I have some things on my mind right now. I would just like to share because most people think that nothing bothers me and my life is perfect and everything is peachy keen. I have become so good at keeping things inside, that even when I am "in another state of mind because of herbal experiences" I think things, but don't say them. I hate being here to please other people. I am tired of being quiet and not saying what I think in fear of being thought of as having my own opinion on things like skateboarding, and punk music or other things that are male dominated where I live. I wish that people could just crawl inside my head to see how I was really feeling, instead of just how I lead people to belive I'm feeling.
i know exactly how you feel. exactly. people call me a manic depressive if i have an opinion. (I swear am not kidding. this has happened many times.) I have no idea what this means. I am not a depressed person at all. People just don't consider me a *normal* 16 year old i guess...
You know what really pisses me off? Whenever I'm in a crappy mood, or say something out of the ordinary, someone *has* to say "pms", as if the only time we females are allowed to have an opinion is around the time of the month. HELLO!! Maybe something you said to me hurt my feelings, and I'm not a little passifist who'll let it go by?
You know what's worse than *pms syndrome*, ha ha your wrong syndrome. It really bothers me when I do something wrong and somebody dwells on forever just because I get good grades and I know shes jealous of them. That sounds so stuck up but the truth hurts so anyway.
What really pisses me off (other than that PMS thing, 'cause it happens to me all the time too) is a certain thing that is happening to me. This is not a big traumatic thing, I know it's little, I may be petty, but it's really annoying. I have a friend who doesn't really know me that well (most people don't know me that well, I'm pretty secretive, that may have something to do with me being a scorpio.. but I'm off topic) anyways, she thinks she knows me, and she thinks her life is awful. She explodes all her problems way out of porportion, when really they're not that bad. And she copies all the things I do, what I wear, my opinions, and she still says when trendy girls walk down the hall, " god, could she be any less original? " I stand there bewildered and in amazement at the irony of the moment.. but I still don't say anything. Because she's my friend.. and friends except their friend's flaws.. (but I'm never sure if that is a flaw.. if I'm being petty.. or she was placed on this earth to copy and annoy me) sorry that this is so long.. but I had to get it off my chest
Somebody tell me something: Okay, I have this friend, right? I mean, she's great and all, and we have a lot of fun together. Then, she met my younger sister, and now, she's friends with *both* of us. My friend is her friend, she spends time with my *sister* now, too. This bugs me. This REALLY bugs me. Do I have a right to be mad, or am I just jealous? Shouldn't my friends be off-limits to her? I have my friends, she's got hers, we should keep em seperate, right? My sister always freaks out whenever I even *talk* to one of her friends, she thinks I'm going to steal them away from her, when she did the exact same thing to me. It's not like my friend is on friendly terms with my sister, my friend likes my sister better then me. She told her so. And now, they're both mad at *me* because I'm mad at them. They're all "we can spend time together, all three of us!!" as if I'd WANT to!!! When I invite my friend over, often times she'll disappear with my sister!! THIS ISN'T RIGHT!!! It doesn't happen!! I'm so MAD!!!!
HEY, SHAMPOO, WHY DON'T YOU WANT YOUR SISTER TO BE FRIENDS WITH YOUR FRIENDS. YOU SHOULD TRY TO BE FRIENDS WITH YOUR SISTER. IT'S AN AREA OF GREAT SATISFACTION AND POSSIBILITIES. WHO COULD KNOW YOU BETTER THAN A SISTER. YOU DON'T HAVE TO EXPLAIN YOURSELF TO HER AND YOU CAN SPEAK IN A SHORTHAND THAT WILL SURPRISE YOU. LOVING YOUR SISTER IS A GIVEN, BUT BEING A FRIEND WITH HER IS ALWAYS A WELCONE SURPRISE.
Having a friend who is also a friend of your sister is tricky. My little sis always used to blow up at me when I talked to her friends as well... On the rare occasion when we *did* have a friend in common, any time we got into a fight things got exceptionally ugly...
Shampoo
Excuse me, Anonymous? Not all of us have a wonderful, loving, caring sister as yours. I'm sure you and your sister are just like the ones on TV, all sharing and supportive and just like best friends!! Well you know what? Not all of us feel that way. I fight with my sister every single day, and when *my* friend likes her better than she likes me, I'm not going to be all happy that we can all be friends *together*. You wont believe how many times I get that, people always saying I should be happy they get along so well. You don't know how it feels to have *your* friend call you up, and ask to speak to your sister, as if all I am is some relative!! It *hurts*, okay?
(different anonymous)
Shampoo,
Shampoo... I think I know what your going through.. My sister and I aren't very close, I basically avoid her most of the time. She really likes my friends though, she talks about them, hangs out a little with them, says how their soo cool. I hate it!! My sister has a ton of friends, and I hang out in a group. I basically feel like, my friends are my friends, you're not me, you're not like me, don't hang out with the people I like! I think I have the fear that, if she wanted to she could steal them away, and I've never trusted her with anything, why should I trust her with the people closest to me? Basically I think, you should tell your friend how you feel, be honest, and she'll probably be sympathic to your feelings, or at least talk about it with you. In my humble advice, not that I know what your relationship is like with your friend, but I think if you continue to not like being around them, stop being around them! You shouldn't be with people your not comfortable around.
Did I ever tell you that I love your sobriquet, Shampoo? (what kind of shampoo do you use, by the way?) I don't have a sister but there has been exasperating times when I wish I had one instead of an older brother who's the angel of the family. Both of us are extremely rigorous in academics and for a long time, I've looked up to him and his sublime intelligence. I wanted to be everything he is/was. But no matter, how painstakingly hard I tried, he somehow always managed to succeeded better. My parents are cool and they don't push me or anything, but many times, I feel pressure on my back because in a way I feel I'm supposed to excel like my brother because we're related or something. We happen to be best friends, but there are definitely crucial issues we don't talk about. Oh what am I talking about? I guess I was trying to state that siblings can be a pain in the neck and from my experiences, I've realized I can't waste my time being angry for something because I need to concentrate on my own level. Who I am! (I'm not making sense at all, am I?)
Thanks, you guys! It's nice to know that someone is on my side for once, instead of lecturing me about it (you've probably realized that i get lectured a lot). You guys are great.
A lot of people just look happy even when they're not. It could be you're being more honest about being unhappy than the "happy" people are being. Do you watch the cartoon Daria? If not, I'd recommend it.
