Today I hate everyone. i hate one of my best friends for not seeing my views on environmental issues, (which I feel very strongly about). i hate my teachers for giving tests. I hate twelve year old girls who giggle about celeb crushes, (I'm a Girl Guide Leader so I had a meeting tonight where the girls would not shut-up). i hate a former best friend for being so arrogant and thinking that the world revolves around her and for her over blown self-confidence which I could never come close to reaching. i hate another friend for always being there for me when i need him most yet standing me up when i just want to hang out with him. i hate my family for being so boring. i hate humanity for being so ignorant, stupid, and close-minded. I hate people who create personal hells for them selves to live in. i hate my ex-boyfriends who are both still so smart, sexy, and talented, yet such losers. I hate people who are extrmely happy - or rather I envy them. i hate how i feel i have to be skinny - mmmmmm ice cream....
Keely,
Hiya
Hey Mexico sounds good to me!
Wow. Wow. Wow.
Heck, why go to Mexico? Let's all go cpm out in Yellowstone National Park? Or the Lesbo Islands? Thee really is a place called that. it's a civilazation of just females. When ever a male stumbles onto their soil, they tye him, make him get all the women old enough pregnent, and then kill him. That's how they keep their system going. Sometimes they'll keep one of the male babies just in case there aren't any unlucky travelors.
i like the idea of Yellowstone!!... (it's a lot closer to me than mexico)....
I hate my mate at the present- You know who you are!!! Little bastard prefers to go out with his friends than with me. One of my spacey girlfriends is degrading herself for a sleazeball again, and I feel like venting at her for being stupid. I feel like eating two cartons of ice cream and watching talk shows until my mind melts completely
to keely:
CAN I GO TO MEXICO TOO? I have my own car, we can all pile into there and just GO!! Sipping margarita's by the beach and wearing no shoes!!
Another day...
keely: i feel for you girl. i can relate to a lot of what yyou just mentioned. i reckon though, you just want to be angered for a bit. sometimes i git like that too. you know, ya just want to be frustrted and upset. it's also irratating whin foks try to help you see the "bright side". tht always irks me to no salvation. hope you enjoy yourself, however you feel. tip: don't make a bug scene in front of the guy you not over. you just feel dumb latar. ttrust me, i know it.
AAAAHHHHHH!!!!!!! Why do girls have to have periods!!! Can't the lads suffer for once!!!
*sniff*... it's saturday night... here I am at nrrdgrrl... it's saturday *night*. understand what i'm trying to say?
i am in the same situation. Most of my friends are only *at school* friends, and i never do any thing with them on weekends. But then they rarely do anything together..... It's frustrating. All my friends are a year older so they can go out to bars on weekends and i have been told by a friend that i don't *look* old enough to get into a bar. (Even though i think i look older than a lot of my friends.)
I just had the absolute worst day.....
to:everyone
I love ice cream.
I guess a least I can love food, and my sister and being able to write bad poetry and envying this amazing poet who lets me read his poems at lunch time. I also love trees. i have a passion for trees. But humanity will destroy that.
i need to go on a adventure. anyone want to go on a road trip?
By MelanieL on Monday, March 30, 1998 - 11:09 pm:
A road trip sounds like fun. I know exactly how you feel. And ice cream? I got to the fridge tonight in hopes of a "Edy's Girl Scout Cookie Limited Edition Thin Mint" ice cream cone, and found the whole thing gone. I just bought it yesterday. I didn't get ANY!
Melanie
(How about Mexico?)
By Pamelala on Tuesday, March 31, 1998 - 09:05 am:
Hmmm...Mexico...can I go? I know how you both feel. Yesterday was horrible. It's funny, the people that I call my friends suddenly feel like strangers to me. I have absolutely nothing in common with any of them, and I'm beginning to wonder if I ever did. All they seem to care about is 1. the upcoming prom (gag) and 2. Titanic. Both of which I really don't care about.
I dislike people who are mean to other people, people who think it's funny to scare people out of their sleep by driving their car around in your lawn...AHHHH!!! I love people, it's just some days everyone except me drives me crazy.
I feel better now :)
Pamela
By Keely on Tuesday, March 31, 1998 - 03:56 pm:
Today was not a whole lot better than yesterday. Today at lunch i realized just how superficial my friends are. They are obsessed with materialism, and quess what else? Prom. After hearing them talk about what they want prom to be like i'm not sure it's for me.
