so I made this conversation place ,cause although all the other topics are great i just can't seem to find one to suit me...if u get me.So I dunno what i want this to be aboout basically whatever I guess.If somone needs to say what ever is on their mind say it here.What I wanna say is .......how come no-one ever seems to understand me?I'm like this completely different person to everyonr I know,but I don't wanna change ,why should I have to?Anyway that is whats bugging me.Anyone feel the same way?So please say whatever u want here,esp. if you have just found this website cause I know it seems like evryone is pals with each other and no-one will talk to you or reply to your messages,well I will cause I'm new around here to !
I can totally relate. I have interests like no one else i know and enjoy totalling different things than most of my peers. I feel left out a lot and think that it would be easier just to change and be a girl that gets guys with her flirtatous smile who laughs at everything... but then i would be someone i am not. this is my life. i can not betray myself just because i am different.
i think you people should stop being so depressed with people not understanding you. Like, so what if it would be easier to be someone else, you'd just end up making a total mess of your life and it'd be almost impossible to get out (I know this!!!!) I know it's awful if you feel left out but don't worry you *will* meet people who can understand you. I went through an awful year last year coz i didn't know anyone who was like me (y'know, everyone seems so *shallow*, right? it's like all they have to think about is stuff like clothes and guys. not that i don't think about that stuff *ever*, but it's not as if that's my entire life)
I respect people for being different. Most of my friends are *different* people who aren't accepted into the *in* crowd (i would have to say that I'm in-between), and these are the friendships I treasure the most because each person has a different outlook on life and are all interesting and fun in their own way. Sure, maybe I don't *understand* them, but if I did understand them then I wouldn't have the need to *try*, you know what i mean? If I understood them then I wouldn't spend all class debating over certain issues or exchanging ideas. Don't try to conform to what's *socially accepted* to feel like you belong. You don't need to do that! Everyone is different and that's what makes us all interesting. Like someone said, you'll meet people like you eventually, which is fine, but don't limit your friends to people who are like you. The greatest friendships are with people who are different then you, so you can experience all kinds of beliefs and cultures and stuff, while being yourself.
Hey thank for your messages!!
I have just visited this site for the first time and I think it's great! Mia - I totally agree with you! I feel so different to everyone else I know but they all seem to be on the same wavelength. Maybe all the Nrrdgrrls are mad. Whatever, I reckon we should be ourselves no matter what.
hi!!!! i just wanted to say mia, i understand completely. i'm into punk rock and alternative, and my friends always make these little comments about how i dress and act, etc. anyway, i guess i spend my life looking for someone who understands, and it sounds like you do too. when i say understand, i mean they accept me for who i am, not that they have to be exactly like me. i think you know what i mean.
Anonymous,
I'd rather die than become one of those obnoxious, shallow, popular people at my school....and people are always like, "Well, don't do THAT....you won't be popular!!" "don't you wanna be popular? you'll never get popular hanging out with her..." What the fuck makes them think I'd wanna be like them??
hey mia here !guess where I am ata science centre in Canada -weird ,eh?(my bit of canadian!!)so I hope everyone is well ,i'm very happy at the moment -forgetting all my problems and having a great time with my cousins-its actually weird how great family can be sometimes.Anyway thanks to everyone who sent a message.Punk girl -you seem totally cool keep writing!!Anybody got any cool quotes???Better go -people are looking at me funny ansd i'm laughing right back at them cause I don't care!!!!I want a boyfriend -even though i know its not the answer!!!Talk soon
mia again i'm back from holidays and it sucks all i can think about is school and if I will be treated like shit again this year .I know i'm feeling sorry for myself -aarrrrrggggghhhhhhhhh!!!!It is just so hard to go in smiling when i'm crying inside,get me?You know it is so hard to trust anyone,I am now always wary of peoples intentions like if they are just talking to me to have a laugh about it later or what....I know i have friends but i don't know how far i should let myself trust them as the are new friendships and i don't want to go through last year all over again ...does that shound selfish??Maybe...ALL advice welcome!
Mia, what grade are you going into?
Quotes on anything welcome!.
How do you close sites cause no-one is writing in this one and it is a waste of space-like me.
"The future is an enormous question mark, and I don't know what lies ahead.
Yeah i agree with u Punkgrrl.I wouldn't want to be popular.Cause the popular people in our school are bitches/sluts,well at least most them are.They think they are all that and most do drink/smoke/drugs.They think they are so cool.Nobody likes them anymore.There are a couple of cool popular people,but they are friends with the bitchy popular people,so that sucks too.Whats your all opionons on popular people?
mia, you might find peoples life mottos interesting. mine are,
I hate the "popular people" cause of what they do who they are what they stand for- everything but I hate myself mmmmmore cause I am so jelous of them and I suck up to them like a stoopid puppy -arrgghhhh I don't know why I do it....like I'm friends with them but I don't want to be but its like I have this need to be-its messing me up.The stoopid thing is we have totally nothing in common-they smoke sniff glue etc,I don't, they are mean to everyone,I trry to be nice to everyone,its everything, we listen to different music wear different clothes.Iwant to break away from them but I'm soo scared my schhool is so small everyone already has thier groups and don't like other people intruding. Advise please?????
hey Mia here!!thanks for those cool mottos .I think I've come to the conclusion that I shouldn't take myself so seriously-and to stop thinking so much,just let what happens happen.What do ya think?
