Freak!


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By Katherine on Thursday, April 9, 1998 - 04:00 pm:

Everyone tells me i am a total freak and that i am THE WEIRDEST person that they have EVER met. Since we wear uniforms in school, its not how i dress and its not my hair. Its just me. I can't help it. I've been weird ever since i was born and i'm not about to change. They problem? When I went to public school it was fine because people don't care. But in private school (or mine, at least) all the girls seem to be the same girl. And the other 'freaks' are called freaks because they dress in black and say they worship the devil. I can't deal with it anymore and parents won't let me transfer. (I've begged) I've tried to be normal but it just made me miserable. Help!


By Oi if only i were like you on Friday, April 10, 1998 - 12:22 am:

everyone louves a freak! people enjoy going to circus of fairs or whatnot to see the abnormal people don't they because they don't look like themselves and they find that fascinating...intriquing even...they can't be like that..even if they tried...

so i figure being a freak or being called a freak today means your doing something the names callers don't have the balls to do...giving you the Ummph! they haven't got in their "jock"straps...or thats what i think


Oi! if only i were like you *S*


By Anonymous on Friday, April 10, 1998 - 09:40 am:

I don't know if you are being a freak or just being young. I'm 18 and a couple of years ago, I did an impulsive thing and I'm OK with it. I went to an all-girls Catholic high school. Well, at dismissal time, we have to walk up the street a block to get to the bus stop. So three of my girlfriends and I are waiting at this bus stop and I look up and see a beautiful naked man through his windows, putting his contact lenses in his eyes. I tell my friends to be quiet and look and we're all looking at him do this and one of my friends giggles and I start giggling and then we're all giggling. Now the window is open, the screens are in (it's hot) and we have a great view. He looks down, smiles meekly and mouths a silent "I'm sorry" and turns to walk away. I shout, "No, please don't go. Come back." To my surprise, he does. Now we're standing there no more than 10 feet from him and we're all smiling. My three friends and him and I ask him if we can look. He smiled and nodded affirmatively. So we get to look and smile and giggle and say "oh my God" for at least a couple of minutes until he finally said, "Well, I hope you like it." I said, "We LOVE it." And he turned to walk away. My girlfriends think I was crazy to talk to him, but he was very nice about it and I never saw him again. It was all like a dream, but it wasn't a dream because we still talk about it to this day. His reaction and approval of my, well, voyeurism, our voyeurism, made it an incredibly beautiful memory I'll never forget. So I was wild and crazy at the time, but I'm OK with it. It was fun. He was a complete stranger, but was nice. So sometimes living on the wild side pays off.
Jill


By HappyFace on Friday, April 10, 1998 - 11:11 am:

I myself am also a "freak". I really don't have ny problem with this. I am friendly to people who are mean to me and smirk behind my back. I am nice to pretty much everybody. So, what makes me a freak? I honestly don't know, but all tht matters is that I am happy wih who I am. I hope you are too. That's all that really matters, anyway.


By Que_ on Friday, April 10, 1998 - 01:38 pm:

I've spent all my school years so far trying to fit into this crowd or that. This means limitations, and of course it means a loss of identity. At least by being a "freak" you have somewhat your own identity, instead of just being one of "Nikki's friends" or "Trevor's Girlfriend" or "Jesse's little sister."

I decided this year recently that it's the people in my school that are the problem, and not me. Like I've said in here before, everyone at my school minus a few people, maybe, are pretty stuck up. Some are nice on the surface but that's all very superficial. We live in a city where the school has tons of money, and we have always been viewed by other schools as snobby. Just this year I realized that it's true! I want out.

But, all fellow freaks, have hope, because I work at a summer camp where there are tons of people who are *so awesome.* They are witty, open-minded, and best of all, outgoing and fun. Nothing like ANYONE i know at school. I really don't feel like myself with anyone at school, but when I'm with this group of people, I do.

My suggestion for all my fellow "freaks": find something to do over the summer where you are sure to be around people with similar interests. If you're into the arts, try to find a camp (far away from your hometown preferably) which is advertised as a fine arts camp. If you're into sports, but can't stand the jocks at your school, get involved in a sports (like soccer, volleyball, tennis, hool-a-hoop or whatever) camp. Trust me, i know from experience that you will be sooo much happier knowing that you do in fact have value as a person, and *can* have friends who won't judge you....because they are *just* like you!!!

Bye!


By Keely on Friday, April 10, 1998 - 02:57 pm:

Hey, this may be a little of topic, but i have been labeled as being someone's girlfriend, (actaully it's ironic that monique used "Trevor's Girlfriend as an example, becuase for 6 months that's who i was, "Trevor's girlfriend".

i have few freinds at school because i do strange stuff like pick recyclables out of the garbage so they can be recycled and i don't find a lot of the immature pranks of my school funny. I dress strange, act strange, and often say strange things that no one but me understands...so i guess i am a freak if your want to label me that, but i would prefer to think of myself as someone who is not afraid to express how they are. Maybe that's all being a freak is, expressing who you are and as a result sometimes going against what is expected of you by your peers.