I know exactly where you are comming from Shampoo. Every year i go through this period where I feel ugly, fat, and untalented, and become bored with the routine of my life. I feel like I'm trapped and am going nowhere and never will. Last year I had a so-called friend practically ditch me because of it. She got tired of me always being unhappy. (I had just gone through a terrible break up and she expected me to get over it as quickly as my ex did.) In that particular instance I found that getting away for a couple days and being around a different group of friends helps, (a lot). And definetly writing about.
Hello. I just ran across this page, and I like it allot. Anyways, I am in an increadibly bad mood right now, and I think I'll just complain for a while. Feel free to ignore me because I doubt you want to hear me whine, but I gotta get this out!
"I get "grunge/punk/metal" people attacking me because I dress like "them",
Ickygrrlgerms:
Que,
Okay so this actually does seem to be a good idea but I feel kind of stupid just coming on the internet and discussing my life but HEY! I'm hoping this will make me feel better. I have to admit that I am one of those people who tries to have a really positive attitude but mainly it's just to help my friends who all come to me with their problems. I don't really mind but I find it makes life difficult when I have probs of my own. See today, I thought I was going to finish with my bloke coz I have been really confused recently and I was having a pretty hard time so what does my so-called 'best friend' do? She turns around and takes his side and moans that I am letting my other friends help me out and pushing her away. I mean that is primary school talk!! So anyway she does that and my other good friend who is male tells me he likes me more than as a friend!! I mean a girl can only take so much!!! So I went and didn't finish with Lee (my guy) coz I realised I did still like him and things with me and Nick (my male friend) are alright but what do I do about her? It's like HELP!!!!
Because I only just started my "once a month" a little while ago, everyone is blaming all of my moods on it. Maybe I might just be bloody-well cheesed of for a real reason. I HATE VANILLA. I LOVE LEO (which sane girl doesn't)
It has to be said, I DON'T LOVE LEO!!!!! I really honestly don't think he is that great. My friends all adore him so much but I LOVE ROBBIE WILLIAMS!!!!! The man is sex on legs (not that I would know from experience but HEY!!!)
I definitely DO NOT love leo... for some reason a guy who I could break over my knee just doesnt appeal...
I don't absolutely adore him, I just thought it would bring up conversation. I LOVE ROBBIE WILLIAMS too, I can't believe he used to belong to TAKE THAT I hated them and I hated him aswell, but now I love him and his music as I do Radiohead, Kula-Shaker, and (I don't care what any of you think)Michael Jackson, ofcourse I think that he is a bit of a twat but I LOVE his music.
hi grrls!
L'il ol me? you sure?
Please do not mention the 'L' word again.
hey, y'all,
Hi grrls,i just wanted to say that i am a bit of an individual as well but i dont seem to have the self confidence. i`ve started taking days off school because i`m frightened that i`ll get beaten up because i`m a *snob* and get good grades and stuff.
Zooey and Trista and everyone - you're beautiful too! we all are, especially when we've got strong oppinions and are not afraid to speak them out. i guess that's what people always meant when they said "beauty comes from the inside".
I love you guys,
why do people have to hurt other pepple so much?why do i have to go through everyday feeling like shit cause it makes "her" feel better?
To Rhian,
howdy, y'all!
f.c.
Dear Ulrika (anonimous),
I hate it when I'm sooo happy with my boyf. He's perfect. BUT I'm so happy, I begin to feel like I don;t deserve him. Then he has to reassure me again that he loves me and wants to spend his life with me. I'm happy for a week or so, then we do it agian. It's a never ending cycle!!!!!
Well, here I am again, talking nonsense, that no-one is ever going to read nor respond to. I spose it's good no-one needs to listen to my mindless crap.
to be honest i usually don't pay much attention to folks when they're all twitterpatted on love...but what Nikki said reminded me of my current droolio.
Well Mandy's got it all right...Her man understands Shakespeare. I once recited some Midsummernights Dream...he asked me whether I was on drugs! My boy is the mechanic, I'm the artiste!
DON'T YOU DARE START COMPLAINING ABOUT ACTUALLY HAVING A BOYFRIEND, I'VE NEVER EVEN HAD ONE!!!!!! But then again I'm only fourteen and I'm in no rush, BUT STILL!!!!! It actually (believe it or not) sounds quite snobby when grrls say that they 'don't deserve him (sigh)' because usually in those cases they're actually suttley showing off that they have a boyfriend, I'm not saying that you're a show-off Nikki, but you have to be careful of how other grrls may interpret it if you say it to their face, they might get a bit jealous, and that is not cool.
Here I am again...waiting for my lunch to cook.
Rhiannon...
Sorry to completly change the currunt conversation
Anon....Who cars if you fit in? I don't fit into much either, these days, especially that little red skirt I bought two years ago.
I totally agrre with u Nikky if u wanna have fun then u go girl thats my favourite saying at the moment.I think that people shouldn't mock u cause your'e fat thin black or white as long as u've got a cool personality thats all that counts.The reason Ive metioned being mocked cause u r fat is cause people mock me about being over weight If anyone has the same problem Email me at my dads address which is david@ddarwood.demon.co.uk so we can talk those annoying people who think there better than u cause their a size 8 and youre not.
Hey! How come all those teen magazines never have models that wear glasses?? It's kind of saying that girls who wear glasses aren't beautifull right?? How about on tv shows " the nerd" is always wearing the glasses or the " brain" is always wearing the glasses?? That makes the rest of us who wear glasses feel bad and have less self-esteem....Does anyone else feel this way??? Please respond. Thanks!
I wore glasses up until grade seven, when it wasn't the "cool" thing anymore. I endured *bad* headaches until my eyes adjusted and I didn't need glasses anymore.
I think youre all really sad and pathetic, have you no friends?, do we really care if you have to be a speccy, no I think not. Chandler Bing rules.
Nikki, your GREAT you know. It's really hard though, with all these people in our year who in the 'in-crowd' (who some of might I add are NOT virgins at 14)who give you this look that just says "oh my God you sad" and it's very intimmidating. I had a breakthrough last week, though, our school went to Devon for a week and on the last night there was a party and of course all of the 'in-crowd' were dancing, and even though I'm a good dancer and in any other environment I would be full to the brim with confidence. usually around these people I'm too shy. But this time I danced the night away till 2 o'clock in the morning and I forced my friends to aswell.