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MIA!!!
Anonymous,do u consider them your real friends?I think that u shouldn't just be friends with somebody for what they can do for but more just somebody that u feel like u can to talk to about anything.A friend is someone who u feel comfortable talking to and they listen to u back,someone who doesn't try to control u,just likes u the way u are and doesn't try to change u,who u can have fun with,and someone u can trust.
yeah meg, dont you hate it when friends are going out somewhere and they leave you out?that is not friendship. so i walked away from the people that did that and found better friends. it works. i am so excited about going to college but i worry that we will all drift apart. i am taking totally different subjects to the people i know.
I know Sanda,that pisses off alot.Alot recently i have this friend,and we are really good friends and have been friends since like 4th grade.And she is rich and has all these parties.But for some reason she like rarely invites me to them,even though i'm such great friends with her,and all of her other friends she invites.And i have moved and changed so friends so many times and i don't know i'm getting sick of it.Its like i OK i lived in this city and became friends with so many people especially the last year i lived there but then we had to move.And then once i moved to this new place i became friends with this group of people.I was happy but then they got pissed at me and i became friends with a whole new group of people.I became friends with the people i got in the fight with again but then my new friends got pissed off cause i was hanging out with people they thought were losers.Well i forgot about those so called friends who just thought my other friends were losers,even though they weren't.They just thought anyone but themselves sucks.That summer i didn't stay in contact with those old friends much and got whole new friends again.But by the next year all those people had either moved or turned into freaks(u know satan worshipers!)Then more this year and last year i became friends with my originals friends that i became friends with when i moved.I'm happy about that cause i don't think they are going to become devil worshipers or anything and just forget about me.So its cool,but i don't know for the most part,i change most of friends almost every year or so.Its usually not my fault but it just happens cause of people moving/changing.About that one friend and all those other people,i have basically known them all like since i moved her and been friends with them,so i don't why she doesn't invite me.I still keep in contact with the people that have moved or my friends that lived in my old city.I haven't had a best friend since like 6th grade.I'm OK about it,i still have some great friends,but some of them aren't really that great and i'm not sure why i'm even friends with them.I guess just cause u know there part of that group of people that i am always around anyway.
Mia,
there are four of us in the main group that i am friends with and i would say that they are my closest friends. i have a close mate who is a boy, he really puts those stupid friendship problems into perspective! its a different kind of friendship with him, simplier, but we irritate each other when we are annoyed. there are other people i am friends with but i don't trust them as much as the others.
I'd just like to say that boys are lovely. Especially Graeme Smith! He is an absolute babe!
Hello every-one!! This is my first time visiting this site and I just want to say that it is cool!!
hi,
hey everyone!
Sandi:yeah actually me to,i have four really good friends that i can trust with my secrets and stuff.All of them are girls,not guys.There are some guys i talk to alot,one in particular,i can talk to about stuff that is usually uncomfortable talking to about other guys,u know "girl stuff."
If you ask me: Blame the hormones for the double personality we all seem to have. Although on some days that excuse pisses me off. Placebo are cool, i like most kinds of music actually, i sort of change my mind from one day to the next. i like brit stuff but not too keen on the whole 'bewitched' and 'steps' stuff. it sucks. I think my hall of fame top 3 would have to be:
They remembered!!!!(my b-day) I feel sooooo bitchy now for thinking that they could have forgotten ,not everyone remembered but two of my good friends evn got me pressies!!! I got this huuuuuuuge mug with tweetie bird on it and a forever friends teddie-its great. Now I feel bad for thinking so lowly of some of my friends- I am a bitch, but I guess I was just depressed.
I don't think hormones are good thing!Cause when guys have them all that they want are the most prettiest,big chested girls,with the biggest ass.
i know its not nice but i wouldnt trust all your friends. it isnt that you think they might blurt it out on purpose its just that these things happen.
I hate it though some of my friends are like,"Why won't u tell me anything?I'm your friend and u should be able to trust me."Well,really some people i can't trust or sometimes they aren't the people that u can open up to.Actually,my real good friends,the ones i talk to everyday,and do stuff with after school,those actually are the people that i have hard time opening up to.I mean we talk about alot of things,but it doesn't get personal.Some of them i know could keep a secret,its just i can't.One of my friends,Nicky,even though i'm not that good of a friend to her as i am to alot of other friends,i can open up to her alot more.Like i never see her in school barely,except for French,and we have conversations and stuff,but its not like it use to be.Like the years before,she was my closet friend,but not anyone more.We kind of became that way,when in 6th grade,after the big fight we had in 5th grade,we started talking to each other in 6th grade.Then we started writing letters to each other every day,cause we both loved writing.We became friends and slowly started opening up to each other about everything.We did stuff over the weekend together,and would never miss a day of writing.Then in the middle of 7th grade the writing stopped,cause we didn't have time,but still talked alot together,stuff we talk in our letters,in study hall instead.Then in 8th grade,we were in the same homeroom,and talked to each other nonstop.But then over the summer,we didn't really talk,so when school started,it wasn't the same.But i got my computer fixed,and we now started E-mailing each other.So now this year,i talk a little with her,but its not the same.But whenever,we like talk on IM(Instant Messanger AOL) everything was like it use to be.We hadn't talked to each other for over week,but then i started talking to her on IM,and it was just like it use to be.I never have opened up to someone like i opened up to her.Did u get what i'm saying?No matter how good of friend a person is,there are only certain people no matter what they are like,u can open up to.
