100% GUILT-FREE ANGST

by Liz Ramsey

   
   
		The first time I've ever really been
		Tonight our conversations will flow like a river
		Dripping off the formica countertops
		I'll clean it up later, right now i am with him
		Bright yellow street lamps look like faraway stars through my kitchen window
		He notices it too
		And the air is heavy with the silence of adolescent thought
		"Apathetic" he says
		Maybe thats what we are
		A piece of his hair is stuck in his mouth, and i clench my fist,
		Its all i can do to stop from touching his hair, 
		His mouth
		So i think about apathy,and maybe its just like 
		Rain on a cloudy day,when my mind is soggy with thought, 
		And thunder sounds like somebody remembering something
		But then its kinda funny, cause it starts 
		Drizzling outside	
		And i envy the perfect apathetic teen-ager
		Who knows exactly what she wants,
		And never puts too much soap in the dish water,
		And smiles secretly to herself in the middle of the
		Pouring rain.


Liz Ramsey is 15 and lives in Hawaii.