But my afternoon was a little better. Myself and a few accquintance/friend types went to the park and i walked through the water and through the forest in my bare feet. They all think i'm nuts now but it felt so good to be wearing long, flowy clothing and have it blowing in the breeze and feel the earth beneath my feet. And besides this afternoon I really didn't care about what anyone thought about me - because felt like myself.
But i might feel more like myself in Mexico!
>:-}
Keely
By Que_ on Wednesday, April 1, 1998 - 10:25 pm:
I have had those days. It's so hard to wanna stay in a small town when the whole world is waiting for you, ya know? And superficiality....honey, you haven't even *seen* it until you've been to my school!!! Sports are sooooo over-emphasized it makes me sick....and then academics are like a cult (even though that was bad english I think you get the drift). The smart preps stick in a group, and if you're smart enough (well, I mean good grades and maybe a snooty personality), you're *accepted* into their little circle.
Sometimes you have your superhuman teenager, who is the most amazing athlete, and at the same time gets 34's or higher on the ACT's or gets straightA's or has some other amazing academic achievement. I'm sure you all know some of those kind of people.
What I mean, I guess, is that we have the jocks, and the smart people.
The thing is, in my little world, if you don't fit into one of those extreme categories, you spend your entire high school existence struggling to fit into one of them. It just sucks, and I hope it's different out there in the real world, like maybe in Mexico? Let's form a freedom/feminism/witty people's colony, shall we? We can live in adobe huts and drink from clay pots.
Fun. No prom in Mexico. Fun.
Que
By Quinn Duechess on Sunday, April 5, 1998 - 11:55 am:
Acutually, it might get dull without any dumb butts around to add amusement to life.
Mexico sounds good.
Que, you're right. How about all the girls that don't fit an extreme catagory, or were just abandonded by their "friends", let's all go start a civilazation, and evlove!
To get back to the original topic, I'm mad atthe world too. These people tht I thought were so close and specail to me, they all have just forsaken me in the worst way. Worst for them, I mean. They haven't really hurt me all that much, but that's just becasue they're so f**king petty. I hate it when your "best friends" turn out to be your very own Vlad the Impaler.
By Keely on Sunday, April 5, 1998 - 01:09 pm:
besides mexico is so crowded - - i need lots of space....
Que and quinn - your ideas on an evolutionized female society are really cool - maybe not feasible, but really cool
>:-}
Keely
By Spunkie on Sunday, April 5, 1998 - 05:17 pm:
By Quinn Duesches on Sunday, April 5, 1998 - 05:18 pm:
it doesn't matter if our hopes are not feasible at all, were hoping, and on line, and smart, so that's all that matters at this time. one day, i will create the virus that attacks the humn Y chromosome, and then when we learn to clone, all of our troubles will be over....at least with guys. anyone know how to start building a virus?
By Shampoo on Wednesday, April 22, 1998 - 12:54 am:
Oh, and then we can build our own Amazon culture and live in clay pots and eat out of adobe huts!! Or was it the other way around... whatever!!
And then we'll hire a scientist to do away with that pesky Y chromosome!! Let's do it!! LET'S DO IT ALL!!
By Keely on Monday, May 4, 1998 - 10:04 pm:
it seems like the stress all piles up and I want to explode!!
starting from this morning...in drama---- the source of all joy and happiness and stress.... I have to direct two very difficult scenes in a play I wrote. Both scnes involved a lot of people. A lot of people who did not knnow their lines and did not want to be in rehaersal. The main thing is, I wrote the play and the lyrics of a song to go with it... and the teacher loved it. it's about a shipwreck off the coast of lake ontario in 1804 and is a bit of a local fetish. The newspapers jumped on it.... so now I have this medicore play which is getting all this attention when everyone else in the class wrote plays just as good or better......
i guess I am rambling.... but i need to get it off my chest...
then i went to another drama thing and had so much fun and was stress free!! Until....
...My Pathfinder meeting tonight (pathfinders is a branch of girl guides and i am a leader). After the meeting I found out that half the girls are not enjoying pathfinders because they don;t like myself and another leader..... gee taht helped my self-esteem....
So now i am sitting here trying to vent all my anger and frustration about everything....... oh ya and one more thing....... a year ago today i broke up with my now ex-boyfriend...the guy i still haven;t gotten over and is the lead role in my play......
AHHHHH!!!!
i just needed to vent....
By Thats me in the Corner on Tuesday, May 5, 1998 - 06:26 pm:
question: what do you'll here on this server think about cheerleadin? i'm sonsidering trying out for my school's sqaud.
thank you much
By Page 3 bird on Wednesday, May 6, 1998 - 01:29 pm:
I'm in a stress 'cos i came on in school & then had to treck around my school trying to find someone with a pad......now i feel like shit 'cos my 'ickle tummy hurts!!! 'ickle.....ahem!! more like the size of an elephants arse!!
oooohhhh....I'll come with you all wherever you want to go!!! ANYWHERE...just get me out of here!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
oh well....at least i get alot of attention out of lads but makes me wanna scream too 'cos i know that all they want is my tits!!!! what about my personallity or sence of humoUr....does no-one care!!!!!!!
AAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
By Shampoo on Sunday, May 10, 1998 - 12:36 am:
*sniff sniff*
yes there is a point to this. i'm concerned over my friends and my social status. i have friends at school and everything, but we never do stuff outside of school. it's because *in* school we're just acquaintences who talk during class and everything. also, there are so many people who belong to cliques in my school, and you know how it is qith cliques, they do everything together, etc etc. my problem is that i don't belong to one, but i'm friendly with the people in them. so what do i do? how do i move to the next level to be *part of the group*?
i have this friend who goes to a different school then me (i went there last year), and she's got this awesome group of friends, both guys and girls, and they always do stuff together and she's always getting phone calls. sometimes i'll come along and have a lot of fun, cuz her friends like me, but since i don't go to their school and everything i'm not part of the *group*, and so they're not *my* friends, they're *her* friends. and i'm getting the feeling that my friend is kind of annoyed with me, or thinks that i'm a geek or something because i don't hang out with other people from my own school on the weekends, but that's because my friends who i talk to and stuff at school dont *do* stuff either!! and my school is just so cliquey and there are so many different types of people - skaters, stoners, popular people, people who dress different (green hair etc), and i could go on. i don't fit in any catagory, but i'm friends with people from all those groups. some are quiet, some are loud, one likes adopting people as her siblings and another is a hippie. one is suicidal, 2 like to get stoned on the weekends and another is never allowed to do anything on the weekends, and i could go on. and so i've got friends who are really great and everything, but i still end up feeling like a loser tonight (saturday night), because we're only friends in school.
so what do i do? oh, and most of my friends are female, i have a few male friends, for some reason i just find it so hard to talk to guys in a friendly way (you know, not flirting with them or anything).
i find being a teenager and actually having to worry about social status and who your friends are and who you hang out with on the weekends is so stressful!! please say that this gets better!! i hope in the future that image doesn't matter as much, and you can sit at home on a saturday night and not worry about what other people think about you. and then now of course i'm feeling so shallow for talking about stupid unimportant stuff like this when other peoples problems are so much more serious!! i'm really sorry if i've offended anyone by my petty teenage babble, i just need to vent, too.
anyone?
By Keely on Sunday, May 10, 1998 - 10:49 am:
All the girls in my group of friends are constantly back-stabbing each other. I guess that because i don;t take sides that could be why i am not part of the group.
I used to hang with a group of friends that i did stuff with on the weekends, but we all grew apart... I miss it though... I miss laughing at stupid stuff... and throwing gummie bears at movie screens... I miss long walks with friends at midnight... i miss a lot...
I wish i could tell you that it gets better.... and i guess in a way it does... you just learn to enjoy your own company more... but you still want to go out and have friends you can confide in... that's what i miss the most... i don;t have any friends i can really confide in.
I can;t wait to work away from home this summer... i need to meet some new people!!!
By Keely on Thursday, May 14, 1998 - 05:41 pm:
first off all it was all this little stuff.. like getting mad at a teacher and pissed off at friends.. then i found out that all extra-ciricular activities at school are mostly likely gone next year..... this means that a lot of drama and music stuff will not occur and sports, excpet for gym class with cease to exist...
Then I got home... thinking stuff could not get anyworse.... and i get an e-mail from the guy i was going to be going to prom with. He can;t go... which right now has me really pissed of because i donlt want to go now but feel i have to since i got the tickets and my mom is making a dress....
it's just really horrible....
:(
By Anonymous on Sunday, May 24, 1998 - 11:19 am:
Hey, be happy!
From moi
By Anonymous on Sunday, May 24, 1998 - 11:20 am: