught me how to give them to myself since it was on my
- thigh," Robbie explained.
- Caught up by the prospect of an early return to the squad, I
- asked, "Do you think you could teach me?"
- "Uh... Yeah, I guess so," he said haltingly.
- Honest, up to this time, until his reaction, my thoughts had
- been purely therapeutic. Only now did I feel a stirring of
- butterflies in the pit of my stomach. I know now that he was
- aware of the eroticism of the moment.
- Not knowing what else to do at that point I softly asked,
- "Where should we do it?"
- "The couch in the living room?"
- I thought for a moment. "No, lets go to the couch in the rec
- room downstairs." The excuse in my mind was definitely that the
- rec room would be more intimate. How wicked I had become in one
- short day.
- In the basement he suggested that I sit on the couch as he
- pulled up an ottoman. Sitting on the ottoman, he reached for my
- right foot as I lifted it to lay on his left knee. My bottom was
- lower than my leg, so I had to push my dress between my thighs to
- keep him from seeing my panties. Robbie scooted the ottoman
- forward so that my right leg draped over his left one, the foot
- hanging toward the floor. His movement placed his right knee
- between my legs pointed directly at my crotch.
- He settled both hands on my right thigh about 3 or 4 inches
- above the knee on the outside of my dress and began to squeeze
- gently. I squinted my eyes with the pain.
- "Hurt?" he asked
- "A little," I responded.
- He continued the massage, running both hands up and down my
- thigh. The outside hand moved higher than the inside hand, but
- always stopped well below my crotch. I could see him swallow to
- hide his nervousness. The bottom of his shirt hung low enough to
- cover is bathing trunks, so I could not see his crotch.
- "This would work better on your bare skin." His voice cracked.
- "Okay." I followed the simple reply by baring my thigh up to
- the hem of my panties. But no panty showed. I made sure of that.
- When his hand returned to my thigh on my bare skin, I was
- surprised at the heat I felt. Not only were his hands very warm,
- but the warmth passed through my body as butterflies took flight
- and rose within me. The gentle hands kept up their ministrations
- to me. As I glanced up at him, I found him looking straight into
- my eyes which I quickly averted to watch his attention to my
- thigh again.
- "Do you have a girlfriend?" I blurted. Oh my God, how dumb...
- dumb... dumb! Of course he has a girlfriend--Diane, the drum
- majorette. What a fool I must have seemed.
- He didn't seem phased. "Well, sort of. Diane Contento and I
- have been dating sort of steady like. Nothing serious I suppose.
- How about you?"
- "What?"
- "Do you have a boyfriend?"
- "Uh," I thought about lying, but thought better of it, "No."
- He smiled as he massaged, "You mean a pretty girl like
- yourself doesn't have a boyfriend?"
- Boy, was I ever slain. If his smile had been flame, I would
- have been butter. "Do you really think I'm pretty?" I asked,
- blushing.
- What happened then startled me so bad that I almost lost it.
- His face was getting closer and closer to mine and he was
- standing to turn to sit on the couch. I tried to lean away from
- him, but my back was against the arm of the sofa. Before I knew
- it, his mouth was on mine and he was kissing me. The major
- problem was that as he stood and turned, I turned with him so
- that my injured right leg was behind him, between his body and
- the back of the couch, and my left foot was still on the floor.
- So there I was, lip to lip with Robbie, and I didn't even know
- how to kiss. Oh, I knew how to use a dildo and a vibrator with
- various attachments and such things as that, but I didn't know
- how to kiss. I just sat there with my lips pressed against his.
- Then, gentleman that he was, he shifted so that I could turn to
- sit properly on the couch with my legs together. Both of us were
- breathing a little hard.
- "I'm sorry, Cindy. I shouldn't have done that."
- "Why not?" I asked, disappointed that it had ended so quickly.
- I was worried that I hadn't done it right.
- "For God's sake, you're just a kid."
- That cut me to the quick. I put a hand on each hip and let him
- know in no uncertain terms, "I'm almost 15! Don't call me a kid."
- "I didn't mean to offend you. It's just that I'm... I'm...
- well, I'm sorry I called you a kid." Then he was staring at me
- again. Not my eyes, but just at me, in general.