ANONYMOS, no offense but FUCK-OFF! You seem to be one of these people that is obsessed with image. I despise you people. I love Chandler aswell but where will that get you in life? No where! This place only welcomes people with REAL emotions, not one's that they're told by everyone else to have. You kind of people are all hypocrytes and it is the people who are willing to express themselves fully that are going to be happy. If this person wants to tell me how she feels about wearing glasses then I will listen and I will try to help her overcome her pain and lead a happier life, and you can do so aswell if you just agree to bring out your sensative side, that is how you gain friends who trust and respect you, and those people will help you out instead of having to manage by yourself. Believe me, I used to be just like you, but I changed and now I do not have to worry about what my friends think of me because both them and I know that true beauty is on the inside and not visa-versa. (I apologise if my opening was a little harsh but I was cross)
to rhiannon-
Don't worry (I am refusing to call you sad-4-eyes, What is your real name?) I was not offended. I know how you feel, I was once like you, I really really wanted to be in with the crowd, and because of it I ended up a lowner, but for some reason I still carried on. I was bullied and teased and all the people that would be decent friends gave-up on me and the others rejected me. The only thing that could change my mind was short-term depression, seriously. My dad is an alcoholic, (this was about three years ago, I'm 14 now and my dad doesn't drink anymore)and for years he had been suffering from depressionand no-one had told me, my they parents used as an object to take their anger out on, and of course I thought it was because I was a hopeless failure that I was being told off so much and I went to bed every night crying, when it was really my parents who where the failures. When my dad went away to a rehabilitation place my mum got even more stressed and yelled at me at every chance she got. In the end I ended up screaming at her (something of which I would NEVER do because I love my family too much) and that was when my mum realised that I had become chronically depressed and she has never forgiven herself for that, but on top of that there was all my problems at school so then I started crying practically every day at school as well, which was very dimeening and lowered my reputation even more and if anyone even just slightly teased me I would scream at them and start crying again. It took ALL THAT to realise what a fool I had been and I have only just managed to rekindle my reputation and I have apologised to anyone I may have hurt and now I have loads of decent and trustworthy friends and I am respected by everyone else for my strength. I really do not think that you really want all that to happen to you before you realise that those who judge you do not matter in life. You should just take one deep breath and go and say hello and make small talk with some people who look nice and that will be one step towards more confidence. If I was like you and I could do it, especially after all that, then you can definately do it. I'll shut-up now,bye
I've waited for about a week now and no one else has written, IS ANYONE OUT THERE!!!!!!
Rhiannon-
I live in Ealing in London,
Are you a big Fleetwood Mac fan?
To rhiannon-
Rhiannon,
I'm up for anything that will help any disadvantaged girls like me. People don't seem to understand how someone who is well-off and middle-class can become an alcoholic like my dad. I'm quite lucky in a way, because my father did not beat me or my family, but people seem to think that because I was not hurt physically then there was no reason to be depressed. Also, because my parents didn't actually explain what was wrong with my dad to me, I could not explain it to my friends so none of them could understand why I was getting so upset, because I couldn't understand either, they only knew the scientific side to it. Everything came together when after my depression, we were told to do a three minute talk for English on any topis. so being in my position, I chose alcoholism, I included a bit of science for those who did not know but it was mainly based around the emotional area. Afterwards I could see that my friends were gobsmacked, and people had TONS of questions and one of my friends admitted that she nearly started to cry. About three teachers came up to me at break and commended me on a great talk that my English teacher had told them about. The only down side was that one boy who had been calling me names for a while started asking me if my dad was going to the pub tonight but I just responded with; "He might be but if the real intent of your question is if he is going to have any alcohol then I doubt it very much because if you had a long enough attention span you would heard me say in my talk that my dad is sobre and is never going to drink again otherwise he will die of liver failure." and being the dum ass that he is he looked very baffled and turned away and he has never teased me since.
wow
Hi Rhiannon. I'm here. I'm not sure what you want to know so just ask me a question and I'll answer, OK?
Rhiannon,
I LOVE YOU!!!!!!! (not literally of course)
Laurel,
I like to write fiction and poetry (but you knew that), listen to music, read, watch television, do art sometimes, and go running. And I like the Internet of course.
Wow, looks like i haven't been here since MAY!! woops!! Anywayz, to sum everything up:
This GLASSES thing: Even though I have been told that I suit my glasses - I still feel uglier with them on even though I am not ugly.
Shampoo.
By Kat on Sunday, January 11, 1998 - 04:38 pm:
But seriously Happygirl, you should not hold things back. If people give you shit for what you have to say then fuck em. You shouldn't have to suffer to please other people. Show everyone else that you can do whatever YOU goddamn please.
By Shampoo on Sunday, January 11, 1998 - 11:28 pm:
By Anonymous on Thursday, January 15, 1998 - 11:41 pm:
By Teena on Friday, January 16, 1998 - 10:20 pm:
By Shampoo on Saturday, January 17, 1998 - 01:37 am:
By Anonymous on Saturday, January 17, 1998 - 02:55 am:
By Greensleeves on Saturday, January 17, 1998 - 03:29 am:
On the other hand, I wouldn't make a big scene if I were you. You don't want to give your friend an ultimatum, and keeping peace within the family is always a good idea. Just consider yourself lucky... my best friend used to date this guy named Shane, and her older sister poked fun at him all the time. Now, five years later, my best friend's older sister is practically engaged to Shane. Some fun, huh?
By Kat on Saturday, January 17, 1998 - 05:26 pm:
i can understand how you can be jelous or upset. my sister and i are three years apart so we know some of the same people. its kind of weird, thought, because i think some of her friends were disappointed that i was different. we sometimes hang out with other people together, but most of the time our friends are separate business from our relationship. its much better that way. you should try being closer with your sister and keep the friend out of it. when she's involved, it gets all weird with the familty stuff mixed in, you know?
By Shampoo on Sunday, January 18, 1998 - 01:45 am:
Greensleeves and Kat, thanks for your advice. ! You guys are great, thanks! ^_~
By Anonymous on Sunday, January 18, 1998 - 03:22 pm:
Shampoo, you said, "It's not like my friend is on friendly terms with my sister, my friend likes my sister better then me. She told her so."
Did your friend tell you this, or did your sister? Maybe your sister made it up to get to you: "she likes me better. She said so."
By Lenara on Monday, January 19, 1998 - 05:28 pm:
You know what? I'd just let your 'friend' and your sister get on with it. I know it's tough, and I know it seems unfair that a pal of yours seems to want to spend more time with your sis then with you. But you can't force someone to like you better. If your 'friend' prefers your sister, then fine - who needs her? It may hurt but you'll find other pals. If your friend is just confused about which of you she's really close to, then she'll make a decision sooner or later...and it could be you!