yeah keep writing! have you ever thought about asking this really nice guy out? (i would!!) you can just tell there is a chemistry between people, its just there, no explination
I have always loved writing!I love writing letters to people,writing on message boards(like this one),and love writing stories.I have four people that i write to not where i live,two of them were my old best friends from old city,another was another best friend from my old city before my other two best friends but she moved so now she lives closer to where i live currently.And then the other one is a pen pal from New York.I E-mail three people who are some of my friends that go to my school.Yeah,sometimes when i E-mail my friends,they get so long,up to like 6 pages!And then the message boards i write in are NrrdGrrl/Smartgirl/razzberry/yahoo.
I guess your test is over now,but in case it isn't.treading is basically like walking in water.
Sophies wotld is COOL. he has another book out called conversation's with an angle and that is cool. I do philosophy in school so I'm in to all that.
i understand mia, there is this p.e teacher at our school and whatever happens you can bet i get the blame for it. she has a go at me in front of the class and when i tell her she is wrong she gets all bitchy. nasty person.
Sophies world is really about philosophy, there is this girl who gets these anonomus letters explain all about philosophy from the first philosophers all the way through to modern day. it does get a bit crazy at the end but it is funny.It's good if you are interested in that type of thing and it explains evrything in a really simple way.You have to stick with though cause it is good.
wish i had more dresses......i like them and everything but i never really get a chance to wear them. got a party at new year so that is an excuse.
Okay,i didn't take that swimming test on Friday.Instead i walked over to the middle school with two of my friends to visit the teachers and get some art projects we never got back.It was so sad,going back there,it brought back so many memories.I went through so much in that school good and bad....it was hard to go back there.I almost started crying.We actually didn't see many teachers...cause most were not in their rooms.But i'm going to take the swimming test tommorw.I don't want to cause i was actually planning stay after with this other person but she already took the test on Friday and everyone else did....so there's nobody to talk to for 20 minutes.I have no idea what i am doing...the thing is,is that i am treading in 5 feet of water and i am like 5'6 so my feet would already touching the ground.I'll try to do that Noodles,but i don't know if it will work.What do u do with your hands?
Hey everyone-Mia here!!
Mia,i'll do your quiz.
:0)
By Keely on Friday, June 5, 1998 - 09:17 pm:
:)
By Ifa on Sunday, June 7, 1998 - 11:31 am:
okay sorry if this was impossible to understand!!
ífa
By Shampoo on Sunday, June 7, 1998 - 11:03 pm:
By Mia on Friday, June 12, 1998 - 04:01 pm:
uummm....Shampoo...good points but that is not what I really mean you know like i love hanging round with different and i love debating in class etc(i got banned for speaking in social cause i argue so much!!)the thing is...well I don't really know...it's like I live in Ireland and i dunno when i first started high school i got on great with everyone -i still do and i thought finnally i can be me without feeling bad about being different but like gradually i decided to show little bits of me-like prefering rock and indie while everyone else liked dance and chart stuff like that and i started to find people my bet friends (no one else)would look at me different and talk about me and say mean things when i had done nothing wrong.Really what i am trying to say is i felt betrayed by the people who should have excepted me most you know?Oe girl who was like my best friend goes round telling people she hates me but then acting nice to me ,that is not even whats bad about it cause we totally think the same and she used to accept me for me cause she is different to but then she got caught up in drink ansd lads and I don't know (even want to causer of the way she has treated me cold one day nice the next) how to pull her back.I want like a special person who is different from me but eccepts me cause i'm different.Its not that i'm afraid of people who different ..............i'm afraid of me being different.....I'm sorry bout this I need to just write down how i feel cause it is messing with my head ,i need to get it clear in my head so any more goood advice would be greatly appricated-thanks!!
If anyone has any cool quotes send them to me I love quotes!!here is one of my favorites-
"won't you come into my garden i want my roses to see you"Anon
its great eh?like normally people say come to my garden i you it see my roses they are beautiful but...................
By Anonymous on Sunday, July 12, 1998 - 02:06 pm:
P.S Am I the only one who DOESN'T want to be popular?
P.P.S Yeah, Mia, how come everyone does seem to know each other around here? Let me in!
By Punkgrrl on Thursday, July 16, 1998 - 01:06 pm:
anyway, you said you wanted advice, so i'll give you my opinion. just keep being yourself. i know, it's hard!!! it really is, but i think in the end you will be happy that you didn't conform to everyone else's idea of what they think you should be. well, that is my humble advice, and whatever you do, i hope it works out for you.
Punkgrrl
By Punkgrrl on Thursday, July 16, 1998 - 01:08 pm:
you're not the only one who doesn't want to be popular. i don't!!!!!!
By Miss Misery on Sunday, July 19, 1998 - 08:48 pm:
By Mia on Thursday, July 30, 1998 - 03:22 pm:
By Mia on Wednesday, August 19, 1998 - 12:45 pm:
Sorry if I offeneded anyone ,cause no-one seems to be writing I guess I'm just a loser!All those who have beeen here awhile sorry if I made it sound like you weren't welcome
It was just me screwing up again!