By Unt_ on Sunday, April 26, 1998 - 09:28 pm:

My friend(sorta friend...well, he was a fellow bandmate...whatever)had this idea...F-U!!! Freaks unite!!! We were gonna make a t-shirt...FU design on the back, and a picture of the Dairy Products Judging Team from Purdue back in '25 on thje back. Of course we never did it...but we did make a FU hand signal. anway....


By Anonymous on Saturday, May 16, 1998 - 05:36 pm:

I got a friend who just loves to be diferent, she wears out rageous cloths and is a self confessed trekkie (not somthing labeled in the book of trend) and she gets a lot of admiration for it. Where i come from it's the groupies who get looked down on and the freaks rule.
Have you heard any of the album 'beautiful freak' by the eels? there's sometop songs on there i'd say.
But back to the point, you've got to feel sorry for the groupies because it's probably just an insecurity thing, it can take a lot of courage to be different, and that's somthing they don't have. I've a friend who's really in to fashion and 'same-ism' and if you get to know her she actually very insecure about who she is, while as the trekkie is as content as a sand frogette about who she is.
Cará


By Lya on Tuesday, June 9, 1998 - 10:30 pm:

I really love being a 'freak'. I live-action role play on the weekends and have a blast wearing gothic clothes! It's all about self-expression, not attitude! If you have this urge to be you, be you!


By Lilliana on Friday, June 12, 1998 - 02:15 am:

i get some strange looks in my little down home perfect postcard picture inlet town from passer by's and of course peers...because i've multiple piercings (by choice not some crazy fashion trend i wanted in on) and my clothes isn't all that flattering for a khic my age..although i must say i got a nice compliment or i think it was nice..from some elderly guy downtown "i like when the girls wear that big baggy style clothes. it means you have to guess at what they've got to offer. Its mysterious, and i like it" erm..now that i think back on it it its a pretty sick compliment speacially if he was implying anything. anyhow..i don't the way a person looks acts, or what they o should really be the bass ofsomeones friendship with that person...if i did that then i'd be in seclusion by myself..simply because i hate people and it wouldn't matter what you wore or what you like i'd hate you or at least midly dislike you just for being human a factor you can't do anything about..but thats off the topic...the whole judging thing to me is ridiculous. money's money itsfine when you've got it but when its gone and your flashy clothes and supermodel looks have all washed away who's going to be their kissing your hands and offering you flowers and begging literally for dates..certainly not the people that you've turned away as scoieties rejects...kinda remins me of when your parents tell you that they want you to take care of them when they get older...now that all your moneys gone looks and so called friends who's going to take care of you? ahh..n.e.v.e.r.m.i.n.d. i can't explain this any further i've completely lost my point somewhere in my frustration over the stupidity of the judging deciding who's worth the cost in life and who's not and somewhere in my head i know what i'm trying to say but i am not sure whether anyone else will..so now i shut up!


By Marsha on Friday, July 3, 1998 - 08:59 pm:

I have been a freak all my life. I did brainy girl where gangsta was in, gangsta where preppy was in, and then freaky clothes and makeup. At my weirdest I did the gothic/satanic thing. I have been under the impression for three years that all the freaks should get together and murder the preps. What do you think???


By Katherine on Wednesday, July 8, 1998 - 09:44 pm:

it be me. the person who started this conversation. unfortunately, you might end up killing me, because i am a relatively normal looking person. i guess i just have a freaky personality. :)


By Lanya on Sunday, July 12, 1998 - 04:48 pm:

I've been in your position my whole life. I say be proud of who you are and who gives a flying fuck what those girls think anyway?


By Katherine on Tuesday, July 14, 1998 - 11:36 am:

Lanya
I'm glad i am the way i am. I've tried to be normal but it never worked. But when all of your friends and classmates tell you everyday what a total freak you are, it starts to do a number on your self esteem


By Rhiannon on Saturday, July 25, 1998 - 03:09 pm:

I'M WEIRD BUT AT LEAST I KNOW WHAT I WANT IN LIFE THAT'S MORE THAN THOSE ALL UP IN THEIR APPEARANCE PEOPLE CAN SAY AND I'M PROUD OF IT!!!!


By Mary on Tuesday, July 28, 1998 - 03:08 pm:

I am a prep. Don't kill me! I wear clothes from the GAP and Anne Taylor and all the little preppie clothes, but that doesn't mean I don't have freaky tendences or that I'm not an independent thinker (if there is such a thing). Let's all just love one another. : )


By Anonymous on Friday, July 31, 1998 - 11:46 pm:

Outside appearances are so superfical. if you are a real fucking weirdo, like me, you know that what you dress like has nothing to do with it. sure, some people are "original" or "independent" when they follow the "alternative" trends, but you've gotta get down and dirty if you want to know if someone if truely different or a follower of some counter-culture thing. Damn thats hot!