Also, that line about "my friend likes my sister better then me - she told me so." That sounds like something your sister made up - I wouldn't take it all that seriously. If your friend is REALLY your friend, she would never play you off against your sister like that.
By Leia on Friday, January 23, 1998 - 11:16 pm:
By ZoOeY on Saturday, January 24, 1998 - 12:38 pm:
By Shampoo on Friday, February 13, 1998 - 12:54 am:
My name isn't really Shampoo Shampoo (ie the stuff you use to clean your hair). See, there's this anime called Ranma 1/2 (!), and Shampoo is this really cool Chinese Amazon. She's way awesome, cuz she's really strong and not many people can beat her in a fight, except for Ranma, and that's it. She does whatever she can to get him, because the Amazon law states that when an outsider male beats an amazon, she must marry him. That's all I'm going to tell you, though, cuz otherwise I'll be here forever. Thanks, Zooey, it's nice when people actually like my name, instead of asking me for a shower, which happens a lot.
Anywayz, the reason I'm here is because I feel like crap, and nobody understands. Not even my friends!! They're all "think happy thoughts" or "have a positive attitude" and I just want to tell them to shut the hell up, and get it!! BUT THEY DON'T!! THEY NEVER DO!!! I'd go into it, but you don't know who I'm talking about, so I wont. I'll make it short, though. I'm feeling very depressed about school. I used to like it, but now I hate it. I used to have a really awesome school band, but then they built a new school, and the band here sucks. Essentially, I used to get *so much* pleasure out of music, and now I hate that, too. Also, I have this problem where I freak out if someone doesn't like me. Like, I'll hear that one person doesn't like me, and I'll flip out. This isn't normal, I realize that. I shouldn't care what others think, but I DO! I also have this terrible body image. I think I'm fat and ugly, and it's just such a depressing thing to think about all the time. I know that I'm not too bad, but that's not what I see when I look in the mirror. I mean, there are *so many* pretty girls in my school, the ones that get all the attention, and then theres me, boring-always-late-always-knows-the-answers-to-the-science-homework me. That's all. And I have this friend who is always happy, and I just don't understand how she could be so happy all the time, and me... well, i'm not. And so, I just thought I'd unload all my frustrations on you guys, and leave it at that. Sorry...
By Lee on Friday, February 13, 1998 - 09:31 pm:
As for music, are there any people you could get together w/informally? Maybe try looking at/placing ads in local weeklies? If the school band isn't working out, maybe you could form your own & regain some of that enjoyment.
By Keely on Tuesday, February 17, 1998 - 03:12 pm:
It's normal to care about how other see you and judge and it's normal to occasionally feel fat and ugly. I found that one day I just sorta snapped out of it. I looked around and saw all the wonderful friends I still had. The friends who excepted that it was totally normal to be unhappy for a while and to feel depressed. There are people out there who understand and have felt or feel the same way you do.
By Mrs. Zebera on Thursday, March 12, 1998 - 12:38 am:
I am a tenth grader, and I havent any idea what the age range on this thing is, but I'm sure most of you can appreciate this statement: lots of kids in hightschool really suck(and unfortunately, not just highschool, but that is the focuse of my anger at this moment). I am so tired of putting up with peoples crap ever day. People attack me from so many different directions. It is so disgusting. All because I am myself. I dont fit in to any categories, I dont live life to please others, and I am not afraid to who I am.
I get "grunge/punk/metal" people attacking me because I dress like "them", but dont act like "them" because I'm not stoned off my ass all day, and I get decent grades. On the other hand, I get "Preps" or whatever attacking me because I'm in "there" "smart" classes, and I'm reading "college level" books, but I listen to "wierd music", dress "strange", and I'm not a little cheerleader. This puts me in the category of some witch of satanist(somehow, I'm not sure how.)
Still, I get some girls looking at me, and simply because I am not overweight(which there is nothing wrong with, but I'm not), I am the aenorexic bitch.
Man, then because I am openly gay, well, I wont even get into that. Whooo. I am just so tired of labels. I do realize, even in this posting, I have used labels to describe people, but that is because they that is the way they pretty much describe themselves. I guess I should say, rather, I am tired of people wanting me to fit into a label, or ceartain mold. Unfortunately, there is no mold for me. I am my own mold that will wear a long velvet skirt one day, and a ripped pair of jeans the next.
I am my own mold that will go from reading shakespear to Lovecraft, and from Dante to Dr. Suess in the blink of an eye.
I am my own mold that will play Tool and Metallica on my guitar, and then turn around and play my favorite Bach and Pachabelle on the Piano.
I am the individual who will eat waffles with ice cream and chocolate syrup with Josta for breakfast, but have a salad and water for dinner and be happy iether way.
I am my own person that will smile with honesty and sincerety at one moment, and the next, be scowling at something with a great amount of hate.
I will always be myself, and right now I am just having a huge problem with the fact that other people are trying to prevent me from doing so. Of course I have great friends, who like who I am as much as I like who they are. And, of course not everyone is narrowminded, or judgemental. But the people that are, they really get me down. They shouldn't . I shouldnt let them. But, they do. And I suppose that just pisses the hell out of me.
OK. Think I'm done taking up space now. I realize I sound like a really whiner at the moment, but at the moment I am a whiner, so hey, oh well. I feel a bit better.
By Ickygrrlgerms on Friday, March 13, 1998 - 12:23 am:
but dont act like "them" because I'm not stoned off my ass all day"
i understood what ya were saying and all but that particular statement was a minor bit hypocritical in my view which you admitted to " I do realize, even in this posting, I have
used labels to describe people, but that is because they that is the way they
pretty much describe themselves." but still i found it offensive not that it really really matters im just saying.
im what most folks consider your "gender bending" not to modern "punk" and i don't think i've been "stoned off my ass all day" at anytime and I haven't said it to describe myself either. Anyhow it wasn't that offensive..just a tad..because its the exact same thing over and over...
you hate being treated this way yet no matter what you always seem to jump back and do it back to someone else..its just instinct or some kind of reflex i guess...i've encountered some real assholes (non-gender specfic or group oriented) since leaving elem. which is to be expected cause now everybody's suppoesedly "maturing" and starting to like different things and different people...
but now because i like the punk and ratty clothes instead of the rap or dance and Hilfiger im the outcast..."Eww!Gross a lip ring! she should be in some tribe or something. she doesn't have a clue. oh..damn..my lipsticks comming off" Oh gee...offend me some more oh great beauty goddess and masculine adonis! I WANT to hear you tell me that i'm no better than the shrew your cats left bloody remains of on your front step. are the actually getting their jollies from this? i tend to think they are because they do it quite often.
"to be brutally honest is how you get through life!" yea with no front teeth and multiple black eyes...like yourself..i figure "labels suck" and "mean people suck" but theres nothing you can do besides stand your ground stay yourself and spit in their eye..or be complelty creative and think back to "Kids in the Hall" move a distance away from the supposed enemy and do the *Im squishing your head* routine..if its not successful its at least hilarious to yourself and your friends...
--ickygrrlgerms--
"Go ahead don't be a panzy go ahead go out and fight til your right"
By Que_ on Friday, March 13, 1998 - 01:00 am:
You know, I'm not sure I agree with everything you write...but I must *say* I think you are an *excellent* writer. You have real talent....are you using it as your career or planning to? I think you'd have a future in Journalism or just writing or something. I mean it!!!
Just a thought.
Que
By Ickygrrlgerms on Friday, March 13, 1998 - 07:20 pm:
Thanks!
That happens quite often that folks don't agree or
understand with what i say..but so..its up to them..think what you need to think or feel to think..or something like that..indiviuals make better people ive always found and if everyone agreed with what someone said it'd be pretty humdrum...that all sounded like Morality class..sheesh...
the writing stuff as of now is a past time and mostly a school grade..i had always thought that "when i grow up im going to be" an artist because i was always pre-occupied with drawing and other silly things involving pencils or paints..but this year i lucked out in being able to take both my univeristy lit and ap.writing (both highly recommended)
now that ap.writing's over and done with and i got a rather low D (due to the in and outs of the hospital due to a screwed up lappy coly something or other not lack of effort..just ot make it clear) i think my writting's has gotten better..cause i used to only write small poem type things..but then i wouldn't really say they were poems cause they didn't really fit the form..
anyhow NONE of this is important..just rambels to waste time...im thinking on doing journalism..but im pretty sure on a bachelors degree in fine arts...i think..
--ickygrrlgerms--
evil worms take my mould
evil worms invade my soul
evil worms in my head
evil worms
By Fiona Gillies on Wednesday, May 6, 1998 - 11:54 am:
By Rhian on Thursday, May 7, 1998 - 11:57 am:
By Fiona on Thursday, May 7, 1998 - 01:21 pm:
By Eliste on Thursday, May 7, 1998 - 04:22 pm:
By Rhian on Tuesday, May 12, 1998 - 03:10 pm:
By Trista on Wednesday, May 13, 1998 - 07:46 am:
i just had to share this vision i just had after reading a bit on this site. there are so many of us that are depressed or burdened by emotional caca. i can see us all, all over this planet, hanging out on our couches munching doritoes or fat free tofu ice dream and being depressed. its a pretty funny sight - thousands of us. we are not alone. we'll all meet more nrrdgrrls eventually.
and i must say that i prefer being emotional, depressed, caring, creative, intelligent and AWARE than some bubblehead
and, shampoo, i think you're beautiful cuz you're so real.
peace, trista
By Shampoo on Wednesday, May 13, 1998 - 08:17 pm:
By ZoOeY on Thursday, May 14, 1998 - 01:26 am:
That overrated dope-addict actor is already mooned by multiple starstruck pubescent girls who constantly drool over his photographs.
Nothing wrong with having a fantasy but it annoys me greatly.
Thank you.
Psst. Isn't this supposed to be a Nrrdgrrl website, not some sleazy bulletin board for Hollywood fans?
And Shampoo, yes, you are beautiful because you are real. Perhaps you might disagree because of the disparity between our beauty standards but it doesn't have to be about external appearances.
By Trista on Thursday, May 14, 1998 - 11:38 am:
i'm getting that special rip-off- my-clothes(and makeup)-dance-and-sing-in-the-moonlight feeling!
i want to feel my fat thighs jiggling an homage to femininity!
i want to sing and howl and cry and laugh 'til i puke! (well, maybe not so...)
i DON'T want to go to aerobics or explain one more time to a man that those squiggly blue marks on my legs are NOT a bruise.
care to dance? : )
trista
By F.C on Sunday, May 17, 1998 - 02:17 pm:
Do you guys think it`s weird that i`m in my late teens and never had a boyfriend or even kissed anyone before?
By Shampoo on Sunday, May 17, 1998 - 06:38 pm:
Ever notice that when you hate someone with a passion, they could be the nicest looking person on earth but you'd still find them ugly? and when you really like someones personality and just adore them either as a friend or as something more, they become just gorgeous to you. I have a hard time finding physical "flaws" in my friends, because I just never notice them.
Trista - I'll dance! I'm not gonna care about body hair anymore!! I'm not gonna worry that some of my friends think I dress slutty! Hell, I'll just rip of my clothes, too, and streak the neighbourhood!!
Zooey - like 5 months ago you asked me what kind of shampoo I use and I never answered that. I use down under naturals papaya shampoo and conditioner. It works really well.
FC - no i don't think it's weird. there is so much pressure on young girls like us to have oodles of boyfriends and get kissed all the time and all sorts of crap like that, but in reality it doesn't usually happen that way, and there's nothing wrong with that. take things at your own pace and dont worry what everyone around you is doing, that's their business. and about the "snob" thing - you shouldn't think of yourself that way! getting good grades does not make a snob (go and check out the "struggle of smart grrls" forum in one of the other "just plain talks"). It's probably the lack of self confidence you have that's doing this to you and making you think that way. there's lots of things you can do to build up your self confidence. stop worrying what others think and doing what you want to do is a big step. also, focusing on the good things about you helps a lot. whenever i start getting all depressed and stuff i think about the good friends i have who'll like me no matter what I'm sure you have some great things about you that you just didn't notice before.
I used to have such low self confidence because I tried too hard to make people like me by becoming like them - dressing like them and acting like them. but that didn't work. now that i'm just being myself, my confidence level is way up there and I'm much happier and people like me because i'm me. a little crazy at times, likes to talk loud and be noisy during class, laughs at stupid stuff and gets good grades. I may not be all that pretty, but guys are noticing me now because i'm letting them (if that makes any sense). I wear the clothes I wanna wear regardless of who doesn't like them. I like them and that's all that matters. If you don't like yourself, how can you expect anyone else to like you? Once you're happy with yourself the way you are, everyone else will follow.
-shampoo
By Rhian on Saturday, May 23, 1998 - 05:20 pm:
you know what, I think that me, f.c, zooey, shampoo and trista should all get together. It doesn't matter how old we are, we're all girls and i think we'd get along great.
F.C; I don't see the rush to get into a relationship and you definately not be influenced by other people. Those how get loads of borfriends in thier highschool years don't usually end up settling down.
Shampoo; we could swap personalities and no-one would be the wiser. Back in year seven I was such a dork, but only because I tried to copy and be like everyone else, basically a phoney. But then I realised the error of my ways and now i've rebuilt my reputation, a couple of boys have now asked me out (they're both complete wierdos and i dont like them but all the same it's a start) I've got way more friends and even the so-called 'in crowd' respect me
Zooey; I'm sorry, I didn't really realise what this bulletin board was all about
By Anonymous on Friday, May 29, 1998 - 11:19 am:
see at the start of this school year my "friends" dumped me and so i was really hurt and started hanging around with another group and just yeaterday a girl i've known forever told me one of my new-er friends tthought i was a shithead and worth nothing and she only talked to me cause she felt sorry for me.I feel so alone cause i was just starting it feel safe again.I have never done anything wrong but people keep dumping me.i always try to be my self and i think that scares people cause i don't smoke just to be cool i wear what i wanna wear stuff like that.But now i am so afraid to be me.I just don't wanna be dumped again- it hurts so much i don't deserve it .does anyone have advice?
By Anonymous on Friday, May 29, 1998 - 03:30 pm:
You mentioned in one of your messages that two weirdos asked you out. Are you sure they're really weirdos? Why not go out with them and see. I'm sure I look and seem weird to people around me. In fact, a new friend of mine told me that before we were friends she did think I was strange. But now she knows me and loves me!
We girls are always saying that we shouldn't be judged on appearances/first impresiions etc. Well the same goes for guys. Be Fair!!
Ulrika
By Trista on Saturday, May 30, 1998 - 05:11 am:
i'm back...i was real busy for a few days.
rhian, i'd love us all to get together, but i'm living in germany right now. i'm from seattle and i miss it terribly. but i've got a lot of good things going here right now so i'll be sticking around. luckily i can keep in contact with two wonderful, healthy strong women friends on the net! if anyone would like to discuss interests personally (shampoo!) please feel free to email me at HartmutBeck@oci.uni-hannover.de . i' love to share more!
peace, trista
By Trista on Saturday, May 30, 1998 - 05:23 am:
don't rush!
i thought it would be the most important thing when i finally had my first kiss. i was sixteen and it was really the grossest kiss. this guy stuck his toung down my throat. i felt like a roast in the slobbery jaws of a rotweiler! i waited until i was ninteen to lose my virginity. now i wish i had waited much much longer. most of the guys i've been intimate with i could have done without. really. there's nothing wrong with a hot safe night. but nothing beats true love passion. at thirty, i'm still questioning my sexuality and i treat my body as a temple - i don't let just anyone in. so please take my advice...if you're not into it then wait. listen to your mind and body and feelings. your sexuality is a precious gift.
with love, trista
By Rhiannon on Thursday, June 4, 1998 - 12:02 pm:
The point is that these boys are not all that ugly but they're also really anoying and they're also perverts. One of them sprays deodarent on other girls' shirts so that they can see through them, and the other is always touching my leg up. Usually the most gorgeous blokes are the most snobbiest, so I don't usually go for them. the only reasons I will go out with a boy is if he is understanding and has a good sense of humour. Maybe if they are good looking but they have to have both of those qualities as well.
By Nikki on Friday, June 5, 1998 - 02:16 am:
But he must really love me. Most guys get pissed off and leave. He's stuck right by me. Even when we found out I have mild depression. He told me all he wants is to stay with me to make sure I remain happy. I guess though, thats what depression does. It makes you feel worthlesss and crap, and like you're alone. I'm lucky I have him. I'm lucky he loves me, mental illness, PMS, general moodiness and more! But I just wish I could accept that he loves me and relax with him more. He's put up with me for a year so far...I hope he hangs around for ALOT longer.
By Nikki on Tuesday, June 9, 1998 - 04:58 am:
He took me to the Zoo last Sunday. And we had the BEST weekend ever in months. Maybe the whole story has to be told. Back in January, I asked my boyf to marry me. A serious proposal. He said yes. It was gorgeous. We went to the beach and made our way to the rocky point. I hugged him and asked him what he saw. "Water" he replied. I asked how much? "Lots. Too much to even comprehend". I told him thats how much I loved him. Would he marry me one day? He was soooooo happy. I was grinning like an idiot too. But then one morning things went horribly wrong. His parents had been separated since he was 9, and his biggest fear is having the same done to his kids, so he said, in a roundabout way, that he didn't want to marry in the first place to hurt innocent kids.
I was hurt. I'm over it now, but for months after I brooded. It caused probs. Every weekend I'd see him and be in tears over something or another. A close friend said it was a test to see if we could work through it. We did. And last weekend was the BEST. It was the first in months we didn't end up in tears. Yes, he cried too, especially when I suggested we quit while we were ahead. I never realised what I meant to him. He loved me. Here was a guy, LOVING me, and I was not helping by brooding on a comment he meant no harm initally by. He proposed to me the other week. He looked at the stars and pointed out the brightest, taking my hand and said "I don't have a ring, but I'll give you that star. Marry me?". Of course you'd know my answer.
Well, I just wanted to share my happiness. I'll now go, with a smile.
But I have to rememebr I deserve this. He's mine, and I worked for him, bastard after bastard, he came along and changed my life. He is my best friend.
Thankyou if you cared enough to read this.
By In denial on Wednesday, June 10, 1998 - 02:54 am:
We've been together now..umm comming up on three years..and we're your typical highschool sweet-heart mush heads...or we used to be now we're just really accquainted with each other and really really comfortable with each other that theres no more plastic casing hiding anything from each other like there had been say the first year we were trying to get moonstruck starry weepy eyed love sick.