- I let my eyes followed his gaze. Looking down at my body, I
- noticed that a fourth button had popped loose and the tops of my
- breasts were now plainly visible. My fingers came up and quickly
- buttoned the guilty fastener. "Are you sorry you kissed me? I
- mean really... sorry?" I searched his eyes.
- "If you mean did I like kissing you, then no, I'm not sorry. I
- said I was sorry because of the difference in our ages."
- I could feel my eyes cloud as I looked up from lowered eyelids
- and restated through almost clenched teeth, "I'm not a kid."
- Robbie's expression softened as he whispered, "No, I guess
- you're not a kid." He sighed and pulled me to him again. This
- time both arms went around me, and when he kissed I went limp.
- I noticed that his kisses were not exactly what one could
- call "dry," and surmised that his mouth was open. I opened mine.
- When I did, his tongue went straight between my teeth. I was
- appalled, so I pushed his tongue away with mine. The surprise was
- compounded when he literally sucked my tongue from my mouth into
- his. About that time I decided that it wasn't so bad after all.
- Up until then, I wasn't sure where all this was going. It was
- enjoyable, but something on the inside rang an alarm. Pictures
- flashed through my mind: the people in the magazine doing things
- with their bodies that intrigued me; the couple in the VCR movie.
- I thought about the vibrator, the dildo and then came a picture
- of Robbie and me naked under the sheet with him making that move
- to put it in.
- His hand pushing the bra cup off my right breast brought me
- back to reality. Not resisting in any way, I closed my eyes and
- savored it, feeling my whole world go topsy-turvy. I was on a
- high speed turntable and had to open my eyes to make sure we
- weren't actually moving. "This is wrong," a voice in my head
- spoke. I brought my left hand up and took hold of Robbie's wrist.
- Pulling downward to remove his hand, I discovered that his
- fingers were hooked over the top of the lacy cup so that all I
- accomplished was the baring of one breast.
- Just as I was about to speak to tell him to stop, his hand
- abandoned my breast and was replaced by his open mouth. The hot
- wet feeling as he opened wide enough to engulf the whole of it
- was overwhelming. I was melting all over again. My whole frame
- went suddenly limp in his arms. Each of us knew that I was his to
- do with as he pleased. At 14, I just couldn't call up enough
- resolve to fight it. It just felt so good.
- Half expecting him to push me into a prone position, I was
- surprised when Robbie shifted so that both of his feet were flat
- on the floor, his left side against my right. He slipped his
- right hand under my right thigh and draped it across his left
- leg. My left foot was flat on the floor; my knees were almost a
- foot apart. I felt his right hand slip under my dress and move up
- along my injured thigh, giving it a gentle massage. It hurt when
- he squeezed, but yet, it didn't hurt. Each time he reached the
- top of my thigh, he paused and squeezed, his thumb on the outside
- of my thigh, his fingers at the edge of the crotch of my panties.
- Robbie leaned into me and pressed me back against the
- cushioned arm of the couch, his lips once more seeking mine. His
- hands were opening the rest of the buttons to my waist. I heard
- him "Hmm" as he discovered the clasp of my bra. He opened it and
- pushed it aside until the cups were stuffed under my arms.
- Once again he was lip to lip with me, his tongue swapping
- visits with mine, each hand on one of my breasts. My nipples were
- still "little-girl" tiny, but he brought them to erection,
- pulling and twirling them between his thumbs and forefingers. I
- had sucked in my breath and held it there so many times that I
- was starting to get dizzy, but I thought it was love.
- With his left hand on my right breast, his mouth left mine and
- bent to the task of my left breast. I brought both my hands up.
- One to press his head to my breast and the other to assist his
- left hand. I was sure I knew what was coming next. He was going
- to "go all the way" with me, but I didn't know when or how Robbie
- would accomplish it. Still running through my brain was the very
- erotic picture of us naked in bed under the sheets.
- I was wrong, but what did happen was so natural that it caught
- me totally off guard. My right leg was bent at the knee draped
- over his left leg. My thigh rested directly atop his. The hair on
- his leg tickled the underside of my smooth thighs. Although I had
- a generous amount of pubic hair for a 14 year-old, my legs were
- covered only by a very light downy softness that did not yet call
- for shaving, or any other depilatory for that matter.
- Robbie let his now free right hand lay lightly on the inside
- of my right knee and slipped it along the smoothness of my inner
- thigh until his palm was flat on my crotch. I was so startled by
- this turn of events that I jumped. He began a gentle stroking,
- rubbing his fingers from the bottom of my pussy to the top.
- Since I was wearing bikini briefs, he was not hindered by the
- waistline of my dress. After 15 or 20 strokes from bottom to top
- and top to bottom, he had worked up far enough that on a return
- trip to the bottom, his whole hand slid smoothly inside the
- waistband and his fingers were stroking my hairy mound. This time
- he stayed at the bottom, not rising again.
- I wanted to raise my bottom off the couch and remove the
- panties, but I feared that he would think me some kind of "slut."
- I mean that I was ready to be screwed right then and there.
- Robbie did not seem disturbed by my panties, he just continued to
- stroke the hair over my slit very lightly while his mouth claimed
- mine again.
- While we kissed, I felt a finger separate my pussy lips. The
- attempt at entry was very gentle and the feeling unbelievably
- erotic. I went totally limp again and my arms felt so weak that
- my hands fell to my lap. Actually, we were so close that my right
- hand fell in Robbie's lap. That's when I discovered that his own
- sex organ was not dormant. I started to pull away but he stopped
- kissing long enough to whisper, "It's Okay," while his left hand
- pressed my palm over the bulge in his swim trunks.
- I let my hand lay there at first, but Robbie quickly returned
- to his kissing and feeling. A finger very pleasantly insinuated
- itself between the folds of my pussy and began stroking the
- moisture that had begun to accumulate. At the same time that I
- felt the finger sink slowly into my body until it was buried to
- the knuckle, Robbie sucked my tongue into his mouth and twisted
- my left nipple. I let my hand squeeze his sex. As the finger
- eased inward until it was palm deep, I began to stroke the
- material of his swimsuit. I felt it throb under my touch.
- The finger inside me began to withdraw and I hunched my hips
- forward to stop its escape, but to no avail. I thought he was
- stopping so that we could get on with the "real thing." Actually,
- he knew exactly what he was doing. I could feel something larger
- going in and then I felt his thumb and forefinger feeling in the
- top of my slit for the little nub I had discovered earlier.
- Evidently he had two fingers in my vagina as he began to do to my
- clitoris what he had done with my nipples.
- My hips began an involuntary rocking motion which, to my
- delight could regulate the both the pressure on my clit and the
- depth of his fingers in my vagina. My hand also increase the
- pressure of its rubbing on the outside of his garment. Both of us
- were breathing rather rapidly and loudly by now.
- Just when I began to wish for my vibrator so that I could have
- another "organism" I uttered something like, "Uuhhnngg," as my
- private world exploded around me once more in a kaleidoscope of
- color and delight. I moaned out my newest release into his mouth
- and felt my pussy throbbing around his digits. I seemed to last
- much longer this time and in comparison to the other times. It
- seemed better just because Robbie was the one doing it.
- I put my arms around his neck and hugged him to me. It was as
- if I wanted to take his whole body into myself and become one
- with him. I've never had that same feeling about anyone since
- that time. I just closed my eyes and luxuriated in the feelings
- that were bathing me.
- As the aura subsided, I opened my eyes and found Robbie
- looking at me as if I were someone he had just seen in a
- different light. "Gosh, Cindy, you're something else."
- Not knowing what to say, innocently (if that's possible) I
- asked, "Are we going to do it now?"
- Robbie looked puzzled. "Do what"
- "You know..." I looked for the words, discarding `screw' and
- `fuck,' settling on "...go all the way."
- "My god, Cindy. Are you crazy? Do you want to get pregnant?"
- He seemed aghast.
- I thought he hated me. I began to cry and tried to say, "Of
- course not," but I couldn't get it out.
- "Cindy, you haven't scr... uh... gone all the way with some
- other guy, have you?" Robbie asked.
- "N-no!" I answered still crying, "and I never let anyone d-do
- those o-other th-things that y-you j-just d-d-did." I didn't
- think it proper to tell him about my electronic friends.
- His arms went around me and he let me cry against him until it
- finally subsided. "Cindy, I want to make love to you, but it
- wouldn't be right. I'm afraid that what we've done here tonight
- could have a bad effect on you because of your age." He paused as
- he looked down into my upturned face. "But I won't say I'm sorry,
- because I'm not."
- I know I smiled when he said that. and then he kissed me
- again... very softly, very slowly and much too sweetly. When he
- looked at me again he asked, "You had an orgasm, didn't you?"
- His question shocked me, "Orgasm? (hmmm...organism) Oh yes.
- Yes, I had an... uh... orgasm." Not knowing what to say, I went
- further, "Did you have one?"
- "Well, no. At least not this time." Robbie's face turned beet
- red.
- "Didn't I do it right?" I didn't know what "right" would be
- anyway.
- "Well, not exactly, but don't worry about it," he responded.
- "No," I blurted, "I want to do it right. Show me." I sounded
- imperious, and to complement it, reached for the waist band of
- his trunks.
- His hands stopped mine, but I looked up at him and saw his
- resolve (if he really had any) weaken. "Okay, Cindy, if you're
- sure."
- "I'm sure. After all, you did it for me. It's only fair, isn't
- it?" I know I rolled my eyes at him when I said that. Since that
- time and over the years, I've been left wondering if I fell more
- into his plan than he did into mine.
- That's all it took. Robbie stood up and stripped of his
- bathing suit and I just stared, mesmerized by his sex organ. I
- was surprised that it was just hanging there. It appeared to be
- about 4 inches long and had a bushy nest of pubic hair that
- encircled the base and ran down to cover his sack. It looked
- smaller than when I'd touched it through his clothes. I was not
- an expert on the male arousal process and didn't know its ability
- to grow. I could have sworn that it raised its head slightly even
- as I looked at it.
- A churning feeling ran through my stomach as I remembered
- pictures in the magazine showing women sucking on these things. I
- wasn't sure what I had gotten myself into, but I was determined
- that Robbie would have an orgasm. Besides, I'd never seen an
- orgasm before.
- Robbie sat down beside me and stretched his legs out on the
- ottoman. Then he leaned forward and pulled his t-shirt over his
- head so that he sat there totally naked beside me.
- Nervously I asked, "Okay, what do I do first?"
- Robbie licked his lips. He was nervous too.
- "Just take it in your hand, like so." He wrapped his right
- palm around the length of it, then removed his hand. I reached
- over with my right hand and wrapped my fist around it just like
- he showed me. "Now, with your hand around it, just move your fist
- up and down on it."
- It had grown visibly since I first laid eyes in it. The head
- of it took on a similar appearance to the one on the artificial
- penis, only Robbie's was almost purple. I knew he had been
- circumcised because I had seen little babies that had been. His
- penis jerked in my hand and I looked up, a question in my eyes.
- He just looked back at me and said, "Like that. Just keep going."
- I had thought that the spasm I had felt was his orgasm, but I
- had been wrong. So I continued to stroke up and down his shaft. I
- noticed that the head of his penis was getting a darker reddish
- purple, the more I pumped on it. Robbie drew in a deep breath and
- exhaled slowly, groaning slightly. This caused me to slow down
- again, but he nodded for me to keep going. My arm was getting
- tired, so I swapped hands. His hips began to pump just like mine
- had on his fingers. Soon my other arm was tired.
- "When do I put it in my mouth?" I asked bravely.
- An anguished look came over Robbie's face and he stuttered for
- a few seconds and sort of muttered, "Oh, just anytime now."
- "Is now a good time?" I asked impatiently, yet fearful of the
- experience. I knew I would throw up. But I guess I had sort of
- promised him.
- He coughed and cleared his throat, "Uh... yeah. Now."
- Bending over his lap, I closed my eyes and guided the end of
- his cock into my mouth. Since I had never tasted anything like
- whatever it tasted like, I did not know how to describe it. It
- was a little salty, but other than that I didn't know that the
- rest of it was a residual taste of urine. Well, I'd never tasted
- urine before.
- "Lick it." he said, or rather groaned.
- So I did. I'd never licked one before, so I swathed this one
- good. I got it coated with lots of my saliva and soon there was
- not much taste at all. I did notice, however that the thing was
- much larger now. It was only about 6 to 6 1/2 inches long, but is
- was as big in diameter as my penis shaped dildo.
- "Now suck it while you use your hand," he moaned again.
- So I sucked it, and as I sucked, I let my hand continue
- pumping up and down. The reason I kept pumping was that he didn't
- tell me to stop. His body seemed to flutter in the midst of all I
- was doing and suddenly the penis jerked in a spasm and
- simultaneously I had a mouthful of liquid. My hand also felt his
- penis flex accompanied by a suitable moan from Robbie. Before I
- could react, the was another distinct throb and my mouth was even
- fuller so that in order not to choke, I had to swallow. I jerked
- my head away, the stuff running out of my mouth onto my chest and
- down to my dress when his member jerked again and a glob of the
- liquid hit me in face.
- "No don't quit," Robbie said as his hand wrapped around mine
- and continued to pump it up and down the length of this rod that
- had suddenly taken on a life of its own as it kept on jerking and
- spitting its offering at me.
- By the time it had stopped, my right hand was covered with a
- cloudy looking liquid that was also all over my face, my chest
- and the front of my dress, not to mention inside my mouth. Robbie
- was in no condition to help just now. He just sort of leaned back
- and collapsed. I was furious. "What is this stuff. Get it off!"
- Robbie looked surprised, "That's my come," he said as if
- surprised that I hadn't known all along. Then he saw my confusion
- and consternation and reached behind me for a box of Kleenex on
- the end table. I started to calm down as he very meticulously
- began to wipe all of it away. First he cleaned my hands, then my
- face. I don't know what happened to the stuff in my mouth. I
- suppose that some ran out and that I swallowed the rest. Then he
- wiped what he could off my dress. By the time he was cleaning the
- dab that went on my chest, I was giggling and so was Robbie.
- "So that's how boys orgasm?" I laughed.
- "That's it."
- "Well it's not fair," I said still laughing. "What can we
- girls do you guys to get back at you?"
- Robbie quit laughing, "Drive us crazy."
- We looked at each other for a few moments, aware that we had
- shared in something, although forbidden us, also very special.
- His arms went around me and he held me close very tightly for a
- long time.
- I looked at the clock. It was nearly 2:30. I couldn't believe
- that it had been three hours since I had invited Robbie in. I
- took a kleenex and began to clean his now deflated tool. It was
- much smaller than it was when I first saw it.
- "I better be going," he said at last.
- A little apprehensive, I asked, "Will you be back."
- "You know I'll be back."
- "Why," I asked, suppressing a smile.
- "You're my girl. That's why."
- "What about Diane?"
- His forehead wrinkled, "Diane who?"
- My laughter fairly tinkled like little bells as I threw myself
- in his arms and we kissed once more. "Can't you stay just a
- little longer? I'm alone here all day with nobody to talk to." I
- tried to sound just a little pitiful.
- "Okay, but only if you feed me some lunch. I'm starved."
- "It's a deal," I said as I stood. I'll have to put on some
- other clothes. Are you going to wear your trunks and t-shirt."
- "I better," he laughed, "I can't go around like this." He
- began to dress as I went upstairs to find another dress. When I
- came back down, Robbie was looking in the refrigerator. When he
- turned, he let out a low whistle.
- I'm not sure why I did it, but instead of putting on something
- sensible, I stood there before him wearing only a long t-shirt
- that barely covered my bikini panties. It couldn't escape his
- notice that I was no longer wearing a bra either.
- Mimicking the movies, "I thought I'd slip into something
- comfortable," I said in my most sultry voice and then giggled.
- Robbie got a very serious look in his eyes as he walked toward
- me. At first I thought he was angry, but when he kissed me I knew
- he had been pushed to his limit. I didn't know anything about
- "teases" and will power. I was just wanting to be grown up, now
- that I had discovered sex. What I didn't know was that neither of
- us were really "grown up." We just thought we were.
- So right there in the middle of the kitchen, his hands were
- all over me again and before I knew it, he was carrying me into
- my bedroom.
- "Cindy, I don't have any protection to keep you from getting
- pregnant, but I'm going to show you something that my uncle told
- me about. He said if he knew at my age what he knows now, he
- could have driven any girl in school crazy." Then looking my in
- the eyes, he added sensually, "I'm going to try it out on you."
- I didn't know what Robbie was talking about except "going all
- the way," but it sounded exciting. He stood me beside my bed and
- took my t-shirt by its bottom hem and pulled it up so that my
- arms raised with it until it was gone. Almost reflexively, I
- crossed my arms in front of my breasts, then dropped them to
- permit his eyes to savor their pert shape.
- I felt a shiver of delight run through me when Robbie said,
- "You're beautiful." He hooked his thumbs in the waist of my
- panties and pulled them down my legs to my knees. I raised each
- foot, first the left, then the right, to leave the garment in a
- heap at my feet.
- Robbie discarded his t-shirt, but kept his trunks on. He
- pulled me close and bent down to kiss me, then guiding me
- backwards lay me across the bed. Somehow, I felt that we should
- be under a sheet, but it really didn't seem all that important.
- When Robbie stretched out on the bed beside me, I began to feel a
- little scared about what was happening.
- In a little girl voice, I asked, "Robbie, what are you going
- to do to me? It won't hurt, will it?"
- He smiled. "I'm going to eat you."
- My eyes widened. "Come on. What are you really going to do."
- "I already told you," he answered as he came closer, "and I
- promise it won't hurt, not even a little bit." His mouth covered
- mine.
- My arms went around his neck as his hands began to explore my
- body. Robbie's right hand was stroking up and down the outer part
- of my left thigh. I raised the knee to give him access to my
- pussy, but he did not seem to notice my offer. Instead he let his
- kiss trail off my mouth until his face was buried at the base of
- my throat. This was a new sensation as he let his tongue lick and
- probe in the tender junction of my neck and shoulder.
- He shifted his body so that his left hand could work on my
- right breast. His tongue began to lick wetly from my neck around
- to my ear his tongue dug deeply there. I felt goose bumps raise
- up on my arms and breasts. These sensations were definitely new
- and my body began to squirm in response. I closed my eyes and was
- horrified at the picture that came to my mind of Robbie doing
- this to Diane Contento.
- My body stiffened, but for just a moment as the tongue bath
- continued. I wasn't sure what he wanted when he put a hand under
- me and tried to roll me over, but I relaxed and allowed my body
- to be turned so that I was laying face down. Robbie's breath was
- warm on the back of my neck as he began to kiss be there, the
- kisses turning to playful nips with his teeth. He lifted me so
- his left hand could slide between my body and the bed to cup my
- left breast.
- As his kisses and licks left my neck to continue downward to
- my shoulders, his right hand began to stroke my rounded butt.
- Even I knew that I had what guys call a "nice ass." I remember
- when my breasts were an early disappointment, that my Mom patted
- my bottom and said, "Honey, I know women who would kill for a
- tush like yours." I was pleased, but even more so when I finally
- filled out in the chest department. Of course, I still had a
- little way to go. I would have been extremely happy to know then
- that I would even increase in stature by more than two inches, as
- well as, go from an A cup to a C cup.
- The hand on my ass moved downward to stroke the back of my
- left thigh, then it slipped to the inside of my left knee and
- pulled my legs apart. When I had been turned over, I had allowed
- them to close. Shifting my body a little, I moved my legs even
- further apart so there was a little more than a foot of distance
- between my knees. The hand came back up to my ass and squeezed
- each cheek separately while the mouth continued to roam over my
- back.
- I wouldn't have wanted Robbie to know, but this had turned
- into more of a massage than any kind of so-called love-making.
- That's what I was thinking right up until the hand on my ass,
- made a detour to my pussy. I must have been soaking wet, because
- I felt a finger make a single backstroke along my slit and it was
- buried inside me. Before I could even let out a suitable moan, It
- was withdrawn and replaced by two fingers.
- The two fingers left and I could tell that his thumb was now
- my slit's sole occupant. Robbie let it stroke in and out as his
- kisses began to dance lightly across my tight rounded ass. He was
- not touching my clitoris, but it was still powerfully
- stimulating.
- The thumb eased its way out and the two fingers went in as
- relief. My body reacted next to the thumb tip placed directly at
- the opening of my anus. I felt the thumb press inward, but I
- tightened my hole and whispered, "No, Robbie, not there." The
- thumb was gone instantly.
- My body was set in motion again as the left hand under my left
- breast lifted and caused me to turn on my back again. Robbie
- tried again to swallow one of my tits whole and as he did so, I
- felt the thumb at my pussy again. Going in from the front with
- his thumb brought the second knuckle across my clitoris with each
- thrust. I felt myself climbing toward a release once more. But it
- wasn't to be. As the thumb withdrew, I actually moaned in
- disappointment and uttered, "Please, Robbie."
- Robbie paid no attention to me, but rather began a trail of
- licks and kisses from my breasts to my belly. He paused briefly
- to lick and suck at my "insy" navel. I wasn't too pleased with it
- because stimulation of any kind to my navel had always caused me
- to feel a little nauseous... sort of seasick, but somehow this
- was different and I survived.
- Next he licked a line down my belly from my nave to the top of
- my pubic bush. I was a little alarmed when he pulled at my hair
- with his lips. A great relief came over me as he bypassed that
- area and began to kiss and lick my thighs. I felt just a twinge
- of pain in my right thigh as he turned my thighs so that they
- splayed outward and lay flat on the bed. The kisses here were
- like tiny flames and I shuddered with pleasure at each of them.
- My wish was, however, that Robbie get back to fingering or
- thumbing my pussy. That was the best part.
- I felt my lower torso being shifted as, Robbie lay face down
- between my legs. He worked his arms under my thighs and lay them
- across his shoulders. What was he doing? Then his thumbs were
- working to get back in. I shifted my bottom a little to lend some
- assistance to the effort. The thumbs peeled me open. The next
- thing I knew, Robbie's nose was buried in my sex hole.
- I tried to pull away, but my legs over his shoulders could
- find no leverage for the maneuver.
- "No, Robbie. That's nasty... Ah... Oh... Hunh... Oh," and his
- tongue was pushing deep into my pussy. Somehow, when he sucked my
- clitoris between his lips, I knew this was the most natural thing
- ever. It was just like what I had done to him.
- Both my hands found his head and pushed his face tighter to my
- sex. His tongue never stopped whipping and dancing up and down,
- in and out. Then he would pause to suck at my clitoris again. I
- wasn't sure how he did what he did next, but I felt fingers enter
- my vagina and begin to wiggle and thrust. He trapped my clitoris
- between his lips and began to stroke his tongue back and forth
- across it. I bit the back of my hand to keep from screaming.
- Perhaps two fingers of his right hand and the thumb of his
- left were inside me. It was close quarters and stretched me as
- much as my big dildo had. then the thumb was gone. This time when
- it tapped at my anus, I was too occupied with the sensations that
- were running through me and Robbie became a liar.
- Even though the thumb was covered by my lubricant, it hurt
- like hell when he slid it past my sphincter. But I didn't care,
- because at that moment, the most intense orgasm I had felt to
- this point slammed into me like a freight train. My hips came off
- the bed hunching wildly at his face. My hands, one on the back of
- his head, the other at my mouth were fluttering almost uselessly.
- My eyes rolled back and my toes cured downward. I remember saying
- things through my heaving breaths like, "Yes, Oh, Robbie. Oh
- yes." and every now and then I hooted out a ,"hooooomm... mmm...
- ohhhh..." and such as that.
- As the throes of release began to fade, Robbie continued to
- lick as I just stroked his head. The hand over my mouth was now
- in repose across my eyes to shut out the light which seemed to
- have become somehow too intense to look at. The thumb was the
- first to go. My back door hole sort of assisted in expelling it.
- Next he lifted his head to look up over my body to my flushed
- face. I could hear his fingers being removed from my squashy wet
- vagina.
- "Like it?" Robbie asked.
- "Love it." I affirmed.
- Robbie crawled across my naked body until he could lie down
- beside me. I lifted my head so he could slide his arm under it.
- He was on his back, so I turned onto my right side and began to
- rub his chest. He was just staring at the ceiling. I was amazed
- when his nipples stood up as I let my fingernails trace over
- them. "I didn't know that boys did that to." I exclaimed,
- laughing.
- "I don't think you know much about boys at all," he answered.
- "But I'm learning, aren't I?"
- Robbie just looked at me and smiled. After a few seconds of
- thought, he commented, "You're not a kid."
- "Robbie, what about you? Do I need to do you again."
- He laughed, "Not hardly. But I am going to need a change of
- clothes."
- "Why? What happened?" I asked, concerned.
- "It seems that in all the excitement, my horse was in such a
- tight barn, that he went off all by himself."
- I had to think about it for a little while, but when I caught
- on, I put both hands over my mouth to suppress my giggles, "You
- mean...?"
- "Yep."
- When I had recovered from that round, I began to think a
- little more seriously. I was afraid to ask him, but I needed to
- know. "Robbie, please promise not to get mad, but I want to know
- something. If you don't want to tell me, it's be Okay."
- "Sure, what is it?"
- I didn't know quite how to phrase it, but I went on anyway,
- "How do you know all this stuff? I mean, you know, about girls,
- and all... about sex and how to do it?" Before he could answer, I
- went on, "You talked about being safe... what I did to you in the
- rec room..." I blushed, "... and what you just did to me. How do
- you know about all that."
- I could tell the question disturbed him, and I wished I hadn't
- asked. It was as if I'd spoiled everything.
- "If I lied to you, you would know it's a lie," he started.
- "I've done some of these things with Diane. We've been dating
- since we were sophomores. By the time we were juniors, we were
- into pretty heavy petting. One thing led to another until we had
- experimented with just about everything there was to do. I mean,
- it was mostly just feeling and touching and lots of kissing."
- He stopped and looked at the ceiling again. "Everything that I
- did to you down in the rec room, I've done with Diane. What I did
- to you here was the very first time I've done that. I got it from
- my uncle and a book he gave me."
- I was pleased that he'd never `eaten' Diane, but was a bit
- jealous of all the other. "Did she do what I did to you in the
- rec room?"
- "No."
- There was more but I wasn't sure. I decided to be direct,
- "Robbie, did you and Diane ever... ever..." I finished in a rush
- "go-all-the-way?"
- It was as if I could hear the ring of the hammer on the nail
- when he turned his head to look at me.
- "Once," he replied, "just once this past summer... just once."
- "What happened?" I asked.
- "What do you mean 'what happened'?" he asked looking puzzled.
- He misunderstood my question. Robbie thought I wanted a blow
- by blow description of what they did. "I mean, why did you break
- up?"
- The pause again, "We didn't use anything and her period was
- late. She thought she was pregnant and wrote me a note in school.
- I stuffed the note in my pocket, planning to read it later, but
- forgot all about it. My Mom found the note."
- He inhaled deeply, then went on, "She called Mrs. Contento and
- everyone went a little crazy. It's almost funny. Diane got her
- period that same afternoon after school. We haven't dated since."
- "Do you want to?"
- "No."
- I was satisfied, but needed one more reassurance, "Are you mad
- at me for asking?"
- "I'm glad you asked. You're the only one who knows besides
- Diane, our mothers and me. We didn't even let our fathers know."
- Kissing him on the side of the face, I sort of cuddled up
- against him, "Robbie, will you go all the w... make love to me?"
- "Now?" he asked in a surprised tone.
- I whispered, "Not now, but sometime...will you?"
- "I don't think there's any question about it. I'll make love
- to you... sometime." His kiss was warm and very sweet.
- I'm not sure I ever really knew Robbie, now that I think back
- on that time of my life. Sometimes you want to believe in someone
- so badly that you accept too much at face value. Robbie never
- made love to me, as in "go all the way." For the rest of the
- weekend, however, until my parents returned, it was his picture I
- imagined as we labored against each other under the sheet, my
- faithful dildo in hand.
- I was able to use the vibrator and dildo for several weeks
- thereafter when no one else was around. Then one day, they were
- gone. I searched high and low, but never saw them again. But I
- know that they were around somewhere because I could hear her and
- dad at play. The sound a vibrator makes when it touches a bed
- frame is unique. Many was the night that I could hear them giggle
- in the confines of their bedroom when the toys would
- inadvertently "burp." And they still seem to be going strong
- today. After all they're only 42 and 43. I'm glad it's like that
- for them.
- As to Robbie, he and I never found ourselves in a situation
- that could so easily lend itself to our youthful desires. After
- he graduated, he and Diane went all the way at least one more
- time. This time she didn't get her period and they were married
- in an small civil ceremony with just a few close friends and
- their two month-old son.
- It's amazing what a dream can do to jog your memory.
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