By Carol (Unt_) on Sunday, October 11, 1998 - 02:36 pm:

Thank you anonymous (right above me). Dressing like a freak is nothing. Especially cuz most freaks dress the same. Yeah, I dress like a weirdo often enough, but its getting BORING. I tend to weirder with my personality....
I like wearing mismatched or tacky clothes or funny dresses...but lately I've not been in the mood to wear the dresses etc cuz its just not as comfortable. I still tend to scare people with my personality & random speech (Rocky horror quotes or goonies quotes at weird times or whatever). Plus I ENJOY being a nerd. I *like* cheesy science jokes & classical music. I was voted "most individualistic" in HS, but that was mostly a superficial thing & people thought i was *only* a weirdo & nothing else...nobody thought I could carry a solid thought. They musta thought I was tripped out on something even though I was an officer in the drug free club. They thought I was stupid even though I was in honors classes. Of course they still grouped me into the "bando" group (thought that was true).
Of course Jenny Jones still pisses me off. All those "I hate how my freak kid dresses" shows. l hate how the audience reacts, booing them and such. UG!! If they can't get over how they look, people will never get equal rights & there will always be "minorities." I think i'm babbling & I oughta go away.....


By Chas on Monday, October 12, 1998 - 03:29 pm:

My friend has a list of words which she thinks are redundant, paradoxical and indefinable. The top one is 'NORMAL'.
Just a thought!


By Anonymous on Monday, October 26, 1998 - 11:29 pm:

I am a attractive woman who people have classified as a freak because of the clothes I wear the music I listen to or my interest's that
are not what most people would say were very becoming of my gender,And I am proud to be diffrent,infact I belive my husband would never leave me because he could never replace me.My advice to anyone who is diffrent is be yourself and one day someone will come along and appreciate
you for who you are.


By Anonymous on Friday, October 30, 1998 - 12:25 am:

Be proud of your freakdom (if you decide you want to be a freak.)
Maybe if I had conformed more I would have been asked out often and been popular. But I would be a stifled soul who never had time to find out who she was.
In middle school I chose to stop repressing my personality in vain hopes of being popular. I decided I would be myself and anyone who ran away screaming was not a true friend.
Freakiness is fun. I go out with wet hair after I shower, I spend my money on clothes I like rather than the logo-of-the-month, and I go to concerts alone if no one else wants to go. I joined a dance group, something I'd wanted to do for years but felt everyone would laugh because it "wasn't my personality."
Finally, I met the greatest guy! He came up to my room to talk, and instead of scrambling to put on makeup I'd answer the door in my mom's old college shirt, leggings and some old shorts (my pajamas ensemble!) and he didn't run! I realized he was able to overlook what would turn off anyone close-minded, and loved him more for it.
I ended up dropping a few friends who couldn't see past his "nerdiness" (He actually answered questions and seemed interested in his classes, ooh!). But we're together and I'm very glad I didn't become a conformist clone. Freaks unite!

P.S. Keely--you go! I try to get recyclables from the garbage to the recycling bin also. =)


By Thora on Sunday, November 8, 1998 - 08:05 pm:

if goths are such "freaks", then why are there so damned many of them? they are just as interchangable as the so-called "preps". you can find goth crowds at just about any ordinary public school. personally, i don't think that being a freak has much to do with the way you dress, or how many piercings you have. it's about your ideas, thoughts, opinions, and personality (unless you were born with three hands or something, then it's about your genes). being a freak can be a good thing, but it can also be a bad thing. for example, i'd say that extremely intelligent people, such as Einstein, are freaks, and in that case it's a good thing because those are the people who can make positive changes (although you could argue that they are also capable of causing negative change, and that the atomic bomb wasn't necessarily a good thing), and then there are freaks without morals, like Ted Bundy, and in that case it's a bad thing.

PS: i have nothing against people who dress goth or have multiple piercings. i just don't think it necessarily makes you a freak.


By Anonymous on Monday, November 9, 1998 - 09:23 pm:

I agree with you all. I have been a freak all my life. I've gone to a tiny town school where everyone knows everyone else and everyone is related to each other within about 2 relatives. My family is one of the few families in the town that do not have this relation thing going on. So I am pretty much a freak because of the way I dress, the fact that I don't play sports or date jocks or do much involving the school and the fact that I am a very eccentric, differing and a person for more of the intellectual pursuits in life. So no one really likes me for who I am so I just keep to myself...but I am still very much a freak and I feel for you all who feel the same way I do. I will be looking forward to your responses in this room...since all of us seem to have a lot in common.


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