Yet like Nikki at times i wonder why he's even bothering to waste his time and whatnot on me..it's not like i always respond so affectionately to him...sometimes i think that if i were with your all hung out asshole that maybe i wouldn't think that i wasn't good enough to actually enjoy a relationship. He thinks the same thing about me so we have little conflicts over who doesn't deserve who more.."i do" "no i do" etc. we've even gotten into little bloody battles which always end up in some kissykissykissy mood to smooth over that patch.
it never works though..because the same problem occurrs a little ways down the road just a little more intense. i'm a firm believer that the more emotion you show in a relationship the thicker you are...although i must admit i am really sick of fighting all the time about stupid little nothing..but then again the make up period is always sweeter. this doesn't really have any point to it and i don't really know why i wrote it..maybe its the sound of the rain..maybe its Nikki's story..maybe its a sly way of letting myself know that i do deserve and *need* him more than i know..and maybe i should be telling..err..writing him instead of here..he always like shakespere..i should writeth him somethingeth..err..whatever...dull..boredom.."someone should slap me again!"
in denial,
mandy
By Nikki on Friday, June 12, 1998 - 01:20 am:
Well, I won't be seeing him until Saturday night...which is a real pisser. His boss asked him to work overtime. He knows I'm upset, but I know he needs the money (we had 2 car accidents in a week! Gotta pay the damamge), so even though he offered to take the day off, I told him to forget it, earn some money for us...and our future.
School is pissing me off. Why is the emphasis on education?!? What am I working towards? I have absolutely NO motivation. I have no idea what I'm going to do career wise.
Then theres my part time job. Just yesterday, my boss and the other supervisor (I'm a supervisor) decided that instead of rotating w/ends, I will work the Sundays and John* will work the Saturdays. Without consulting me! I mean, I'm young and I go out on Saturday nights. I can't turn up fresh faced to work a 10 hour shift with the hangover of the century! Besides, I have to study AND fit in my boyfriend and family somewhere. Anyone able to offer a solution?
Then theres my friends. Bah! I'm not going to bother. Well, enjoy your w/ends, grrls.
PS. can anyone tell me WHY 12-14 yr old girls HAVE to insist on wearing skimpy clothes in the middle of winter and make-up to out-do Boy George circa 1984? It makes me sick. These poor children are degrading themselves and producing images of themselves that COULD be quite beautiful.
It's a shame society has to invest in the "sex sells""Thin is beautiful""Little Girl Lost" campaigns. And they wonder why teen girl suicide rates are rising. The pressure is too much...
* Names have been changed to protect some persons.
By Rhiannon on Friday, June 12, 1998 - 04:21 pm:
I'm really excited, to most of you this may sound a bit sad but, next friday I will be going to my first ever club, the Friday Night Boulavard for under eighteens. It all started when one of my friends in year ten (I'm in year nine) said, sarcasticly, "I need a man in my life, do you need a man in your life?" and that's when we decided to go, me and that girl, Helen, and my friends Josaphine and Naomi, hoping to meet some boys and have some alround fun!!!!
By Nikki on Friday, June 12, 1998 - 10:45 pm:
I have a new gripe. Snotty-nosed bitches at *trendy* boutiques who are all like "Dahhhhling, that frock looks absolutely deviiiiiine! Amex? Of courssssse, Dahhhhhhhling!"
And they place the mirrors outside the change room, so you *have* to leave the safe little cubicle, so everyone outside can see how hideous you look in this designer label skirt that probably only cost the manufacturer $1.20 to make in some Taiwaneese sweatshop, that would set you back $145!!!
And never mind that the skirt looks "deviiiiine" on the manequin, salesgirl and 12 year old in the ad campaign! As soon as a REAL woman steps into the outfit, it goes out of fashion, only for the designers (who strangely enough are male!) to bring out some other frightful peice that only comes in size 8 or smaller.
My main point is: Get rid of the 12 year olds, the snotty bitches and the stupid designs. Make some gorgeous clothes for us gorgeous women, who come in all sizes, shapes and colorways!
Viva la Curves!!!!!!
By Nikki on Friday, June 12, 1998 - 11:08 pm:
I didn't mean to sound ungrateful for my boy, nor rub it in that I have one, so I apologise if it was taken the wrong way. But so many people are always saying "oh I wish I had a boyfriend". I used to as well. But honestly? It's not always easy. Sure, it's nice and all, but there are so many tiems you just *think* about how great single life was. It's tempting to sometimes revert to singledom again too! Just think, you NEVER have to feel guilty for looking at other guys...hey you can even approach them!
But I said before, I was once like those other girls that want a boy. I was forever wishing and hoping for one. But be careful what you wish for! I had a string of nasty guys. Jealous types that won't let you look sideways at your brother, the ones that thought it was *ok* to sleep with your friends, the guy that thinks beer and peanuts at a sleazy pub is the perfect romantic night out.
So I stopped wishing. I decided to go out and enjoy my femininity. I spent $2000 on clothes in one hit, went out to the movies with my girl friends, had old fashioned slumber parties, kissed a couple of guys (NEVER any more.) I even kissed a couple of grrls. I enjoyed my life, my friends and celebrated strength.
Then out of nowhere came my current boy. And because I wasn't looking for a guy, I had no expectations. And it was vice versa. So we built ourselves, became stronger together. We became best friends, while becoming lovers. And it is that friendship that keeps us strong. We may argue, disagree and pick on eachother, but then again, is there *anyone* in the world that has a perfect relationship with anyone, not just lovers? Is there anyone who doesn't at *times* dislike themselves?
What I'm getting at is go out! Have FUN! Enjoy being a young, single grrl. Don't sit and wait around for Prince Charming, nor go out to find him. He will turn up when you least expect! You sound like a pretty cool, level headed Grrl, Rihannon. Sorry if I got to you in any way.
Be cool!
By Anonymous on Sunday, June 14, 1998 - 10:14 am:
guys, but i want to talk about something that really buggers me.I've got this problem:I'm really mature for my age, i know this sounds concieted, but it's true! Plus, i go to a "EUOPEAN SCHOOL", which is one of nine schools in europe which are devided into the principle european langueges:italian, french, german, dutch and english. I'm in the Italian section and there are only 2 girls in my class! Since i've started there i'e had this constant problam of not fitting in . sorry to have inturupted your argument.
By Nikki on Monday, June 15, 1998 - 12:04 am:
But seriously, why fit in? Why box yourself, so you can't change? I vote you just be cool, and diesel, and just HAVE FUN!!!!! They'll see how cool you are and how swotty they are and then THEY'LL wanna fit in.
C Ya's...
By Emma on Friday, July 3, 1998 - 03:20 pm:
By A sad 4-eyes on Friday, July 10, 1998 - 04:51 pm:
By Wominist on Sunday, July 12, 1998 - 10:09 pm:
Well lo and behold I'm finished highschool next year and if I ever save up enough money I'm getting me a pair of glasses! I think they add major sex appeal. If your looking to magazines and television for fashion advice, you're looking in the wrong place dear!
By Anonymous on Monday, July 13, 1998 - 08:25 am:
By Rhiannon on Monday, July 13, 1998 - 03:17 pm:
Hey 'sad 4-eyes'I might have to wear glasses in about a year and really want them, you know why? Because they are just coming into fashion so by that time they will be, so you are way ahead. Have you also realised how they hardly ever have balck people in magazines aswell. I am not black, but I am a light hippy and I'm against all forms of prejudice. Hitler is equal to Satan in my view.
By the way, dose anyone else here LOVE west-end theatre? (If you think that I am sad you may tell but I won't care). If you do which shows do you like?
By Rhiannon on Monday, July 13, 1998 - 03:28 pm:
By A sad 4-eyes on Wednesday, July 15, 1998 - 03:54 pm:
Sorry if i offened you.. I'm not really obbsessed with image.. it's just my glasses make me feel ugly or something.. I know true beauty is on the inside but still...
I don't really have any friends that are really close..except maybe my sister. Probably because I'm so shy and I kind of isolate myself and don't talk that much...So it seems that because i don't talk that much people will judge me by how i look.. I know this is really stupid but it's hard for me not to feel that way.. Yes i know.. true friends don't care how you look it's what kind of person you are... I just need to keep telling myself that i guess.. Thanks for all the people that wrote back.....
By Rhiannon on Monday, July 20, 1998 - 03:35 pm:
p.s DOES ANYONE HERE LIKE MUSICALS e.g. Les Miserables.
By Rhiannon on Wednesday, July 22, 1998 - 02:52 pm:
By Wominist on Wednesday, July 22, 1998 - 06:20 pm:
I'm glad you made decent friends, see, justice is always served. I haven't seen Les Miserables, I've seen Phantom and I loved it. Where do you live?
By Rhiannon on Thursday, July 23, 1998 - 04:47 pm:
I saw Phantom of the Opera when I was six and I LOVED it and we are going to see it again this coming Christmas and I saw Les Miserables on february 2nd this year for my birthday which is on the 17th. Have you ever heard of the Silvia Young Stage School, I'm going there for a week next week for their summer school and I'm really nervious that I won't be up-to-scratch, I want to be a theatre actress when I'm older and maybe go into film, I'm too keen on film because these days it's mainly all about fame, and I just want to perform. Thanks for responding to my letter sorry if it was a bit boring. It's so releaving to find someone who loves Phantom as much as I do! bye!
By Wominist on Thursday, July 23, 1998 - 08:42 pm:
By Just call me Care on Friday, July 24, 1998 - 01:49 pm:
This is "a sad 4 eyes". Thanks for your message.I'll try to use your advice when school starts. it must have been hard growing up with your dad being an alcoholic. My mom was in the same situation except. It was so bad, she had to live with her relatives for many years(when she was little;like 5). He( my grandpa) still has the same problem now and my grandma has picked up on the habit too. I wish they wouldn't. It's scary when they call our house when they're drunk and start crying and everything. My mom and her 3 sisters are trying to help them. I hope it will do some good...
I've only seen one musical.. The Phantom a couple months ago on a school chorus trip. it was pretty cool except I was way in the back and really couldn't see much.. Most of the time I couldn't hear what they were saying, but that's OK. It was fun anyway. :)
Care :)
By Endora (formerly known as Lee) on Friday, July 24, 1998 - 09:43 pm:
My mom & dad were both alcoholics, so is my brother. My mom & step-dad met at an AA meeting.
Alcoholics tend to take out their insecurities on others. Don't let them get to u. U sound like a good person, don't let their weirdness affect u. I'm 32 & I remember what it was being 14 & worrying what other people would think. Anyone interested in a discussion group for daughters of alcoholics?
By Rhiannon on Saturday, July 25, 1998 - 03:00 pm:
By Care on Saturday, July 25, 1998 - 08:58 pm:
By Laurel on Sunday, July 26, 1998 - 04:42 pm:
By Fashion Queen on Sunday, July 26, 1998 - 06:45 pm:
You are going to Sylvia Young Stage School? You are SOOO lucky! I would love to go there - even for a week! That was where all the stars went!
Like you, I also wanna ba a theatre actress... I LOVE musicals! I love acting and singing and dancing! These are my passions in life!! I really love musicals also.... Have you ever seen FAME the musical..... It is fabulous! Grease was good too but not as good as Fame. I've been in quite a lot of amateur productions though, such as Annie and My Fair Lady and I love what I am doing.
Email me Rhiannon, I live in the Uk, we have loads in common! (Email me at LISA822278@aol.com)
P.S. I sing a great "I dreamed a dream" from Les Mis - Even if i do say so myself!
By Rhiannon on Tuesday, July 28, 1998 - 04:02 pm:
I bet I can sing it better than you!
By Rhiannon on Tuesday, July 28, 1998 - 04:04 pm:
What do you like?
What are your hobbies?
By Laurel on Friday, July 31, 1998 - 10:06 am:
By Shampoo on Saturday, August 1, 1998 - 01:05 am:
Nikki, your guy sounds truly amazing. does he have a brother in the 16-20 range??
Rhiannon - thanks for including me in who should get together, that's awesome. By the way, I have seen the phantom, les miserables, and joseph and the technicolour dream coat. I have also seen carmen, the pearl fishers, nabucco, peter grimes, madama butterfly, il travitore, salome, la boheme and the barber of seville. those are operas, though.
Trista - I'll email ya! in fact i'll do it as soon as I'm done here. Which I am.
By Fashion Queen on Saturday, August 1, 1998 - 03:30 pm:
By Rhiannon on Saturday, August 1, 1998 - 04:48 pm:
I've seen;
Phantom of the Opera,
Rigoletto,
Les Miserables,
Martin Guerre,
Jesus Christ Superstar,
Jesus Christ Superstar (again),
Joseph and his Technicolour Dream Coat,
Blood Brothers,
Miss Saigon,
Miss Saidon (again),
Cats,
Starlight Express,
Starlight Express (again),
Fame,
Grease.
As you can see I live for the theatre!
By Rhiannon on Sunday, August 2, 1998 - 02:40 pm: