NetNews Usenet Archive 1993 #3/NN_1993_3.iso/spool/alt/angst/5592

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From: [e-mail] (Erik Radmall)
Newsgroups: alt.angst
Subject: Angstlet
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Date: 25 Jan 93 14:42:24 GMT
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It always seems that just when I get a little mental equilibrium, WHAM!
A few months ago I dated this girl I though was really nice. I even let
go a little and chose not to play games. Of course, I didn't realize just
how many emotional land mines I stepped on in the process of being
straightforward. Some clues for me might have been that she hadn't had
a serious relationship for 6 years, hated her ex-husband, and was fanatically
religious. She even told her brother (who set us up) that she _really_
liked me. Anyway, one day, it seemed, she decided not to talk to me,
ever again. No explanation, no nothing. I called, even sent a letter, all
to no avail. Now, I can handle a "no", or an "I don't think we should
see each other," and yes, even an LJBF, but NOT a situation with NO
FEEDBACK. This ego wound festered for weeks, having know way of knowing
what went wrong (I alway like to do post-mortems on dead relationships).
Well, I had finally gotten over her rudeness and the ego blast, so I
thought. Yesterday coming out of the bagel shop, I run into her (and
she lives on a totally different side of town). It took a good 2 seconds
for my brain to recognize her, by that time she had already passed. I
just wanted to scream at her for being such an inconsiderate bitch. I
spent all day yesterday thinking of put-downs if I ever ran into her
again. Well, it's just nature screwing with me, again (deja vu, anyone?).

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Erik Radmall -- [e-mail]