Don't the Goo-Goo Dolls rock?I am so sick of leonardo dicaprio.Please keep writing!!!
By Wominist on Thursday, August 20, 1998 - 08:11 pm:
As for the quote thing, pick something you want a quote on.
By Mia on Saturday, August 22, 1998 - 07:40 am:
I don't do school like that but I guess you could say grade 10 or something,i'm not really sure ,why did you want to know?
By MIA on Wednesday, October 7, 1998 - 04:58 pm:
By Gilmoure on Wednesday, October 7, 1998 - 09:26 pm:
I only know that if it moves, I'm shooting it."
-Daria
By MeG on Thursday, October 8, 1998 - 03:09 pm:
*MeG*
Why are people considered popular if they are not liked by half of their grade?I just don't get that.
By Sandi on Tuesday, October 27, 1998 - 04:14 pm:
1. a perfect person, for that reason, is imperfect
2. exams suck
3. you never understand something unless its happened to you
4. life is like a bath, the longer you stay in it the wrinklier you get (that's garfield by the way)
5. the truth hurts more than anything else
By Anonymous on Wednesday, October 28, 1998 - 09:56 am:
By Mia on Wednesday, October 28, 1998 - 10:04 am:
Does anyone have the same problem as me- that cause you're "everyones friend" you really have no friends???
Its my birthday today and no-one from my school has phoned me to say happy birthday(half-term) I know that sounds totally selfish but that has happened for the last four years not even my so-called "friends" rang me.I have never failed to wish them a happy birthday i even got them a pressie ......I mean I'm not saying cause i got them something they should do the same for me but even for them to remember would be nice.Do you think soomething is wrong with me.This has been a horrible birthday,I wish I could run away............
By Sandi on Wednesday, October 28, 1998 - 02:28 pm:
are you sure these people are your friends? maybe they will give you cards etc when you get back to school or something. as a rule, girls think too much. we seem to analyse every single word someone has said and worry about it when the person who said it wasn't thinking at the time. Only think a lot when its important, if you stop wishing or hoping for things they will usually happen. Life rarely goes as you plan it.
By MeG on Wednesday, October 28, 1998 - 04:54 pm:
If they aren't any of this,they aren't your true friends.Don't worry,if u are nice,people will want to be your friends.Just be yourself,and these people u your talking about sounds like people u shouldn't be around,i'm sure some people in your school that are more like u,and would be willing to be friends with u.Just give it a try.I kind of get what your saying Mia.Well for me i mean have pretty many friends and everything and lots people that i talk to in school.But none of them i'm that great of friends with.I feel kind of alone sometimes,cause they all have best friends that do all this together,and they like rarely include me in their stuff.It sucks,i use to be really good friends with people,but now were in high school and things have changed.People change,and sometimes friends just drift apart,and u can't help it.I don't know,everything is changing and its so hard to deal with.Yea,for my birthday,most people didn't remember it.One of friends did,and sent me a birthday card.It was pretty unexpected,cause i hadn't talk to her during like the whole summer.And the people that i had talked to that summer,didn't even remember my birthday.I don't take it to seriously,i try not to overreact with small things.HAPPY BIRTHDAY MIA!Yea,Sandi is right maybe your friends are planning something,and are going to give u stuff later.Cause sometimes with my friends i sometimes don't give my friends cards/gifts till like a week after their birthday,not cause i forgot just cause i felt like,no special reason!
*MeG*
By Sandi on Thursday, October 29, 1998 - 01:29 pm:
By MeG on Thursday, October 29, 1998 - 09:23 pm:
*MeG*
By Endora on Thursday, October 29, 1998 - 10:43 pm:
A belated Happy Birthday!!! :-)
My birthday used to fall during school breaks and sometimes people wouldn't do anything until school started again. It's not that they didn't care, it's just that we weren't together in school and it would take them awhile to organize the card signing, etc.
It could also be that you're "the social director" of the group (meaning you coordinate most of the plans, etc.) The downside of being the social director is that who's there to make the plans for the social director's birthday? Anyway, I hope you got to do something fun to celebrate :-)
By Sandi on Saturday, October 31, 1998 - 01:03 pm:
i know a few people who are into witch craft but no one into satan worshipping! that sounds a little (ok, very) weird.
By Little Miss Flirt on Sunday, November 1, 1998 - 06:10 am:
This message isn't to prove a point just to show everybody that I love Graeme Smith!!! Hahahahaha!!!!
Love ya peeps!!!
BYE!!!
By Little Scottish Lass on Sunday, November 1, 1998 - 06:26 am:
I want to say HI to every-one that visits this site and to every-one that goes to my school which is Hunter High school and it is in Scotland!! But especially HI to Lisa Chester and to Mark Divers. Mark Divers is such a babe!!
PS. Has every-one seen Titanic? I think that it is the best ever and it's so cool I could watch it over and over again!!
PPS. British band 5ive are gorgeous!! Abs is mine so don't even think about it okay?
See ya next time!!
