Am I the only witch out here?


NrrdGrrl! Discussion Forum: Lives and Confessions: Am I the only witch out here?
By Ciggie on Tuesday, May 19, 1998 - 11:02 am:

I've never really understood Christianity, and was never comfortable with the whole theory, so I turned to Wicca. I could go on and on, but I'll keep it simple. This is a religion usin natures forces. Sort of..... Well, I had my book of shadows (a sorta spell book) with me, and my ex found it. He showed it to abs every one in my school. You might be wondering why dont I et revenge, but I am a good witch, like most are. It really pisses me off when people make movies like the craft because this is why people get the misunderstanding! Witches are not Satanists!
Infact the Satan does not even exist in Pagan religions. Nature is cruel, nature is good and this is our version of good and evil! We are not bad, we do not worship the Satan, and we have nothin against other religions.


By Shannon on Tuesday, May 19, 1998 - 03:29 pm:

Ciggie, if you go to Religions, under Just Plain Talk II, you'll find that there are several Wiccans "on board", and several people (myself included) considering it. What your boyfriend did really sucks... and seeing someone's Grimoire is like, the *worst* introduction to the Craft that anyone could have, anyway. Not that there's anything bad in there, it's just that it might scare some people if they were close-minded. Yeah, I never really felt comfortable with Christianity, either. It's probably a combination of being raised in a *very* strict sect and being a little obsessive-compulsive, but in the periods of my life where I considered myself Christian, I worried constantly about going to hell. That's what I like about Wicca.... you do reap what you sow, but God's not going to torure you for eternity if you have impure thoughts, etc. (Hey, everyone, don't get offended, that's what they told me would happen when I was a kid! :) ). Yeah, I guess the only thing keeping me from "going all the way"
(which I guess, for me, would be self-initiation), is that I have a hard time believing in things that I can't see... always have. But I guess that I can "see" Wicca more than I could others religions which I've looked into. Are you solitary, or in a coven? Email me if you want to talk...


By Helen on Wednesday, May 20, 1998 - 04:12 pm:

I`m really considering becoming a Wiccan, Can anyone give me some more information on it? I`d be really grateful.


By Shannon on Thursday, May 28, 1998 - 03:39 am:

Helen, I *most* certainaly can't claim to know much, but the web site which sparked my interest in the whole thing is called "Open Sesame", it's www.open-sesame.com. Also, if you have access to a decent bookstore, check out Wicca for the Solitary Practitioner, by Scott Cunningham, or To Ride a Silver Broomstick, by Silver RavenWolf. Hope I can help...


By Marie Houig on Thursday, May 28, 1998 - 11:36 am:

you're not the only one. my boyfriend's Wiccan. i don't really understand it. but we have an understanding, i don't pressure him about my Christain beliefs and deosn't pressure me about his. it really hs not been a big thing though, i'm glad because i don't know much about it, and oh well, i forgot what my piont was.


By Keridwyn on Thursday, May 28, 1998 - 09:54 pm:

Nope, not the only one. Does the name Keridwyn (or as some prefer, Cerridwen) seem familiar? =)

However...
I am still devouring the books, and they are more "Druid" in nature than Wicca, and although both are not the same, they have much in common.

Yours,
a student :)


By Helen on Friday, May 29, 1998 - 10:02 am:

Shannon: Thanks for the info :)
I`m going to go and check out the website now, and I`ve already got one of the books (To Ride a Silver Broomstick).
I guess what sparked my interest was a Wiccan friend I met online- she spoke a *lot* of sense.
Thanks again!


By Oirio on Wednesday, June 24, 1998 - 01:01 pm:

Wyat exactly do witches do?I've no idea but im sure i'm interested!!!
Casting spells & stuff??Like what??I've always been interested i n that kinda thing!!
My problem is i live nowhere near anywhere so
info. is hard to come across,and i never had put
witch-craft & satan toghter. please excuse the spelling.
-Oirio


By Lya on Friday, July 3, 1998 - 01:27 am:

As my friend says whenever someone calls him a tree-hugger:

"HEY! Driuds are people too!" : )


Wicca is an absolutely wonderful religion (I favor a healthy miix of that and Gnostic Christianity myself)!

~Lya


By Shampoo on Friday, July 3, 1998 - 12:22 pm:

No, "Keridwyn" doesn't sound familiar. What's it mean?

And I'm with Oirio, supernatural stuff has always interested me (not *me* doing it, but other people and telling me about it), so what do you guys do?


By Keridwyn on Friday, July 3, 1998 - 02:15 pm:

The name "Cerridwen" is only familiar among Pagans, I would imagine.
Cerridwen is the English spelling for a Celtic Goddess. The spelling Keridwyn is Gaelic, if i recall... and the spellings vary. Cerridwen, Ceridwen, Keridwen, Keridwyn... on and on.

Here is for your enjoyment.

http://www.broomcloset.com/cerridwen.html

:-)

Blessed be, everyone.


By Star on Monday, July 6, 1998 - 06:05 pm:

Hey Witchies!

I'm an Eclectic Wiccan and would be very very happy to help any of you out with any Wicca info that you would like... I have tons, after all!
Write me!

Blessed be!

*Star*


By Lady_die on Wednesday, July 8, 1998 - 08:57 am:

Hi wiccans,
For anyone who wants to know more about wicca,just check the net and you'll come across hundreds of great wicca pages!
The bestest page about wicca:

http://www.silvermoon.net/catala/index.html

And of course there are many mnay books in the library. I thought someone else mentioned it before, but try these books:

Wicca: A guide for the solitairy practioner
and
Living wicca:A futher guide for the solitairy practioner
Both by Scott Cunningham

"Harm none"

Blessed be
Hilde


By Cassie on Sunday, July 26, 1998 - 10:07 pm:

Hello, I'm wiccan too. Anyone who really wants to learn more about it should go to www.celticcrow.com There's a really greeat teen board there for discussion on witchcraft.

Love ya,
Cassie


By Rhiannon on Friday, September 25, 1998 - 04:11 pm:

Going back to the begining, the girl in the craft is a good witch!?!


By Anonymous on Friday, October 2, 1998 - 03:35 pm:

Well i know this is gonna sound bad , selfish and like it needs a lot of help but i need you wiccans to help me out.First of all i never did magick before and im not a witch but i need your advice.I am not really very pretty or popular,well i am kinda but i just want to be noticed by lads and girlsalike, i need to know if i could do a spell or would that be really wrong??I am , and have always mbeen interested in wiccan faith and am very aware of the three fold law.I'm nervous of trying spell for that reason as i kow it'll come back worse.Please dont hesitate in telling me to forget it!! I just want to be noticed and be paid attention to.Right i know i said i was'nt good looking, but i am..with flaws of course...just compared to my friends(which i am often)i am not exactly gorgeous.. and i know i am a really nice person i just want others to notice it also.Its not a confidence issue, i do have confidence i just want to be more noticed...please be brutally honest.What would be likely to happen back to me ?? As im not a witch would it be worse??Please am i just being stupid??


By Endora on Monday, October 5, 1998 - 09:14 pm:

Anon,

I don't know much about the Wicca stuff, so I can't say. I know this will sound corny, but what about putting the time & energy into something you really like? If you want to be noticed, why not pick something your good at & work on it? Do you like acting, music, writing or sports?


By Anonymous on Tuesday, October 6, 1998 - 04:16 pm:

I do enjoy it but that wont help ... beleive me i got up on stage before , lead part every one thaught i was stupid, i love singing but i can't sing in frount of people.... I could not write any thing to save my life and i'm hopeless at sport....i want lads to like me but nothing works!! Help!!!


By Endora on Tuesday, October 6, 1998 - 10:14 pm:

Anon,

You were able to get the lead, right? That must mean you have some talent. "Every one thought" you were stupid? What makes you say that? Specifically, did anyone actually say that? A lot of times, we get so self-conscious we think others are thinking/saying the worst when that's not the case.

Even if someone actually said something, keep in mind what a very wise friend told me, "consider your source." Sometimes people will get jealous & say mean & untrue things about their friends. If you like singing, work on that some more. You can take classes, it doesn't have to be in front of an audience. Also, you might find people who are more supportive of you & your interests that way.


By Anonymous on Wednesday, October 7, 1998 - 04:25 pm:

Well at least i know that one person would value me or bring me up when i felt really down..i honestly would not devolop my singing as i dont have any kind of class near me.Okay i did get the lead but it was 3 minutes long and in irish, nobody told me the part i was going for had the most to say so it was only by chance that i got it...and by the way what do you mean " consider you source ??"I know this may sound strang but its because of previous insensitive posts that i dont want to say my name and this is definately not bitch goddess
thanx anyway


By Endora on Wednesday, October 7, 1998 - 09:09 pm:

"Consider your source" means that when someone says unkind things, you should consider his/her motives in saying something. While a true friend would provide constructive criticism, a psuedo friend and/or someone who's jealous would say something that's outright nasty. Their motive is to make themselves feel better at your expense.

Again, what are you basing the "every one thought i was stupid" comment on? Did someone say this to you? You mentioned you sang in Irish. Even if someone did say something obnoxious, it could've been that they weren't used to the type of music you were singing. They may just be used to pop music.

From my recollection, sometimes teenage girls can be pretty evil to each other. Back in my teenage years, I was one of the outcasts, which I think was a bit easier than being one of the in group. They were constantly turning on each other. They'd pretend to be friendly, but say & do mean things to undermine each other. I only had a few friends, but we didn't turn on each other, we stuck together.



By Anonymous on Thursday, October 8, 1998 - 01:05 pm:

Well... first i did not sing in irish, i spoke and nobody actually said you were stupid well not to me but sometimes my psycic streak kicks in...especially when i dont want it to.I like you was and am still outcast from most people in my year and i have 2 really goo...absolutely gorgeous ..friends who always seem to have more time for eachother, its almost as though at some occasions its handier to forget about me.Such as...well "liz" works(16) and "claire" is too young but this weekend is a perfect exampl...here goes, liz wants to go to the cinema and claire could'nt go...i was not asked..so liz turns round and says "sure i'll ,pay for you" as i stand beside them saying oooh an invitation would be lovely.And i never got one.My pal claire is really nice and i really like her but soetimes i feel like im second best..she only wants me around when liz is working. I ts really annoying!!!
And then when i get mad and dont say my reason(its usually odvious) They say something that will piss me off more ie. Last week i was with my pal lana and we had to do a table quiz and theysay"well we are stuck,yer with us we're stuck with ye" I just said "thats charming"and then when we make back its "youre such a good friend ,,what'd i do without you?".
No matter..i dont complain..usually .. im used to being a loner,but i just want people to take more notice, i do take everything to heart they know that.What can i do? I've told them how i feel and it all changhes till the following day, they do have good points..honestly!!


By Endora on Thursday, October 8, 1998 - 10:42 pm:

Their behavior doesn't sound very friendly. If you're getting vibes like that, no wonder you think your performance was bad.

I think you'd be better off putting your energy into finding friends who would be more supportive. So what if you end up in a less popular group? It's better to be w/a small group of real friends than a large group of fake ones.

Another Endora teen flashback (if you can stand anymore :-) Back in intermediate school (ages 11-14), 2 other girls in my class & I couldn't afford designer jeans (this was at the height of Jordache, Gloria Vanderbilt, Calvin Klein etc.)We also didn't conform in various other ways, so we were outcasts. The other girls would have parties where they'd form their invite list by listing the whole class and crossing our names out, & then they'd make sure we knew about it.

We didn't have a problem w/the guys, most of them were always nice to us & they invited us to a post-graduation dance party at a Chinese restaurant. The girls spread a rumor that the party had been cancelled. We made plans for the 3 of us to go out instead. We found out the girls were lying before the dance, but we figured we'd rather hang out w/each other than deal w/the catty girls.

Anyway, things got a bit better in high school (ages 14-18), MUCH, MUCH BETTER in college (ages 18-22, usually) & have only continued to get better. I have a wide circle of friends (yes, in real life, despite all the time I spend on the internet :-) More importantly, they are good, loyal friends. Sure I cried at some of the earlier rejection, but you know what, it taught me well about what qualities to look for in friends.


By Orio on Friday, October 9, 1998 - 06:25 pm:

Well since i last posted i was invited to the pics and claire said she'd pay forme to go to the disco as im broke.Tonight i was talking to liz and we've made plans for the weekend ... i suppose i may have over_ reacted before, BUT i am sorry if i did .. i'm trying to come to everyone correct and usually i stumble a lot also i've been told that in a group of three friend who have always been there for me at least one person will be left out it just seemed to be me but lately i've began to realise that i'm just the glue that kinda keeps us toghether as ..well if it were not for me claire would still never speak from shyness and liz woud have had a mental break down long ago.. im the one they come to when there happy ..sad ..annoyed or just need a chat.I am really the person who helps thsm out in a time of crisis and they do the same for me ..its the "friend " i got rid of that i'm better off without.... Orio.


By Endora on Tuesday, October 13, 1998 - 11:11 pm:

I'm glad things are looking better :-) As long as you're all there for each other, it seems like true friendship.

When you signed your name to this one, I remembered some of your earlier posts. I know you mentioned you had a hard time w/your ex-step-mother among other things. I don't know the details of your situation, but often if people have to deal w/an adult who is constantly critical of them, while they are growing up, it can really rattle the old self-confidence.


By STAR on Wednesday, October 14, 1998 - 11:50 am:

Hi Everyone ,
I am Star and I just found this site(NRRD GRRL!)and I think it is pretty cool.
talk to you all later


By Orio on Wednesday, October 14, 1998 - 04:21 pm:

Endora, judging by your post you seem 2 understand a bit more since you Know a bit about me.I gotta say when depression hits me ...oh god does everyone know!!!Well you'll be glad to know that i've realised all the very good things about my pals that i forgot to mention.Such as they've been there all the time and still are..believe it or not.So i'm now back to myself..lets talk about other stuff..Where do you live?What music do you like stuff like that,you know all about me so lets get to know YOU better..E- mail me if ya want..
Its: cward @iol.ie
I have dropped an "i" in my name it was oirio now its orio.see the differance??? c ya orio


By Noodles on Thursday, October 15, 1998 - 03:18 pm:

Hello,
Has this turned into a one to one,or what?I think you've kinda strayed from the point -
but never mind.I wanted to share my own expeirences with you Orio.Last year I had a really hard time at school myself,there were these girls who were best friends with each other and although they were nice to me I got left out more and more.It wasn't like we had a big row or anything but we drifted furthur and furthur apart.Eventually I got up the courage to talk to this other girl who was by herself.(I'm kinda shy)It was worth it as we are now really good friends. I still talk to the other girls but I don't rely on them as my only friends.I think maybe you should do the same.It would balance it up into a foursome.
I hope you feel happier soon


By Oirio on Sunday, October 18, 1998 - 04:48 pm:

NOODLES...oh what a funky name .Anyway i wont re-balance thfriend ship with the lying manipulative selfish bitch who drives me kkkerazy.Sorry u said we'd drifted from tha point how so???Well it'll be just the 3 of us again anyway, i never apolagise when i did nowt wrong!!thanx anyway


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