PPPS. This is Lisa Chester here, Little Scottish Lass' best friend!!! She is absolutely totally in love with Mark Divers! Just as I am in love with Graeme Smith!!! I'm Little Miss Flirt and it's my internet connection. If you wanna email me you can get me at lisa.chester@cableinet.co.uk !!!I think Scott from 5ive is the most GORGEOUS!!! We're wearing Glo In The Dark nail polish!! OUr school, Hunter High is in East Kilbride! Anybody from there? If you know Graeme tell him I think he is absolutely gorgeous!!! Tell Michael Adamson that he is also lovely and has a Keeeeeute ass!!!
Does any-one agree that South Park is the best cartoon ever? I think that it is and Kyle is the cutest.
A Gr8 South Park site is on
http://www,comedycentral.com/southpark/
And there is a totally scary think called the Death Clock and it tells you when you're going to die. It's really creepy but if any-one wants to try it the address is:
http://www.deathclock.com
If you want a pant-wetting-time then try it but personally I'm too scared.
BYEEEEE!!!
By Sandi on Sunday, November 1, 1998 - 09:11 am:
yeah i've heard about that death clock thing...scary. do these blokes know how much you like them? do the grrl power thing and ask them out!
south park is cool but five hmmmm, not convinced, sorry! but they are good looking. who is better, abs, mark divers, or leo dicaprio??
By Mia on Sunday, November 1, 1998 - 10:08 am:
Mia here ,just checking in!Does anybody else feel like they aare one person one day and another the next?Like totally happy one day not caring what they think and stuff and toatally caring the next???Anybody get this???
I think placebo's new album rocks!!
By MeG on Sunday, November 1, 1998 - 09:13 pm:
He's so funny about though,he tells me about "guy stuff" too,maybe stuff that is something i didn't want to know!But its cool though,u know that we can talk about that stuff with each other.I have other friends but they aren't people i can trust with things.If i told them something they would go off and tell somebody else.I know the Satan worishining is wierd!I'm not into that kind of stuff,so i'm glad she's not my friend anymore.We just kind of grew apart its not like we had a fight or anything.
Little Scottish Lass:Thats so cool your from Scotland!I've never seen Titanic.Which is probbaly unbelievable to most people.I don't know i didn't want to watch a three hour movie,even though i heard from everybody how good it was.
Yeah,i've watched South Park.Its really funny!Don't watch it much though.I don't want to know when i'm going to die.That's freaky!I wouldn't have the guts to do that!
Mia:Yea,i am so like that Mia sometimes!I don't know its just the mood i am in.U know if i'm in a real crappy mood i'll probbaly care more,and be really paranoid.But if i'm in a good mood then,i will be myself.I think smiling really helps.Its a proven fact that smiling puts u in a better mood.It works for,so i'm having mostly good mood days especially this year.
Hey everyone in here,What kind of music do u listen to????
*MeG*
By Sandi on Monday, November 2, 1998 - 02:02 pm:
oh yeah- ash
old before i die- Robbie williams
don't want to miss a thing- aerosmith
blokes get the some of the same problems as we do but they bottle it up until they smack someone in the face for no reason. yeah, i dont even want to know about some of the stuff blokes that i know do. its just too weird.
By Mia on Monday, November 2, 1998 - 03:29 pm:
I have to trust people more -I trust NO-ONE and I expect them to trust me-god I am starting to think it is all just me and no-one else that has a problem I kinda like that causeI know I can kinda try to fix me,you know?
OHH I'm soo smiley!! Everything is going right. Before half term I went for an interview for the school bank and I got the job as manager!!Can you believe it-ME the one who never gets anything.I thought for sure it was gonna be the girl who gets everything you know the one: editor of the paper straight A's etc,etc.Sorry if I sound like I'm boasting but this is the only place where I feel I can say my inner thoughts and feel someone is actually listening that it is not just me banging around inside my head again!!This is like my on-line diary!!Thanks grrls -your my help.I only just realised how much it helps me coming here -I am very grateful.
I think we should tell the good things that happen to us and the bad ones cause that's what friends are for right??
My fav songs are-
Anna begins-counting crows
Name-goo goo dolls
and...umm.....loads cause I change every few months but they are my all time favs!!!
Love ya-Mia : 0 )
By MeG on Monday, November 2, 1998 - 08:05 pm:
It pisses me off.There are some guys that look beyond the looks though.I can think of a few guys in particular.....they don't pay attention to the outside but the inside.Those are the guys i can talk more comfortably with.And one of the guys i'm talking about,even though i don't like him(for reasons i don't want to get into),i'm still so grateful for him.See last year one of my friends was going through a tough time.She thought she was so ugly and she started hating herself and thought no one would want to go out with her.But this guy,being the good guy he is,went out with her for the person on the inside.Every time,she would say how ugly she was,he would say,"No,your not,your the prettiest girl in the world.Don't listen to what anyone else says."But then she started getting sudicidal and tried to kill herself.He was always there for her,trying to help her get through it.Even though me&him can't get along,i will always be grateful to him,cause without him,my friend might not be alive today.
I like all kind of music.Except country.I CAN'T STAND COUNTRY.Oh except for that one song by LeAnne Reimes.(Is that how u spell her name?)
Yeah,i like rock,pop,rap,oldies,all that stuff.I put my fav songs later.I love that song u mentioned,Sandi,by Aerosmith.
I get what your saying Mia.Okay like with my friends i barely tell them anything,that i need to trust them to keep a secret.I don't know,i'm not sure why i feel like i can't trust them.I'm always afraid that they will go off and tell the whole school.But see they trust me with things,they tell me personal things,and i always keep it a secret.But then some of my friends,can't keep a secret,cause i know one friend in particular.When a friend tells her secret which she is not suppose to tell anyone,she goes off and tells me.But i've never told anyone.I understand why u feel that,Mia,sometimes i feel like i'm not good enough to beable to do certain things.But u really can do anything,if u set your heart to it.
No dream is too crazy.Ok,i have to admit,i'm not a straight A student,i get A's,B's,and an occasionaly C.It's okay,but i'll probbaly could do better.I don't put the effort into though,i'm trying second quarter to do that though,so i can get a good semester grade.Yeah,that is true.I feel like i can say anything i want to,like my diary.I actually use to have one but i don't use it much anymore cause i'm afraid someone is going to see it.But no one can see this on here expect u guys!I love coming here to,especially this section.Yea,i'll come here to tell u both good/bad.I'll fill u in on some stuff that is happening but not tonight,i have to go and do my homework now.
Talk to u all later!Bye!
*MeG*
By Sandi on Tuesday, November 3, 1998 - 11:45 am:
funnily enough, i was talking to my mate helen about looks and personality and we agreed that we wouldnt go out with some of the 'popular', good looking blokes in our year because they were big headed and cruel. it was the nicer, funnier blokess who werent necessarily good looking that we would go out with.
well done with the bank manager job mia! glad things are better for you. this is a diary, say what you want to say!
as for me, i am totally in love (or lust) with this great guy in my year. he seems really nice and funny. quite quiet. i don't know what it is that attracts me to him but when he is close i realise that i am not breathing properly! and my heart is pounding and i am going red (aaarrggghhh!) please tell me that i am not the only idiot with this problem.
By MeG on Tuesday, November 3, 1998 - 08:24 pm:
I agree with u Sandy.The "popular" good looking guys on our grade are basically all jerks.U know they think they are all that and they always put every one else down.They do smoking,drugs,achohol,all that crap.I'm not saying that i hate a person who does drugs,ect.,its just it all adds up,its everything,u know what i'm saying?And they are all the biggest perverts,who want to have sex all the time,with numerous girls.Thats what what most are like,the ones that can get the girls.A couple of the not as goodlooking "popular" guys they aren't sex freaks but they are still jerks for the other reasons.Okay,but there is this one guy.He is so fine,is nice,funny,great personality,good at sports,a musician,and actually respects girls,in otherwords he isn't into rushing into having sex.Its like a girls dream come true!Almost every girl wants to go out with him.I don't though,its not like there is anything wrong with him but i just don't think of him that way.I talk to him cause he is in one of my classes,and he is so easy to talk to.And everything everybody says is so true.But he actually is truly popular but part of that "popular" group.So there is only one person out of the "popular" group which is not a jerk.Yeah,for me i don't like guys for the way they look,they can't be jerks,and have to have a good personality.I know sometimes u are attracted to guys for reasons u don't know,that is undescrible.I don't know,maybe they aren't the best looking person but there is just something that attracts u.When i like a guy,i don't get red,its like impossible for me to get red(my face doesn't change that color),but yeah my heart is pounding.And i'm not paying attention to anything,but him,just give a casually glance,not staring though,that will just scare him.
Oh my gosh,i'm sorry i write so much.Its just when i have something on my mind....i just keep on writing and writing and i can't stop.I guess i'm like that cause i've wrote so many letters to my friends from my old city and pages long E-mails to my friends in my current city.Okay i'll admit....I JUST LOVE WRITING!
Talk later.
*MeG*
By Sandi on Wednesday, November 4, 1998 - 04:47 pm:
you(as in girls)worry about the way blokes see you, as a person or as a pretty face or what. does he go to his mate 'shes a really nice person' or 'i really just want to get her into bed' (or cruder stuff, sure you've overheard it!)
i live in england by the way, i love it here, there are so many trees and we are just 45 mins away fro london.it always seems to be raining and cold but its my home. i would love to visit america one day.
By MeG on Thursday, November 5, 1998 - 05:20 pm:
No i would never ask this nice guy out.Cause number one i don't like him in that way,number two
he already has a girlfriend of 6 months that he talks about constantly,and number 3 even if i did like him and he was not going out with that girl i would never have him cause like everyone in our school wants to go out with him.I would have no chance.
About 95% of guys are perverts who just want to have sex with numerous girls.So its really hard to find a guy who is not think of sex 24/7 and looks for personality.Yeah,i'm not saying that 95% of guys will just completely ignore u,its just that will never think of u more than a friend.It sucks,but its just a guy thing,they feel like that they have to sex in order to live.But girls,aren't as willing,and sometimes are pressured into it,and any guy who pressures a girl into having sex has no respect for her.When guys talk about girls,most guys talk about how hot or easy a girl is.
I live in the United States,Wisconsin to be exact.I like Wisconsin and US to.I haven't really been anywhere out of the state,it sucks.My family really isn't into the whole traveling thing,except to see my relatives,who all live within 7 hours of where i live.If i could go anywhere in the US i would go to New York or California.New York cause of all the shopping,cause i just LOVE SHOPPING!And of course i would want to see the Broadway shows.California cause thats where all the actors/actresses live,the beaches,hot weather,and HOLLYWOOD!In Wisconsin,we have cold winters,and hot summers.I like fall in WI,its nice weather,like 60's and some 70's.That is so cool u live in England!I'm part English.I look like an English person too,because i'm pale like alot of English people are.One good thing about it,i won't have all these wrinkles when i get older from skin damage.
I want to go to Paris.I take French right now,and i want to go with them to Paris,when they take the trip there,its every other year.Paris seems like the dream city.So much shopping,Effifel Tower,and all the art places.U would love America.
Ok,we said that we should talk about the good and bad things that happen to us.Okay,i'll tell u about a good thing that i'm happy about.Okay,we just finished swimming in gym yesterday.The bad thing about swimming is that i can't swim.Its not like i'm afraid of water,i just can't swim,no matter how much i try.Okay,so we had to take these tests in swimming which included a few strokes-the front crawl,backstroke,and side stroke.So i tested for them and i couldn't stop from touching the bottom of the pool.My teacher wouldn't count that and said i would get an imcomplete unless i actually swim,and keep my feet from not touching the ground.So a few of the people in my gym class on the last day(yesterday)taught me how to do the front crawl and i actually did it.I could do the front crawl about half way across the pool.I can swim a little now!So i'm happy about that.But tommorw,after school i have to do a test for swimming,the treading test,but i have no idea how to tread.Can anyone tell me how u tread?
Well,i gotta now.Cause i got to do my homework.
Then i have to babysit for my little brother while my parents and my older brother go to my brother's football banquet tonight.I don't get payed for it though,it sucks!
Bye!
*MeG*
By Noodles on Friday, November 6, 1998 - 03:39 pm:
As soon as one foot feels like it is about to touch the bottom lift your other leg as high as you can and put your weight on it.Then repeat.I hope that is useful.I know how it feels not to be able to swim I couldn't swim for ages but when I did it was great.You just have to trust the water.
By the way I have a quote:"If the human brain was simple enough to understand we would still be to stupid to understand it."
Have any of you guys heard/read the book "Sophies World"? it's by Jostein Gaarder and is really cool.
My favourite bands are
1.The Corrs
2.Catatonia
3.Space
talk more later
By Mia on Friday, November 6, 1998 - 05:46 pm:
Paris is an amazing city I only went for one day but it was cool,only its really expensive-we went to a coffe place and just had coffe and like little cake things and it cost my parents £70 ($140)
there were 7 of us but still!! Everyone says Paris is great but I love brussels cause it is just beautiful its like a picture everything is so perfect even the air feels nice.they are always people around doing arty things and selling cool food and jewlery-you sort of feel so welcome!!
I am so luck I have travelled alot...I guess my favorite place would be..I dunno I love cities so the two above and boston probably.
I had such a shitty day my hockey(field) coach sent me off the pitch for making too much noise and I went to say sorry today(it happened last night) and she said I was a disgrace and I was a pain in everyones side..but the thing is I know I have a loud voice and all but it wasn't just me...
I was talking to other people on the team about and they say she is always picking on me,like if I do something wrong she makes a show of me in front of everyone but when I do things right she pretends like I'm not there-what can I do I don't want to give cause I love it an I can't complain cause she is my form teacher,what can I do /
It is really wearing me out I feel like it is my fault but I know its not I need some advice???
Help!!
Lots of Love Mia xoxo
P.S. sorry for being so moany.
By Sandi on Saturday, November 7, 1998 - 10:46 am:
noodles, i like catatonia too, my favourite song is 'strange glue'
had a really good time last night, went skating with my bloke-friend (if ya get what i mean) and his sister and some of her mates. i can skate pretty well now, it was only the 5th time i've been and it's very tiring.
how do people see you lot at school? i guess i am respected my those who know me but other people think i am cold and unkind (not true- just shy)
what is this Sophies world book about? sounds really interesting
By Mia on Sunday, November 8, 1998 - 07:45 am:
I got a new dress!! Its lovely,its like 50's style, just below the knee, fitted, black and it has a really wide neck withthose really short sleaves-its cool,and I got it in topshhop which was pretty cool-£45 but well worth it I'm gonna wear it all the time!!!
Peoplre in my school see me as the girl who talks to anyone and everyone about anything--its cool sometimes but I find I've got no really true friends and no one to hang out with at weekends :(
My dad is going out walking with my hockey teacher today -arrghh I don't know what will happen!!
Talk again soon!!
Love MIA xoxox
By Sandi on Sunday, November 8, 1998 - 01:55 pm:
i am sure that people do want to hang out with you at weekends mia, just you don't know about it. i sometimes find it difficult to get a gorup of us together but its worth it when you have a great time.
hope your dad sorted out that hockey teacher (in a nice but firm way)
By MeG on Sunday, November 8, 1998 - 02:33 pm:
I'm not stupid but i have no idea what philosophy is.I've heard about it but i have no idea what it is about.Its sound cool....maybe if i read it i would understand philosophy then.
I've hard that the people in Paris are rude.Is that true?I've never really traveled.I've only been out of WI(where i live) like a few times and only to Chicago and Mineeapolis.They are both cool cities.Mall of America is the best!Expensive though.....
Actually my P.E. teacher doesn't like me either....actually she doesn't like our class.Either we don't participate enough,participate to much,or she finds something else that is wrong with u.Mia,just be really nice to her and stuff even if u don't like her.That's what i try to do with my gym teacher now,cause before i was kind of gave her attitude,and now she is nicer.Oh...u know who is just like that to?
I take ballet and my ballet teacher is so like that.Ok,if i do something bad,and everybody else doesn't as bad as me or worse.She ALWAYS has to pick on me,and makes the biggest production of it,and she tries to make a fool out of me,and makes it look i suck.I don't suck,and i'm not the worst in the class,but i'm not the best either.And when ever i do something good she always has to ignore me and not saying anything.But of course she compliments everyone else.That is my teacher on Wednesday.On Tuesday when i have ballet,we have this teacher who favors like 3 students.It sucks majorly,cause we are doing a Christmas dance to "Eva Maria" at this mall a few times and she is giving them three basically doing the whole dance and this hard stuff.And everyone else is on like never and when we are on ,we have this really easy part.I feel really stupid,cause it makes it look that we all suck except those three.I'm going to try to forget about though....and just try my best.
Skating is OK.I'm OK at it,thats what we always did it for end of the year field trips when we were younger.Bloke....is that boyfriend?
At school,i guess i'm respected.Most people know who i am,i hang out with a respected group of people.Ok,these are the kind of groups at our school.There is the "popular",most of aren't popular but they are part of that group.There are the ones that have sex with numerous people,takes drug,smoke,drink,u know all that shit.And they think they are all that,and most of them are jerks.Then there is just the normal group of people,kind of in the middle(which i am part of)we are respected by teachers and students,we are like basically good students but school isn't our life,we don't do drugs and all that,but we know how to have a good time.And then there are the outcasts,i don't refer to them as outcasts,but alot of people do.Most of them are guys,not many girls though,those are the really,really smart people,who most people don't like.I act nice to them,and everyone else even though i might not like them.I never categorize people,but thats how alot of people do it,so i just said that cause i've heard.As a person,everybody thinks i am different,some people think i am smart,quiet,outgoing,perky,shy,or not a good student.Okay i am not like really smart but i get pretty good grades,usually i am a A and B student and sometimes i get an occasional C.I can be quiet,like in class if i am paying attention to the teacher.I can be outgoing,if its like other classes like u know study hall,gym,those kind of classes that u can talk in.Perky,yea i can be that if i am in a good mood,but i ain't no ditz!
Shy,people only say that,cause if i am quiet they think u are automatically shy.I am not shy though! And i am not a bad student.
Your dress sounds cool,Mia.What kind of clothes do u all where?I dress casually to school and so does basially everyone else.I wear flairs,teeshirts,and sweaters.I like dressing up though,when there is a special occasion,but i'm not the kind of person that go where a dress to school.That would be cool if i our school weren't so casual,cause i would love to dress up sometimes.
I gotta do my homework!I have sooo much!
Talk later!
*MeG*
By Mia on Tuesday, November 10, 1998 - 04:33 pm:
How is everyone??
So I gave up some of my hockey -the bit where a was helping out the younger years it is like a community service thing,but it was wearing me out so much,cause it meant that I was playing five days a week and that I stay back at school till six everyday-so I'm goona change my helping out the community bit to serving food and drinks in a cafe where the prices are really cheap so homless and poorer people can afford it -I'll probalby to it on a Saturday after hockey so the good thing about that is I am in town(center of Dublin) and I can window shop-hoorray!!God that's terrible the only good thing I see in me helping people is that it is in a good location-I'm awful.
I dress like skater-look but guys always look so much better.I would call my self mild-skater cause I have nothing pierced although I'd love to get my eyebrow done but my mum said no.So when Igo to university-hopefully but I may have grown up by then -not likely I'll always be a kid-does anyone else feel like that sometimes?
Like they totally wanna act like a kid?I love that feeling!!I kinda still wish I was five cause it was so uncomplicated you had fights with you friends about who sat where and you made up like ten mins later-and all you had to do was play there was no pressure to be good at everything.
My friend showed me this cool quiz:
1 guy
2 friend of family
3 friend or family
4 friend or family
5 guy
6 song that just comes into your head
7 as above
8 as above
9 as above
10 as above
So you fill in the blanks and if anyone wants to do it I'll tell you what it means after.When I did it it was pretty true for mebut I don't know....
Anyway try it ,its cool to see........
Gotta go and sleep!!
Mia!!
By MeG on Tuesday, November 10, 1998 - 05:09 pm:
1.Matt
2.Nicky
3.Sarah
4.Katie
5.Benny
6.One Week
7.For You I will
8.Don't Want To Miss a Thing
9.Kokomo(My fav. song as a little kid,don't like it anymore though!)
10.Tearing Up My Heart
Okay i have a quiz too....leave your answers here....and i will tell u the answers later.
1.Name A Guy
2.Do u eat?
3.Pick a #1-100
4.Your favorite candy
5.Name a person
6.Your Favorite Song
7.Do you shower?
8.Which do u perfer twins/triplets?
9.Name another person
10.Your favorite phrase
11.Why do u go to school?
Okay,thats it,i'd write more but i have to go to ballet now.The winds are so strong right now,they are going to have Wind warning cause its suppose to get up to 75mph.Yea,i could barely walk to the bus today cause the winds were so fast.Yea,i ride the bus its a combination of the high school and middle school.
Well,i really got to go.
*MeG*